Well I think that this post comes a little late... but anyway, I've finally done something to my modules... And the final verdict is: I've dropped CBC811, i.e. forensic science, and to stick on with my German language module instead :) So now I'm happy with my 6 modules, 20 AUs status :D
Well, I think it was really the Lord's will for me to take up German instead of holding onto forensic science... HE sort of spoke to me when after Reimin was telling me to give up forensic science instead (since I was so stressed between choosing forensic over German) because the subject will be quite tough (which I now think back, difficulty should be about the same). But anyway, after Reimin told me so, I went to my bed and prayed before the Lord, feeling super super vexed over it, asking Him to tell me if I really should give up forensic science for German language module. And then very amazingly, He told me that I should give up forensic and take up German instead and afterwards, He gave me peace in my heart and all of a sudden, all my anxieties have disappeared at that instant. Therefore, I knew immediately that this answer IS from the Lord and I really thank Him for helping me to decide which course I should drop (since I kind of did not wait for Him to answer me if I should take up the German module or not in the first place). So it's another realisation to me that how impatient I am before the Lord. But I still thank God that I still have time to continue to learn how to be patient before Him. And now my love for learning German seems to be increasing, seeing that how my interest for this language grows and I kind of just feel excited about learning this language more. Hopefully the Lord will continue to sustain this interest of mine and I know that He will tide me through the whole course even if it gets dry becuase He allows me to take up this module and to give up the highly popular forensic science module.
On another note, recently I have been reading through the book of both Jeremiah and Ezekiel... and through these 2 books, the Lord really tells me to just go and preach the gospel boldly to the people in NTU, whether or not these people listen or accept the things that I say... And especially in the first chapter of Jeremiah, when the LORD told Jeremiah that he should not be afraid to speak for HIM just because he was a youth back then. And also in Ezekiel, the LORD told him to speak for HIM to the children of Israel in Babylon although HE knows that they are a rebellious group of people... well because HE will hold Ezekiel accountable if he didn't, since the LORD's hand was upon him. Well, these things really speak right to me because I'm kind of afraid to preach the gospel to others, fearing that I will be rejected by them (although I know HE will be with me) and maybe I think that I am too young to do so... (actually more of being encouraged by Jeremiah's experience that even a young lad can speak for God... so that means I can do it too ;P)
Ha, so hopefully the Lord will raise opportunities up for me to preach this Good News to whom He wants me to and I better not chicken out... which I am so afraid that I would, because I most likely would! (And then afterwards feeling so sad that I've failed Him yet again... But Praise the Lord that He never give up on me and HE still gives me chance to try :D)
Hmm. I would like to end this post with a hymn... a hymn which will always pop out in my brain whenever I told myself to sing some Christian songs while walking.
You are my strength when I am weak,You are the treasure that I seek.You are my All in All.Seeking You as a precious jewel,Lord, to give up I'd be a fool.You are my All in All.Jesus, Lamb of God. Worthy is Your name. (x2)Taking my sin, my cross, my shame,Rising again I bless Your name.You are my All in All.When I fall down, You'll pick me up.When I dry, You'll fill my cup.You are my All in All.Jesus, Lamb of God. Worthy is Your name. (x2) Auf Wiedersehen!
