Tuesday, February 26, 2008;
title: Precious Post
well, I am finally blogging again :)
hmm... nothing very much happened to me for the past few days, and as usual my 9-5 work (being almost late for work everyday and always volunteering to stay back in office for 1 hour without OT) in Tokio. But, something out of the blue did happen to me.
There was this period of time when I was helping Mdm Teo with her stuff at Beacon Primary. Then a letter came from Seacare manpower (the"agency" which was involved in giving out our salary in government schools... in this context, it would refer to Beacon Primary), saying that my salary would come in on the 7th February. But as I checked my bank account plus minus one week 7 Feb, I realised that the money did not bank into my account. It was only recently that I found out that there was some screwup between the school and Seacare and that was why they had not processed my pay. Hopefully the money would be banked in by the end of this month, as promised by the person in charge of Beacon Primary. Throughout the whole event, I was feeling very exasperated and worried because of the fact that my pay had not been in and that why is it me that is experiencing such problems when all my other friends have gotten their pay on time?? I don't like the feeling of being worried for things, and especially in this matter, where I should have trusted God in ensuring everything would be fine.
Perhaps, this feeling was coupled together with my anxiousness regarding the release of my A level results. I did not feel so worried for my results when I was receiving my PSLE and O level results... but for the very first time, I was afraid I would score badly, even in my dreams.... ARGH!!! I don't want to feel this way. It made me feel as if I was not trusting in God's Sovernity and power to pull me through... I don't want to feel this way :(
Haha... I guess all these things happen to me so that I would be "forced" to turn back to God once again. As I was pondering about why my mum is so kan cheong about my trip to stuttgart when God would make everything smooth, this verse from Philppians came into my mind (sorry can't think of the exact location off my head now): "
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplications, let your request be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." Amen :)
Well, it's back to basics for me again... as I once again ponder about this verse and to live out the true meaning of this verse. To end off, I would like to quote another verse from the bible, from Psalm 48:14 (oh, I am currently pursuing the book of psalms for my daily bible reading, although I only spend time reading when I am on my way home on the bus :S), the very last verse which says:
"For this is God,
Our God forever and ever.
He will be our guide
Even to death."My memory verse of the day. I was especially touched by the last part... because He loved us so much even when we die, He will still be our guide. Amen.
And I have Christ... in Me! ~
11:47:00 PM
Sunday, February 10, 2008;
title: My first post in 2008!
First and foremost... Happy 2008 to all who reads my blog and this post and a happy chinese new year :))
I AM SO SO SORRY!!! So sorry for not posting anything for a long long long.... long time. Was rather busy with work plus the fact that my computer had no access to the Internet for close to a month... So as a result, I can only do my first blogging in 2008 now.... 8-|
Hmmm... for me, life's has been... ok lor... Haha... quite a typical answer eh? Working as an admin assistant in Tokio Property Service P/L has been quite an eye-opener... Introduced me to the reality of life, office politics, franking of letters, data entry.... BUT BUT, I don't like it when things in the office gets busy.... Everybody just want to finish their work asap... so will push more jobs to people like me... Admin is really one big saikang job sia... I am not going to be an admin person in the future manz... Unless if that's the only job left for me to take lor...
Oh oh... and I would like to share something that was mentioned in meeting today :) Kind of a revelation to me...
In Numbers 12:3, as bro daniel was sharing today, the verse goes like this: "(Now the man Moses was very humble, more than all men who were on the face of the earth.)" Well, at first when I read this verse, I was treating it plainly as it is. But when bro daniel asked this question "Who was the person that wrote this book of Numbers?" All of a sudden, it wow-ed me... because Moses was the one who wrote this book, by the inspiration of God that is :)
Then you might ask, why Moses is so thick-skinned to have wrote this verse down the book, and to even claim that he was very humble more than all men on the face of the earth? Well, because God wanted him to write that down and he just obeyed the calling and wrote it down... Although he could have resisted it if he thinks it is very paiseh for him. Or else he could have continued on bragging about himself throughout the entire book, and without the putting on of the brackets. From here, it showed me that true humility is not when someone praise you, you kind of reject the person's praise for you... that's only an outward appearance before men. But if in your heart, you become paiseh because you wanted people to leave a good impression about you so that more praises will come your way, that is not humility already...
True humility is one where you don't purposely seek after praises or drawing others' attention towards you, but one that just do what is required of you and do not allow the praises of men to sink deep in your heart... or else pride will creep in and cause you to be full of yourself...
Well, i have also come to learn that being timid/shy is actually an act of pride. According to dicti
onaries' definition, pride is a feeling of self-respect and personal worth. Hence, by being timid/shy you are actually having a feeling of self-respect and personal worth... because you will think that you are not up to the standard to do this thing/job/work, which is a form of measuring your personal worth (and maybe respecting yourself for not being able to do it??). Haha... so from now on, I will try not to resist God's calling (as far as possible :|) when he ask me to do something that makes me timid/shy. just dowhat you are suppose to do and whatever people might say, let them say it... as long as we are accountable before God, which is by far the most important thing :)
Haha... hope you people are not bored by my sharing above... Hope to blog more often in the future and hopefully share more stuff with all of you regarding God and His desires... Ok, now is kind of late already... So goodbye to you as of now :))
And I have Christ... in Me! ~
10:56:00 PM
