Haha... I've got lots of stuff on my hands to do right now... BUT i am here blogging... Well, I'll just post something to liven up my blog then.

Actually for the past week and this week too, I've realised something about myself. I am a selfish girl... Why do I say that? Well, as I recollect the things that I have been praying before the Lord, it seems to me that I've been praying for things that's revolving around me to be to my advantage and also to get me out of sticky situations when it was me who first plunged into it. For example, to clear things a little, praying that there is fine weather when I am swimming, praying that I will not get chosen for some job application that I impulsively signed up for, praying that God will help me to decide which subjects to drop etc. My point here is that we should not at all pray to God when we want bad things to pass by not so badly or don't bother God about such minor things, BUT that throughout all the things that I prayed for, I did not pray for God's Will to be done on Earth as it is in Heaven and about things which God pleases, like the building up of His house (i.e. the Church) through gospel preaching and remembering the lost ones through prayers.

Sigh... how dominant is the flesh that's in me...

Lord, I really feel that I lack the love to love you more each day... Please Lord Jesus, grant me more of Your love to me each day so that I can learn to love you and the people around me... Amen.

When you love someone, you just want to go all out to do the things that makes your loved ones happy... And I know that my God is happy when I do His will and cause more people to know Him for the building up of the Church. So Lord, teach me to be a pleasing servant in Your sight. Amen.

And I shall do something here now which hopefully the Lord will be pleased. Well, I shall type in here the gist of the gospel that millions of Christians have preached throughout all ages; and also for non-believers to take a look and understand the basis of what we Christians believed in.

In Summary:

1. All human have sinned and have fall short of the glory of God. Sin here does not refer to the bad things that people do, but rather the inherent Sin that all of us have once we were born, no matter how good you are throughout your walk on Earth.

2. The consequence of having the Sin in us: DEATH. Some may ask: Who says I've got sin? I've never ever done a single bad in my life! But sorry my friend, as I've said earlier, Sin is not determined by the number of good or bad things that one have done. And the evidence of the presence of Sin is very clear; because we have Sin, we have to die. Furthermore, such death will not stop when we pass on, but rather it is ETERNAL. If there's nothing to save us from Sin, our fate will definitely be ETERNAL PERDITION!

3. The SOLUTION: Jesus Christ came down to this Earth as a human to be our Lamb of sacrifice. He came down to die for us, shed His blood and on the 3rd day after His death, He resurrected and later (and finally) went up to Heaven to sit at the Right hand of the Father. Why Jesus Christ? You may ask. That's because our Father God wants us to return back to Him because He loved us SO SO much. But Sin is hindering us from reaching out to God. Then God decided to sent His only begotten Son, Jesus Christ, who is the only one who is sinless and pure and right before God, to die for us. Only through the death of a sinless person can his blood be used to cleanse everyone else of their Sin, causing us to be able to be near to God once again and also to escape eternal perdition. What's more, He arose from the grave on the 3rd day and then raised up to the Heaven - Such is an act to tell us that this God whom we preached is real and living and that we can be assured of the things He says and does, unlike all the great and mighty people of the past who died and never ever came to life again.

4. What now? Now, Jesus Christ wants you to let Him enter into your heart to be your personal Saviour. Only by accepting Him can we be sure that we will have eternal life. He has now given us a new way for us to choose and to walk on. Now in front of us we have 2 paths- eternal life (new way) and eternal death (old and destined way). Which one will you choose?? Praise the Lord, if you choose the new and living way, accept Jesus into your heart right now (call/tag me if you want to accept Him!) and don't harden your heart to His calling. He's waiting for all mankind to receive His salvation for free! It's that simple - Accept Him and you'll have eternal life!!! It is THAT simple.

Ok. Actually this summary is not short at all. But should be short enough to help everyone understand the whole picture and also to clear some doubts. Well, if there are any questions please ask me and I'll be glad to answer them to the best of my abilities.

Well, I got to go right now... clothes to wash up next on my list :s

Auf Wiedersehen!

And I have Christ... in Me! ~ 9:03:00 PM

Well I think that this post comes a little late... but anyway, I've finally done something to my modules... And the final verdict is: I've dropped CBC811, i.e. forensic science, and to stick on with my German language module instead :) So now I'm happy with my 6 modules, 20 AUs status :D

Well, I think it was really the Lord's will for me to take up German instead of holding onto forensic science... HE sort of spoke to me when after Reimin was telling me to give up forensic science instead (since I was so stressed between choosing forensic over German) because the subject will be quite tough (which I now think back, difficulty should be about the same). But anyway, after Reimin told me so, I went to my bed and prayed before the Lord, feeling super super vexed over it, asking Him to tell me if I really should give up forensic science for German language module. And then very amazingly, He told me that I should give up forensic and take up German instead and afterwards, He gave me peace in my heart and all of a sudden, all my anxieties have disappeared at that instant. Therefore, I knew immediately that this answer IS from the Lord and I really thank Him for helping me to decide which course I should drop (since I kind of did not wait for Him to answer me if I should take up the German module or not in the first place). So it's another realisation to me that how impatient I am before the Lord. But I still thank God that I still have time to continue to learn how to be patient before Him. And now my love for learning German seems to be increasing, seeing that how my interest for this language grows and I kind of just feel excited about learning this language more. Hopefully the Lord will continue to sustain this interest of mine and I know that He will tide me through the whole course even if it gets dry becuase He allows me to take up this module and to give up the highly popular forensic science module.

On another note, recently I have been reading through the book of both Jeremiah and Ezekiel... and through these 2 books, the Lord really tells me to just go and preach the gospel boldly to the people in NTU, whether or not these people listen or accept the things that I say... And especially in the first chapter of Jeremiah, when the LORD told Jeremiah that he should not be afraid to speak for HIM just because he was a youth back then. And also in Ezekiel, the LORD told him to speak for HIM to the children of Israel in Babylon although HE knows that they are a rebellious group of people... well because HE will hold Ezekiel accountable if he didn't, since the LORD's hand was upon him. Well, these things really speak right to me because I'm kind of afraid to preach the gospel to others, fearing that I will be rejected by them (although I know HE will be with me) and maybe I think that I am too young to do so... (actually more of being encouraged by Jeremiah's experience that even a young lad can speak for God... so that means I can do it too ;P)

Ha, so hopefully the Lord will raise opportunities up for me to preach this Good News to whom He wants me to and I better not chicken out... which I am so afraid that I would, because I most likely would! (And then afterwards feeling so sad that I've failed Him yet again... But Praise the Lord that He never give up on me and HE still gives me chance to try :D)

Hmm. I would like to end this post with a hymn... a hymn which will always pop out in my brain whenever I told myself to sing some Christian songs while walking.

You are my strength when I am weak,
You are the treasure that I seek.
You are my All in All.
Seeking You as a precious jewel,
Lord, to give up I'd be a fool.
You are my All in All.

Jesus, Lamb of God. Worthy is Your name. (x2)

Taking my sin, my cross, my shame,
Rising again I bless Your name.
You are my All in All.
When I fall down, You'll pick me up.
When I dry, You'll fill my cup.
You are my All in All.

Jesus, Lamb of God. Worthy is Your name. (x2)

Auf Wiedersehen!

And I have Christ... in Me! ~ 6:57:00 PM

To be honest with you, I'm kind of bored right now... Being alone in my hostel without television programme and I can only bother to sit in front of my laptop typing stuff to pass time... lol! Reimin, I can now understand how you felt yesterday when I wasn't around to keep you company... So sorry and all the best for your driving test tomorrow!!

Hmm. Day 1 (or night) in my hostel alone... I'm kind of lonely right now... I wanna talk to somebody... Or maybe it's just me that I miss my family, which I think it's rather weird for me because it'll be another 4 more days before I see them again and I've been away from home before for up till half a month in Germany! Perhaps my parents' "missing Esther" thoughts have travelled all the way to Boon Lay and I felt it... Or maybe it's just I'm lonely la... Lol!

And guess what, I added courses for my Sem 1 this morning! But anyway the main point is I added so much that I had a total of 7 modules amounting to 23au (academic units)!! That's like overloading myself la!! I don't know why I'm taking so much subject when I just step into NTU knowing nothing. Anyway, I could have just not take up the German module so that I'll have 20au such that I slightly overload myself. I don't know if I should take up the German language module... Cos I was just thinking of trying it out for a week to see if I can cope with the schedule and then later drop it if I cannot manage it. But now, I'm still torn into two and I can't decide if I should just drop it like now or give myself a chance to try out...

Oh Lord Jesus... Tell me what to do. Forgive me if I always take things into my own hands and not seeking for your advice first before deciding on anything... Save me from this dilemma and show me the way that I should take with regards to the number of modules that I should take up... Oh Lord Jesus... Teach me to be patient in hearing an answer from You... For yours is the kingdom and the power and the dominion forever and ever. Amen!

Oh oh... and while I was having my math lecture a few hours ago... I was kind of struggling in using my pencil because I had not bought an eraser yet! In cases where I need to erase my things, I had to use that little little bit of eraser that was found at the tip of my pencil to erase. There was also once when I was using the eraser, it fell off all the way to the fellow female student in front of me and I had to spend about a minute to explain to her about my eraser before she found it (cos it's too small you see...) But anyway, after the lecture, I went to the Nanyang Supermarket to finally buy an eraser and a Nanyang lecture pad... and I felt so happy that I finally bought them... Yay!!... (sigh, this sounds SO childish...)

And speaking about Nanyang Supermarket, I was quite amazed that their range of goods was like rather big... From toiletries to tools to stationery to food... Can be quite comparable to those bigger NTUC outlets. [Aiya, of course what since it's the only supermarket in NTU!] As for the prices, didn't really get to check it out thoroughly but I suppose it's rather economical ba... I'll explore again and make a more definite conclusion about the prices in my stay here to accurately determine the prices of things there!

Haha... I'll stop here for now... Feeling kind of sleepy now! Hopefully I'll get to sleep soon and not stay up like 12-1am before I finally sleep... like back in those days before school commences :S Anyway, I'll end off with these verses that Sis shufang had sent me this morning...

But the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear Him, on those whose hope is in His unfailing love.
-Psalm 33:18

The lion may grow weak and hungry, but those who seek the Lord lack no good thing.
-Psalm 34:10

And I have Christ... in Me! ~ 9:54:00 PM

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