Servant of God!

Big Hymnal 436

2010-03-23T23:22:00.008+08:00

May we all leave the world far behind us and focus on pursuing the Lord together with the saints :)

1. I've turned my back upon the world
With all its idle pleasures
And set my heart on better things,
On higher, holier treasures;
No more its glitter and its glare,
And vanity shall blind me;
I've crossed the separating line,
And left the world behind me.

Far, far behind me!
Far, far behind me!
I've crossed the separating line,
And left the world behind me.

2. I've left the old sad life of sin,
Its follies all forsaken;
My standing place is now in Christ,
His holy vows I've taken;
Beneath the standard of the cross
The world henceforth shall find me;
I've passed in Christ from death to life,
And left the world behind me.

Far, far behind me!
Far, far behind me!
I've passed in Christ from death to life,
And left the world behind me.

3. My soul shall ne'er return again
Back to its former station,
For here alone is perfect peace,
And rest from condemnation;
I've made exchange of masters now,
The vows of glory bind me,
And once for all I've left the world,
Yes, left the world behind me.

Far, far behind me!
Far, far behind me!
And once for all I've left the world,
Yes, left the world behind me.

4. My choice is made forevermore,
I want no other Savior;
I ask no purer happiness
Than His sweet love and favour;
My heart is fixed on Jesus Christ,
No more the world shall blind me;
I've crossed the Red Sea of His death,
And left the world behind me.

Far, far behind me!
Far, far behind me!
I've crossed the Red Sea of His death,
And left the world behind me.

Sharings from the Year end Church Conference 2009 :)

2010-01-06T20:45:00.003+08:00

Haha, I've kind of realised that I haven't been posting any blog post recently.. So i shall start of this new year with this post :)

Well, I shall share about what I've enjoyed during the year end conference last year from 6-9 Dec. The theme of this conference was the building up of the Church of God. In the conference, we were talking about who are the builder(s), how to gather the materials for the building, the conditions needed for the building of the Church and the manifestation of the Church.

We saw that the ultimate builder is the Triune God, the prophets and apostles, and now the saints, are the secondary builders. So now we are building upon what the patriarchs and the brethren before us have builded. As for the materials, we are the materials for God's Church, His desired dwelling place. We are the living stones for His house and as living stones we need to offer up gold (symbolises God's nature), silver (symbolises Christ's redemption for us) and precious stones (symbolises Holy Spirit's transformation work in us). We need to be moulded according to God's image in order for us to become suitable materials for His house. Therefore the most important thing in order for us to build up His Church is that everyone must be willing to take up the responsibility to do his/her part and to keep the oneness of the Church. The Church must manifest God's Glory and His attributes - One Church in one locality.

For me, I enjoyed the point that we need to be filled with the Holy Spirit and build up a close relationship with God in order to build His Church according to His plan. It is something that I need to learn to do each day so that I can be one of the faithful men/women that can be entrusted to do God's work. It also exposes my condition now before the Lord - how I've always slacken before God in the matter of reading the Bible and have fellowship with Him through prayers (it's like talking to God :D)... haha no wonder I've not been able to have enough faith in Him to do His work and to grow more in Him...

Dear Lord Jesus, save me from my current condition now and cause me to be a useful vessel for Your work... that everyday in my living I may be able to glorify you and contribute more to the building up of Your Church. Lead me and guide me each day to grow more in You... Let me not be the one who destroy what you've bulit but be a good and faithful servant that can help build the Church. You've said that You will build Your Church and I believe that it will be builded because You are ultimately the One who builds it... So let me have faith and trust in You that no matter what happens in my life, let it be all for Your building... Amen.

Haha ok, that's my sharings in a nutshell :P And well, I was quite disappointed with my results last semester... Did quite badly in my opinion... But well at least it kind of jolt me and cause me to reflect upon how I've been doing all these while... I've not been working as hard as I ought to and well, I shall work harder in the future semesters to pull my grade up to a 2nd upper... It's a must :P haha... But of course, meeting times must not be compromised :P

Hmm, it's getting late now.. Need to rest and do other stuff already... Shal post some other time when I am more free... Till then enjoy the music that's embedded in the blog.. I like how the song portrayed the fact that we must surrender our all to the Lord for His work to be done on Earth :)

till then... :D

A quick one i hope

2009-11-19T16:30:00.002+08:00

Anyway, the reason why i wanted to type this post here is because I am suppose to study for my papers starting next tues but... but... I've been on facebook and now blogger (i.e. slacking) for most of the time of the day :( Haven't really been doing much productive stuff :((

Argh... Lord Jesus save me from my laziness... :'(

Blog reviving post - experiencing God

2009-09-23T23:12:00.004+08:00

Haha... as what the title say, the main purpose of this post is to revive my blog which has underwent a one plus month long hibernation.. LOL!

Well, as a whole life during this one month plus has been rather ok on the whole... although quite a number of things had happened, those events that are more major, in my opinion, I'm currently not going to blog about it for the time being due to some factors... Anyway, readers, i guess you'll surely know them pretty soon in the near future :) so please be patient :)

ANYWAY, I shall blog about school since i've not talked about it ever since AY09/10 Semester 1 has started (and now that i'm having my recess week in 2 days' time... LOL). School has been rather ok for me in general... But must really thank God for providing me with all the modules that I'm studying right now and giving me grace and understanding to learn more new and chim stuff...

First of all, I want to thank God for giving me the modules CBC811, AAI483, HMG2, CBC931, and of course my 3 core modules namely CBC212, CBC213, CBC215. But I'm really more thankful for the first 3 modules mentioned... Well, let's first talk about CBC811...

In NTU CBC811 is a super hot module that everyone is trying to take... By the way, that's the module code for forensic science... the supposed easy to score A module (or score well enough to pull up GPA in general) especially for people like me taking chemistry or the sciences... But well, I want to thank Him because it was really by His grace that I got allocated to this module... When I went to check the number of people on waitlist for this module, there were about 2700 people eyeing for about 1300 places by the end of the whole bidding process i think... that's like a 50:50 chance of getting the module... Then I was like quite worried because when I placed this module on waitlist as my first choice, there were still so to speak vacancies left... but at the end of it when I go check the final numbers, the number of people on waitlist just shoots up tremendously!! Then I also thought about how the school will usually allocate them to first the year 4s, then year 3s and then finally year 2s and 1s... So after some calculation using simple stats and probability, I realise that the chances of me getting this module is going to be very very slim... So i started to like feel very sad and a lil depress thinking that I'll most likely not get back the module for this semester cos I needed this module to slightly load this semester, to pull up my overall GPA and yet not become so heavily weighed down by schoolwork such that I can't go for prayer and home meetings. But in the end I just entrusted this matter to God and that if He is willing to give this module to me, so be it... If not then I'll just get another module lor... And Praise the Lord that He is faithful in all things and granted me this CBC811 module :) Hallelujah! I was like super happy when I received notification that I got this module *beams*

As for AAI483, that's the module code for Choir. And well not only must you place this module on waitlist, you must also pass through an audition to be able to be registered for this module. And well as most of you all should know, I was in choir from primary school till secondary school and was once a sectional leader for soprano in my secondary school, so the audition should be a piece of cake to me la hor.... :P Well anyway, at first I thought so too... but as the auditions went on (we were to be auditioned in front of all the girls present, who were also waiting for their turn for auditions), there were a number of people who had choir background failing the audition. Then I was thinking to myself that "Wa, surely I must not take this audition so lightly if i really want to get it... If i continue to be so proud thinking that I will surely pass the audition, who knows, God may not help me to get this module..." So in the end, I confessed before Him that I was proud and that I've placed my confidence on my ability instead of on Him. I then humbled myself and told God to help me pass the audition and get the Alto slot... And praise the Lord... not only did I pass the auditions, I also got to choose whether I wanted to be a soprano or an alto... and in the end I chose to be an alto because I never got to sing as an alto before and people around me were saying that my alto voice sounds very nice... so I decided to take up this challenge and experience singing as an alto :) and Praise the Lord, everytime when I go for practice, I enjoyed myself singing and singing as an alto... haha :P

And for HMG2: German language level 2... I had placed this module on waitlist as my second choice... but I got my 3rd choice instead... a module on energy management which I also wanted to take to attempt to do a minor in environmental management. However, these 2 modules had the same exam date during the same time period. So it's either this or HMG2... Actually I didn't really place this matter in prayer before the Lord but somehow I realise that the module that was allocated to me was a 3 hour lecture on friday from 430 to 730pm... which was rather rushing for me because I have home meeting at around 8pm in the east (or alternatively I can join the home meeting with sis shufang and saints living in the west at around 8pm too)... but in any case, both felt very rushed. So after much consideration and asking before the Lord (ok i guess that can be considered as praying for this matter??), I decided to drop the allocated module and took up HMG2 instead, since I'm still rather interested in learning somemore German and felt that it was better if I take up now so that it's easier for me to catch up... And thank you Lord Jesus for the decision made because I'm still enjoying my modules and it was not rushing for me to attend home meeting (ok except maybe for last week cos I was rushing my report so I was very late for meeting).

And well, in the end I took up another module CBC931: Industrial Chemistry instead of the energy management one and decided to do a concentration in Green Chemistry for now and plan and see if I should pursue a minor in environmental management...

But all in all, I love the timetable schedule for this semester with NO 3-5 hours of break in between lessons (it happened to me last semester but at least I was staying in hostel back then so not too bad..); it's both packed and interesting for me... makes me feel like going school each day... and also on days when I end late, I get to start lesson on the following day later in general so I can have time to do tutorial and to rest... And by God's grace, I manage to rent a room in Bro Chi's house, which is near NTU so I don't have to wake up early in the morning to travel to school, since there's still no news from the school regarding hostel accomodation as I'm placed on the waitlist due to insufficient points to get a room in any of the halls of residences. All along through these decision making moments, I've indeed experienced God's guidance and grace that just pours upon me each day... And it's only now that i've truly realised that God had been leading me in selecting my modules...

Praise the Lord! Thank you Lord Jesus... I love You for Yourself and how You appear to me each time :)

A quick update I guess...

2009-08-02T14:40:00.002+08:00

Hello blog readers...

I'm so sorry that I haven't been updating this blog of mine for one month plus... Been quite busy and lazy to blog (actually laziness is more of the mian reason than been busy...) :P

Anyway, here's a quick update from me of what has happened to me for the past one month plus... Ok, basically I was working part-time as a surveyor/interviewer with the Ministry of Manpower to help them do the June Labour Force Survey...

Well, I must say that the experience working as a surveyor was quite a pressurising and not so pleasant ba... Well, I guess that only applies to me ba... Cos it's my first time like helping others do surveys, as in I was given a list of households to call or visit to help them complete the surveys. Then when I first started out, I felt quite pressurised because I could not finish a given quota of surveys to be counted working for a day for each of the first few days... Haha I even cried because the households that I first encountered with were rather harsh to me, in my opinion, and not so cooperative... and even humiliating me at times... I had even wanted to quit the job after working for the first few days... But then, the Lord showed to me that since I had agreed to take on this responsibility to finish up the surveys, I need to persevere to the end to show forth the testimony as a Christian... Furthermore, my supervisor was facing a lack in people to complete her team's quota so if I just it there, I would feel super bad and super irresponsible...

Well, throughout the survey period, I must really thank God for granting me strength to pull through.. to try my best to complete as many surveys as possible despite facing more rejections, people who just want to give you trouble, and thoughts of giving up :) Praise the Lord for He is good :D His grace and mercy is just so sufficient for me each day...

And well, during this period, I was also learning driving... I'm so going to get my manual license man... Hmm, hopefully I would not screw up during my driving test in this coming October... But I do experience that whenever I pray before each driving lesson starts for my safety, weather and to overcome whatever fear that I may have, the Lord is also faithfully to keep me safe from crashing onto others and let me learn my skills without much to fear :) So dear future learning drivers, if you are afraid of screwing up your lessons and ultimately your test, cast all your cares upon our dear Lord Jesus, for He cares for us. Amen :)

Haha... guess I'll just stop here for now... I'll end off with this hymn that I enjoy very much during the youth and young people's conference just this last June... helped me a lot during this survey job of mine...

"In Thee, O Lord, do I put my trust,
Let me never be ashamed
Deliver me in Thy righteousness.
Bow down Thine ear to me.
Deliver me speedily;
Be Thou my strong rock,
For a house of defense to save me.

For Thou art my rock and my fortress.
For Thy name's sake lead me,
Pull me out of the net they've laid
Privily for me;
Into Thy hands I commit,
My spirit Thou hast redeemed,
O Lord, God of truth,
O Lord, God of truth."

Hope I can update soon then :P

Youth Hymnal 228 and a little sharing from the YYP conference

2009-06-07T23:34:00.002+08:00

Youth Hymnal 228

Open our eyes, Lord,
We want to see Jesus,
To reach out and touch Him,
and say that we love Him.
Open our ears, Lord,
And help us to listen,
Open our eyes, Lord,
We want to see Jesus.

Haha... Praise tha Lord for this hymn... This hymn just came to me after I came out of my bathroom from bathing a while ago... LOL... But anyway this is a beautiful hymn... Showing the hymn writer's desire to see our Lord Jesus and to be close to Him... Das ist schön...

Anyway speaking about seeing our Lord Jesus and being close to Him... One way to know our Lord better is to serve Him by faith... And thus the theme of the conference was "serve by Faith". Maybe let me start my sharing of what I've gained in the youth and young people's conference (3-6 June 2009) with a "flow chart".

Knowing the Will of God -> Serving God (through faith and obedience) -> God is Glorified

When we are first saved by the Lord from sin, we became His servant already... so as a servant, our obvious duty is to serve our master - our Lord Jesus Christ! And in order to serve Him well, we need to know His will, i.e. His likes and dislikes. It's after knowing His heart's desire can we serve Him well... through our faith in Him and being obedient to what He commands us to do... Ultimately, when the people around us see such rare fruit of the Spirit (love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, and self-control), God can be glorified... Amen... Praise the Lord!

Haha... so now, in order for God to be glorified among ALL men, we as His servants and spokesperson, must live out Christ in our daily living... How then do we do so?? I believe that one very important thing that we must do is to submit to all the authorities that we have... Be it our teachers, the government, our boss, our parents etc... And not only to submit to them when we think they are right (that's actually more of doing what we right rather than obeying in most situations...), we also need to submit to them even if we think they are in the wrong...

Well, you might think that such an idea is crazy... but well, that is when we as His servants can show forth the fact that we indeed have this Christ in us that can help us obey authorities even if they are super demanding and we feel wronged. The reason why we are able to obey them is because we are not obeying men, but rather in all things that we do, we are obeying God. In Colossians 3:23 it says that "And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men". This precisely is what God wants us to do... and God will not shortchange us even if we are wronged.. If we suffer for His name sake, He will reward us accordingly...

And that where faith in the Lord has to come in... When we serve Him by obeying the authorities, we must have the faith and confidence that He will not mistreat us if we are willing to, for His sake, to lose our face (i.e. to suffer loss in pride) or to humble ourselves down before unreasonable authorities. Of course when I say that, it doesn't means to say that if someone of a higher authority than us were to ask us to do wrong things in the sight of God, we should do it. That's where knowing the Will of God comes into play... We need to know what He demands from us and what should our behaviour before Him be in different circumstances... To do all things right in His sight...

And I was reminded of a portion from the bible of what is one aspect of the Will of God - 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 "Rejoice always, pray without ceasing. In everything give thanks, for this is the will of God in you"... Yeap, so I need to rejoice always, to pray unceasingly, and to give thanks and praises to our Lord in everything :) Amen!

Haha... I shall end here for now... this conference has definitely much more riches shared to all of us who had attended it... I shall share more if I have the time to...

To God be the Glory! Praise the Lord!

"Rejoice evermore, rejoice evermore! It is better to sing than be sighing. It is better to live than be dying. So now rejoice evermore!"

To break the trend of not blogging...

2009-05-22T15:18:00.002+08:00

Hmm... I've realised that I haven't been blogging for a long long time already... Shall type something to liven my blog a little...

Life hasn't been much of ups and downs ever since holidays started... Don't know why but I seemed less motivated to do things then when I was having my exams... The sudden sense of 'don't know what to do' is coming upon me... NOOO..... even now I don't really feel like reading His Word, which I tell myself must be the first thing to do in the morning... Argh... Esther must 振作起来！I must not let my flesh overcome me...

Anyway, I'm currently having this part-time job at Sze Lang's company in Pivotal as a surveyor... Or known as Market Research Assistant... LOL... and everytime when I have to go around asking people to help fill in this survey form, I would always have to tell them that Pivotal is a subsidary company of OCBC... because people don't really know about Pivotal's existence... haha... Oh and something about my job: I'm suppose to ask local university undergraduates to fill in this employment survey form (which many thought that it didn't look like a survey at all..) and there are certain criterias to meet to hit the quota... And honestly speaking, it isn't quite good money although the payout was quite good... mainly because now most undergraduates are having their holidays and my main target audience will even be less likely to appear in school around this time... But thank God that i was still able to reach my minimum quota but not the 'perfect' quota yet.... (Err... if you all don't get it, it's ok because I don't think it's nice for me to reveal 'important' information to make you understand whatever that I was talking about just now).

ANYWAY, the main point was: Thank God for providing the surveyees for me to complete this job and to let me experience that He is indeed Jehovah Jireh and Jehovah Nissi :D

And well, I hope to maybe take this time to really let my body rest and recharge myself a little because 2 weeks from now I'm going to be super busy already... With things coming up like the YYP conference, Children's Camp, Driving lessons, and hopefully a part time job from MOM...
(speaking of which MOM hasn't replied be if I've gotten the job... wished that I would be able to get it though... But all in the hands of the Lord la... if He is willing He will give it to me... if not then I'll make further plans before Him ba :D)

Well, I had also better start editing Minor prophets messages since I'm rather free nowadays... I need to spend my time more wisely!! Lord help me to do it...! I can't do it by myself at all :( But You're able... So I'll praise You for that :DD

Haha anyway to end of this post, I'll like to present to you this song by the title of... He's Able :D

He's able, He's able
I know He's able
I know my God is able to carry me through...

He's able, He's able
I know He's able
I know my God is able to carry me through...

He healed the broken hearted,
and set the captives free.
He made the lame to walk again,
and caused the blind to see (Oh Yes!)

He's able, He's able
I know He's able
I know my God is able to carry me through...

He's able, He's able
I know He's able
I know my God is able to carry me through...

Haha... I loved this song... I first sung it when I was attending this Christian children's camp (Ching Hui's congregation). My very first christian children's camp... Hmm... brought back certain fond memories as I was singing it... especially the fact that after that camp I was able to shake off my bad habit of smelling my smelly pillow (because I forgot to bring it along with me for the camp) before going to sleep when I was younger... which I found it hard to... haha...

Amen! Praise the Lord :D

Update from Esther (finally!)

2009-04-29T23:44:00.000+08:00

Hi people!

I'm so so sorry for not updating my blog for such a long long time... Hmm... was rather busy with Hall 2 acapella practices, facebook games, and more recently being busy preparing for my final exam of my year 1 semester 2 modules... and I hereby declare that I'm officially done with my exams yesterday!! Woohoo... But at the same time I felt quite sad because this kind of marks the end of my first year in NTU, and I would have to move out of my beloved hostel and xiaofei (my roommate) would have to go back to China already...

And so, before xiaofei leaves Singapore today, the people from hall 2 acapella went to Chinatown for a KTV session yesterday (the shop's name is called 10 dollars KTV i think...). But well, in the end it turns out that only wenhan, kau sang, xiaofei and myself were able to make it for the KTV session... the rest either were still having papers then or had last minute appointment so can't make it. Anyway, yesterday was a rather subtlely crazy day for me... let me list them down... hehe....

1. Woke up rather early to prepare for my last exam paper module : CBC122

2. Went out to Chinatown to eat dinner and sing KTV with wenhan, kau sang, and xiaofei

3. Sang KTV for 5 hours... and halfway through singing I lost my voice... but after an hour of rest i think, my voice came back and i continue singing again :)

4. Ate Macdonalds for supper at 12+ am after singing with the 3 of them

5. Walked to Fullerton Hotel, Victoria Concert Hall from Chinatown after supper.. We were busy taking photos on the way there... and with the statues near the Bank of China (and xiaofei's camera proved to me that I've got shaky hands... I ~~DON'T HAVE~~ DON'T WANT TO HAVE SHAKY HANDS!! :(( )

6. We went into Fullerton Hotel to take photos... but i guess because we were too late the toilets at the basement level was locked.. too bad kau sang and xiaofei weren't able to see how the hotel's toilet looked like... lol...

7. Went up to ADM rooftop to watch the stars and chit chat a little with xiaofei and kau sang at 3am in the morning until about 430am before we go back to the hostel to sleep (and no, we didn't walk back to NTU... we obviously had to cab back to our hostel)

crazy enough? I thought it was quite mad for me already...

Yup, so my day yesterday was super long because it lasted until 430am or so... and it quite cooling outside NTU when we went out at about 3am... there was a thin layer of mist surrounding us while dews were forming on the grass patches (which i think it's cool because I never got to see that... always thought that it was due to rain in the night that the grass was wet in the morning... -_-)

And while we were having dinner at Maxwell food center yesterday, xiaofei was teaching kau sang to speak Shandong province's dialect... and he got so caught up with learning that he was always repeating the same sentences that xiaofei had taught him, with many errors and jokes popping up in between... it was quite hilarious listening to him while eating.. LOL... and in the end wenhan also kena influenced by him too... so much so for the 'serious' learning by kau sang... hahaha...

Hmm... and to think 5 hours of singing session seems long to me... before we all knew it, it's over... and like wow... i've called a lot of songs that I've liked last night though... so do the rest too... but like short changed xiaofei because she only sang for a few songs while the rest of us just kept requesting for lots of songs... but she said she wanted to only listen to us singing... so ok lor... But all in all, we all enjoyed the session a lot... Haha and I really enjoyed it too because it's been a long long while that I could just sing songs that I like, that my friends liked and enjoy the songs sung in the presence of them...

Haha... and I like finally went up to the ADM rooftop to gaze at the stars... after i kept on telling xiaofei about how I always wanted to go up to the ADM grass-patched rooftop to see stars since the semester started this year. But sadly there were only 3 super bright stars that I saw then (ok, i did see other stars too... but i had to block out the light from the ADM building in order to see them... Too bright already... haha :P) Nevertheless, at least my wish came through on the last night of my stay at NTU Hall 2 hostel... because there is no guarantee that I'll be able to have a hostel for my next academic year.. and let alone in Hall 2... :( But i'll just trust God in this matter because I've entrusted it to Him.... and to experience His leading through this matter! Praise the Lord :D

And so... my hostel life in Hall 2 ended today with both xiaofei and myself checking out of our beloved 1-2-3 at 11am... bringing the fond memories that we have back together with us... Hopefully xiaofei is able to manage her 4 luagges in Hong Kong while she travels there... Lord Jesus, may You continue to keep watch over xiaofei and cause her to be able to 'survive' in Hong Kong with her luggages....

Sob Sob :'(
University Year 1 life just ended like that...

BUT BUT...
There're more things to look forward to during my 3 months break...
Well, at least the first things that I need to do is to unpack my things that i've brought back from my hostel... Do some 'spring cleaning' for my room now that there are more stuff in my room now :S... Prepare for Children's camp and Youth and Young People's conference! Attend Youth and Young People's conference! Serve in Children's camp! Go for driving lessons! Find part time job(s)! and more... hehe...

"Not that I have already attained, or am already prefected; but I press on, that I amy lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me. Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead. I press toward that goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." -Philippians 3:12-14

Ok, that's about all for the update from me... hopefully it was enough for you all :) But too many things have happened over the time that I lasted blogged that I've no time to blog and now that I wanna blog them, I forget already... LOL... But I'll still try my very best to blog as soon as certain events in my life happen so that I can remember them... and more importantly the lessons that God want to learn through them...

Let's all experience Christ as our Jehovah Jireh!

Each blow I suffer (Big Hymnal 553)

2009-03-21T00:29:00.005+08:00

1. Olives that have known no pressure
No oil can bestow;
If the grapes escape the winepress,
Cheering wine can never flow;
Spikenard only through the crushing,
Fragrance can diffuse.
Shall I then, Lord, shrink from suffering
Which Thy love for me would choose?

Each blow I suffer
Is true gain to me.
In the place of what Thou takest
Thou dost give Thyself to me.

2. Do my heart-strings need Thy stretching,
Songs divine to prove?
Do I need for sweetest music
Cruel treatment of Thy love?
Lord, I fear no deprivation
If it draws to Thee;
I would yield in full surrender
All Thy heart of love to see.

3. I'm ashamed, my Lord, for seeking
Self to guard alway;
Though Thy love has done its stripping,
Yet I've been compelled this way.
Lord, according to Thy pleasure
Fully work on me;
Heeding not my human feelings,
Only do what pleases Thee.

4. If Thy mind and mine should differ
Still pursue Thy way;
If Thy pleasure means my sorrow,
Still my heart shall answer "Yea!"
'Tis my deep desire to please Thee,
Though I suffer loss;
E'en though Thy delight and glory
Mean that I endure the cross.

5. Oh, I'll praise Thee, e'en in weeping
Mingle with my song.
Thine increasing sweetness calls forth
Grateful praises all day long.
Thou hast made Thyself more precious
Than all else to me;
Thou increase and I decrease, Lord-
This is now my only plea.

_________

Well, this hymn from the big hymnal really touched me yesterday night during home meeting. This hymn had reminded me how it is that I should give my life to the Lord and that whatever trials and problems I may face in the future, I should consider all loss as gain... loss of what I like to gain my dear Lord Himself... Just like how the hymn mention "In the place of what Thou takest, Thou dost give Thyself to me".

But this week during my walk with Him, I realise it's very difficult to do so... super hard... because I realise that I'm still unable to give up myself to Him... sometimes I can, but most of the time I just fail Him... Argh... I can't stand... can't stand the fact that I always fail Him, turn back to my flesh and empathise with it...

Dear Lord... help me to overcome my fleshly desire and turn more to you... Cause me, Lord, not to be distracted by the things of this world... But to turn our whole being to gaze upon You in all things that I do. Help me to overcome my desires and only do what pleases You the most. Amen!

Loben den HERR!

Dueteronomy 10:12-22

2009-02-23T12:28:00.001+08:00

Dueteronomy 10:12-22 --

12 "And now, Israel, what does the LORD your God require of you, but to fear the LORD your God, to walk in all His ways and to love Him, to serve the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul,

13 "and to keep the commandments of the LORD and His statutes which I command you today for your good?

14 "Indeed heaven and the highest heavens belong to the LORD your God, also the earth with all that is in it.

15 "The LORD delighted only in your fathers, to love them; and He chose their descendants after them, you above all peoples, as it is this day.

16 "Therefore circumcise the foreskin of your heart, and be stiff-necked no longer.

17 "For the LORD your God is God of gods and Lord of lords, the great God, mighty and awesome, who shows no partiality nor takes a bribe.

18 "He administers justice for the fatherless and the widow, and loves the stranger, giving him food and clothing.

19 "Therefore love the stranger, for you were strangers in the land of Egypt.

20 "You shall fear the LORD your God; you shall serve Him, and to Him you shall hold fast, and take oaths in His name.

21 "He is your praise, and He is your God, who has done for you these great and awesome things which your eyes have seen.

22 "Your fathers went down to Egypt with seventy persons, and now the LORD your God has made you as the stars of heaven in multitude."

Amen. These are the verses which I kind of enjoyed during my morning watch today... Throughout Deuteronomy chapter 10, and even 11, Moses kept on reminding the Israelites to fear the LORD, to serve Him with all their hearts and souls, and more importantly to love Him... So shall these be my reminder too :)

A once-in-a-blue-moon post

2009-02-19T19:52:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone... I'm so sorry that I haven't been posting up a blog for a long long time... :S Was kind of busy in the recent weeks... with all the test coming up all of a sudden... then was also a little busy with hall2 acapella practices... and of course, not to forget spending time going to meetings - prayer, home, yyp, truth edification, Lord's table... which I never regret spending so much time on them...

But anyway, since I'm a little free to do some blogging... (although I have a physics test coming up tomorrow... but shall do that later :P) Haha... I shall blog about the campus pursue in NTU today then :)

There was Bro. Bok Woon, Bro. Kok Yong, Jason and myself. Sze Lang has an interview then so she can't join us :( But anyway, we were reading John 16. We saw much light and revelation through this chapter... Like how when our Lord came to this Earth, whatever that He does is not from His own thoughts, will, and authority... But everything came from the Father... whatever the Father says, the Lord just speak it and do it... And likewise when our Lord has ascended into heaven to intercede for us, He sends the Holy Spirit to be with us... and whatever that the Holy Spirit tells or reveals to us, it is from our Lord Jesus Christ... Some similarity between the way how our triune God 'functions' eh?? But ultimately, all glory belongs to the Father... because all inspirations and speakings flows from Him... Praise the Lord!

Through John 16, we also saw the different functions/purposes of the Holy Spirit:
1. Helper from the Lord for us.
2. Convict the world of sin, of righteousness, of judgment.
3. Guide us into all truth - not according to His own authority, but whatever that He hears from our Lord He will speak.
4. Tells us things to come.
5. Glorify the Lord Jesus Christ

Haha... Guess all of us had a deeper and better understanding of what and how the Holy Spirit does in us :) Really thank God for such a wonderful speaking to us all for the pursue :) All glory and praise be to the Father :D

OK... shall lastly end this post with the song lyrics of a hymn which is currently still playing in my Windows Media playlist:

With my lips I will bless You
With my mouth - I'll sing Your praise
With my eyes - I long to see You
Show me Your face
With my ears - I long to hear You
With my hands - I long to touch You
With all my heart I surrender to You

Let all that is within me; bless Your holy name
Let all that is within me; bless Your holy name

Of Believe and Faith

2009-02-06T23:46:00.004+08:00

Well, a while ago I was in Home 2 attending the home meeting. Then we fellowshipped on Hebrews chapter 1... because for the next few Lord's Table Meeting, we are going to pursue and have fellowship on the book of Hebrews... Then while we were reading through chapter 1 and late cross reference to chapter 2... We realise that in the beginning when our Lord's salvation was still not available to us, our position before God was lower than the angels... But after we received the Lord, praise the Lord that our standings are now higher than the angels, since in Hebrews 1:14, it mentioned that the angels are ministers serving those who inherit salvation. How wonderful it is that our status have changed before and after we have received salvation from the Lord... This is great!! Loben den HERRN!

But anyway... not much of my main point though... although it's equally important. STILL while the brothers were trying to explain certain things using Hebrews chapter 11 about the 'heros of faith' and as I read on the chapter quickly, this verse caught my eye:

Hebrews 11:6
But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.

And while I was reading this verse, another verse came into my mind, which was my memory verse last thursday during NTU's campus pursue... John 14:12

"Most assuredly I say to you, he who believes in me, the works that I do he will do also; and greater works than these he will do, because I go to My Father."

So in conclusion... In order to do greater works in God that glorify the Father through our Lord Jesus Christ, we need to believe in Him... that He is our God... and have faith in Him too... that we can please Him and trust that He rewards those who DILIGENTLY seek Him...

Oh Lord Jesus, cause your saints to have more faith and to believe in You Lord... that You are the One who can help us do the works that You do... and even greater ones... And I also thank You Lord that we can please You by having faith in You and that You will reward us if we diligently seek you... So teach dear Lord in our daily living to seek You and to grow more in faith and to believe more in You. Amen.

So long my friend...

2009-02-05T20:23:00.003+08:00

Well, yesterday while I wanted to use my stapler to staple my notes, it just couldn't produce a staple out of it... and just when I wanted to check if there was anything wrong with it... I pried the stapler and lo and behold... I broke the stapler's spring and everything just fell apart... Below is the autopsy of my 9-year old stapler:

And as you can see... its spring is kind of spoilt a long time ago... But the final blow came yesterday... and anyway, it should finally take its long deserved rest for serving me for so many good long years... I'll miss you, my orangey-yellow stapler... who have served me well in all situations... I'm so proud of you... you did what most mini staplers can't do, i.e. stapling papers on noticeboards...

So long my friend...

John 13:14-15

2009-01-30T08:12:00.002+08:00

"If I then, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also ought to wash one another's feet. For I have given you an example, that you should do as I have done to you."

-memory verses from yesterday's campus pursue :)

Yet another random post

2009-01-28T14:43:00.003+08:00

Haha... Seeing how long ago my last post was, I decided to just blog a little here and now :)

Hmm.. Let's see... Well, chinese new year was... as usual... visiting my relatives from my mum's side and mainly my dad's side. And, it's just too bad that I didn't give out any gospel tracts during all the visiting to let them know the gospel (something that I had kind of decided to do one week ago... thought that I would give out at least one tract)... But I guess I was too much of a coward and thought that it might feel very awkward for my parents... Oh Lord, please strengthen me to do Your Will and open up a way for your servant to preach the gospel...

But but but... Something that was out of the usual this time around was that... I can finally get to play with my 2 nephews... :D:D Haha... But I didn't get to play much with Ian because he has got a lot of uncles and aunties to play with... But at least I managed to play a little with Rico yesterday when my mum's sisters and their families came over to my house for visiting :) I had some pictures that I took the past two days in the camera... but the camera is now at home whereas I'm in hostel (and yes, I haven't upload them yet). I'll post up the pictures once I get them up on either photobucket or facebook :) Rico was so cute and lovely... ah....

It was too sad that I had lessons today (初三) at 8.30am. So yesterday was kind of a rush for me because I had to finish up my part for HW111A assignment, pack up luggage to bring back to the hostel, and to play with Rico... So for me, yesterday passed me by real fast... Didn't really get to enjoy the holidays the way that I had hoped for... but never mind... playing with Rico makes everything up for it :):)

Hmm... Earlier today I went to see a doctor at the NTU Medical Center... First time visiting it because I'm sick (well, it was before CNY that I fell sick, got better a few days before it, and fell sick again 1 or 2 days before CNY)... Also got the doctor to look at my lump of thing on my left knee... well, it has been there since I was P5 I think... then it kind of never healed because my hands would always go and scratch it... Initially it was because it was very itchy... later on it was because it was an eyesore to me (actually more so for the past few years)... Then the doctor gave me antibiotics, cough medicine, and let me had some liquid nitrogen treatment for the lump (cool!)... Because apparently he diagnosed it to be warts and let me go for some histofreeze treatment using liquid nitrogen... hope the lump really flatens out after the treatment course...

Well, got to go now... Had a dental appointment at 3.15pm later... haha... decided to had it after my visit to the doctor just now... I'm going for everything at one shot :P Auf Wiedersehen and may the Lord presence goes with us wherever we may be and vice versa :)

Perception and Self-concept

2009-01-16T19:30:00.003+08:00

Well, just had my mastering communications lecture a while ago.. It's one of the most interesting and light hearted lectures that I've been to since I first came into NTU... Maybe it's because it's a pass-fail so I am kind of like taking this module with a happier attitude towards it??

And well, I would like to share something about the lecture a while ago... Thought that it was quite an interesting topic that we've covered... It was on Perception and Self-concept. What I remembered vividly was that the lecturer showed us some pictures that had 2 types of picture within the same picture... There was the picture of the old woman and the young woman within the same picture; a couple viewing the sea and a baby; and also spotting a cow in a picture filled with black and white patches only... haha... and the whole lecture hall was at that point in time filled with "Huh?? Got meh?? Where?? Orh..." Haha... so funny... Well, the lecturer made use of these pictures to teach us about our perception towards things and how we can look at different things based on the perception process: selection, organisation and interpretation... Maybe I will talk more about it in future posts if I have the time... haha...

Then it was about self-perception and self-disclosure... about how we think badly about ourselves can become a vicious cycle leading to self-fulfilling prophecies... and that self-disclosure has it's plus and bad points... like being more aware of oneself, enhance communication, develop relationships etc.. and we also have personal, professional, and relationship risks with that..

And I thought what the lecturer said made quite some sense.. At least the things that she said can be found in me (and by right to most of you out there too :P). Haha... so in conclusion, after her lecture I do became more aware of myself... like what are the things that are running through my mind when I interact with my surroundings; how I can think and communicate with people better (hopefully)...

Haha... that's all for today folks :) Got to go now... :P To God be the Glory for all things that He has done for us :))

Teach me Thy way

2009-01-08T18:37:00.002+08:00

Well, last night while I was going to bed, I was repenting before the Lord about how much I have wasted my time in hostel in the night... I could have spend the time to read the bible/spiritual books but in the end I went over to my neighbour's room to watch an episode of 不良笑花 after I went to greet her... lol... Then I was praying to Him that I could learn how to spend my time wisely before the Lord to redeem the time that I have... And well, you've guessed it, this song came into my mind (only the first stanza though because I can't remeber the lyrics :s). May we all have this heart and attitude to seek the Lord everyday and ask Him to also teach us His ways at all times. Amen.

Teach me Thy way, O Lord,
Teach me Thy way;
Thy gracious aid afford,
Teach me Thy way.
Help me to walk aright;
More by faith, less by sight;
Lead me with heav'nly light,
Teach me Thy way.

When doubts and fears arise,
Teach me Thy way;
When storms o'erspread the skies,
Teach me Thy way.
Shine through the cloud and rain,
Through sorrow, toil, and pain;
Make Thou my pathway plain,
Teach me Thy way.

Long as my life shall last,
Teach me Thy way;
Where'er my lot be cast,
Teach me Thy way.
Until the race is run,
Until the journey's done,
Until the crown is won,
Teach me Thy way.

Overdue update

2009-01-05T14:05:00.002+08:00

First of all: Happy New Year to one and all :)

Well, I would like to apologise for not updating for the whole month of December 2008.. Well, it's a combination of many camps/conferences to attend, plus the unavailability of me using the computer with interent connection (thanks to my brother who hogs the computer all day long), and well, perhaps I'm just plain lazy to update my blog too :s

But well, I'm here to update everyone what's been happening for the past one month of my life... Here it goes :)

Y.E.S. Camp - 30 November '08 to 2 December '08
Haha.. was quite a fun and interesting camp that I've been to. The theme for this camp is "Friend of God". The message for this camp revolve around how characters from the bible, like Abraham, Moses, David, Peter and John (By the way, they happen to be the names of the 5 groups in this camp), had been a friend to God; and later on we went on to see what characteristics they possess to become His friend and how the characteristics that we want to see in our friends could be applied to our relationship with God.

Personally, I was actually touched by the analogy that Bro Tong Chia had mentioned during the second meeting. It was actually about an African woman being sold to America to become a slave. And there were 2 persons who were bidding for her, and it was known to her that both of her probable masters were evil. So she was praying to God that she would not fall into the hands of these 2 evil persons. And by God's sovereignty there was another buyer who came in to bid for her and in the end this 3rd buyer won the bid. However, after he bought her, he set her free instead. Although the African woman was happy and knew that she was set free, she still returned to look for the person who bought her and promised to be his slave forever. And there bro tong chia was asking everyone why did the woman went back to the person and wanted to be his slave forever? Well, it was because the woman knew that if she were to roam around after the man set her free, she would still be caught by the human traffickers and be sold as a slave again. So instead of ending up in the hands of an evil master, she would rather serve the one who set her free.

His answer was the one that made me realise something; the woman's situation is similar to us Christians: We were set free from the bondage of sin by Christ (His flesh and blood being the price for our redemption) and if we do not allow ourselves to become God's servant (slave), we will still end up in the bondage of sin once more and suffer under this "master" again... or maybe worse this time around. So may we all learn to always abide by the Lord and not go back to be under the bondage of sin again because we can still go back into the bondage of sin and suffer more even though our Lord may free us from it!

December Year End Family Conference - 7 December '08 to 10 December '08
This conference took place at Sofitel Palm Resort, a hotel resort in JB, Malaysia. The theme for this time around was: "The Mystery of the Ages: Christ in You, the Hope of Glory"; and well the book of Colossians was used this time around to delve into the stated theme. Throughout the whole conference, the speaking brothers talked about who our Lord is, how that He is inside of us displaying His glory through us, how that everything that we are seeing were just a shadow of the things to come and of our Lord, to put off our old man and to put on our new man, and lastly to practice out what we've heard (enough of the doctrines already, put them into action!).

Throughout the whole 4 days 3 nights, I really experienced the Lord's mercy upon me. Well, that was because I was down for audio duty for the whole time during the conference and knowing myself, I would not be able to focus during the meetings while doing audio at the same time. Thus before the conference had started, I went before the Lord and really asked Him to help me focus and to remember the main points during the meetings although I am down for audio duty. Praise the Lord! The Lord had not only caused me to be able to focus during the meetings and not fall asleep, He had actually prepared for me a roommate who is also down for audio duty together with me (i.e. Ruth, but she didn't know she would be down until we reached Sofitel) such that I would not have neglected my roommate just because of the huge amount of time needed for audio service. Praise the Lord for such a wonderful arrangement by Him :)

Well, this time around the conference was an enriching and a refreshing one... Although it was until the middle of the whole conference when a brother made me realise that the messages that we have been hearing are always the same repeating ones, I did not felt that it was chim and boring; but rather I gained the most light (I think) out of the many family conferences that I have been to... probably due to the fact that I am more spiritually matured? Well, in any case, there were a lot of points that I really enjoyed in this conference, but maybe I would just share one point here since this post is getting a little too long.

What touches me most was that we have to practice out what we have heard in the conference in our daily living to show forth this Hope of Glory in us... be it knowing that the chair that I am resting on now actually shows forth that Christ is our rest and He is our true rest because all things were created through Him, for Him, and in Him; or that in whatever things that we do each time, whether big or small issues, we have to ask our Lord because He is the head and that He should the preeminence in our lives. Praise the Lord that He is the true and living Lord and that we also have a living God whom all of us can experience in our daily living. That is why we can always practice what we've heard and show forth Christ through our works. Amen.

Campus Retreat - 29 December '08 to 31 December '08
My very first campus retreat at Home 2, a camp that is dedicated for tertiary students and NS brothers! This time around, we pursued on the first three chapters of Book of Revelations. In these 3 chapters, we saw who our Lord is in chapter 1 and how his rebuke/exhortation to the 7 churches in Minor Asia were actually linked to the various characteristics of our Lord Jesus Christ. For example, to the church in Pergamos, the Lord uses the description "He who has the two-edged sword" to describe Himself as the One who has the Truth and is the Word of God (Refer to Hebrews 4:12). Then later on in the verses, the Lord rebuked the church in Pergamos because other doctrines existed in their midst (not pure teachings from the Lord), eating things sacrificed to idols and committing sexual immorality. All these went against the Ten Commandments that God had set up initially, which were the Word of God. Thus the rebuke/exhortation given to the 7 churches all revolved around the different attributes of Christ. Then lastly, after reading through the letters written to the 7 churches, we all had to come out with a letter to write to the Church in Singapore as a checklist on what we are doing right and what we are doing wrong.

Throughout the whole of this camp, I enjoyed the fact that our Lord is the One who holds the seven stars (represent messengers of the Lord) and walks in the midst of the seven golden lampstands (represent the churches in different localities). What this means is that our Lord is the One who has the ultimate control and that He actually knows the condition of all His saints in different localities. So don't play play with our Lord because He knows everything and nothing can escape from His eyes. Therefore we have to be serious before Him and be honest before Him in all things that we do each day. On top of that, I got to have a deeper understanding when we say our Lord is "the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End, the First and the Last". Oh, and lastly we had also learned that we need to preserve in doing the right things before God in order to overcome what is needed for us to overcome, no matter how tough the journey may be.

"Because you have kept My command to preserve, I also will keep you from the hour of trial which shall come upon the whole world, to test those who dwell on the earth" - Revelations 3:10

Amen! Praise the Lord for such a wonderful month that I have been through... really made me realise more about God and how we can ever so trust in Him, seeing that our self and our old man is so useless and worthless, and only God can save us and make us useful in His sight.

With that, I am ready to enter into 2009 to face all the difficulties and problems that I will face together with My Lord, knowing that if I ask Him and trust Him in all things, He will make a way for me in all things that pleases Him. Hallelujah for our Lord and our God!!!!!

Oh come and see and drink!

2008-11-14T11:46:00.003+08:00

Hmm... well, it is quite weird for me to blog more often during this period of exams then to do so during the non-exam period... when I should be mugging now.... but anyway, that's not the point, the point is by God's inspiration He cause me to come up with a set of lyrics while I was thinking and humming to the tune of 小酒窝 by JJ Lin and Charlene Choi... lol... found it quite interesting so decided to spend some time to complete the song and tada... here it goes:

Oh come and see and drink!

I was searching for a fountain
that would never make me thirst.
Though I find a fountain of this world,
it still made me thirst again...

Then one day I knew the Lord,
and He showed to me a living spring.
From that moment when I drank it,
I know I will never thirst,
No, never thirst!

Oh come and see and drink,
this living spring I've found!
It is the Lord Himself,
who freely gave to me.
You'll never know the preciousness of it
Unless you come and taste it for yourself.

Oh come and see and drink,
this living fountain now.
It is the Lord Himself;
He's the living waters' source
Deep from our hearts, living waters flowing out
if we believe in the Lord.
We must believe in the Lord!

Then one day I knew the Lord,
and He showed to me a living spring.
From that moment when I drank it,
I know I will never thirst,
No, never thirst!

Oh come and see and drink,
this living spring I've found!
It is the Lord Himself,
who freely gave to me.
You'll never know the preciousness of it
Unless you come and taste it for yourself.

Oh come and see and drink,
this living fountain now.
It is the Lord Himself;
He's the living waters' source
Deep from our hearts, living waters flowing out
if we believe in the Lord.
We must believe in the Lord! (x2)

Haha... enjoy singing the song using this set of lyrics ba... Hopefully you'll come to know this living spring yourself personally... Or if you had known it... let it flow out of your hearts to more people around you. Amen.

First exam paper one year later...

2008-11-13T21:41:00.002+08:00

Wow... didn't really realise that it has been approximately one year since I last took an exam paper until I started to count when typing the title... lol.

My first paper: Mathematics... It was like back in VJ when I took my very first maths paper... thought was quite ok... although I also thought that I would 刚刚好cross the passing mark line... and in the end, I failed the maths paper...

And what am I feeling right now for the maths paper that I've just completed?? It's deja vu once again.... lol! Got stuck at a few questions... and the most annoying thing about it is that there were at least two questions which I had come across before but before the paper... I'VE FORGOTTEN ABOUT IT!!! ARGH....

Well, there were 5 questions... only managed to complete 1 question fully... and the rest of the questions... I had certain parts that I got stuck...!! and after checking through again... more mistakes!! sigh... I don't want to fail my modules liao... :(

Well, now I need to buck up for the rest of my modules... hoping to do well in the rest... don't know can a not... But thank God that I have Him that I can trust upon and rely on... Well, Thank You Lord Jesus that although I got stuck in a few questions... but there were questions that I could do... all with the help of the revisions that I had when, Oh Lord, you were revising with me... Although I really don't want to fail my modules again.. but whatever things that befall Oh Lord... Help me to be able to handle it... afterall, exams are just part of life's learning process... cause me to think that way Oh Lord... Amen.

Ok, shall go bathe now and continue to mug for the rest of the modules le :) I just spent my past 6 hours watching 十兄弟, going onto Youtube to listen to SHE and JJ Lin sample songs and to watch MTVs and 八卦 news, bought a 小酒窝 mp3 from Soundbuzz because earlier on I answered a Ricola survey which gave me points to redeem songs (included in the 6 hours), and eating Macdonalds as breakfast/lunch/dinner... Ok! cannot slack le... better move on soon...

Next paper: German... :P

A testimony of God...

2008-11-11T16:13:00.005+08:00

Well, I just finished my lunch and still don't feel like starting my revision for MAS181 again... so it's blogging time! Yay!!

Anyway, I would like to kind of make a testimonial about how God really spoke to me and encouraged me during the Saturday's youth and young people's meeting.

And it goes... that at the start of the hymn singing session, I was quite distracted and was feeling kind of sad because of some things that cause me to be quite disappointed in God and I felt like giving up on the things that I was sad over (I'm sorry for confusing you all but I don't want to disclose the things that I was sad over... so take it as it is. haha.). Then, all of a sudden, by God's grace and mercy, Bro kok yong called for youth hymnal 295 (i think) and the song totally made me want to praise Him over and over again... Here goes the lyrics...

The arms of my hands
They were all made strong
Not by men's endeavour
They should have been weak
With the many shots of the archers

But my hands held fast
I could not fail
I know my God will keep me in strength
My very arms were
strengthen by His hands

By His hands, by His hands,
The hands of the Mighty God of Jacob.
By His hands, by His hands,
The hands of the God of Jacob.

While the song was being sung, God was there telling me not to be discouraged by the surroundings... no matter how discouraging the surroundings maybe, no matter how things may seemed to be hopeless, He will be there to strengthen my arms and to continue doing things that are right in His eyes... Amen! Indeed, I am really nothing without this living God... He was, and is, and will always be the One to strengthen my arms to do His will... not by my not-so-feeble-looking arms... but by the hands of the God of Jacob. Then I was so touched by the timely lyrics that I started shedding some tears... which of course will not be noticable to anyone... haha :P

And then, later on, sis shufang called for a chinese hymn 60. While sining this hymn, my spirit was really lifted up and the sadness in me just disappear...

生命的河，喜乐的河，缓缓流进我的心窝。

生命的河，喜乐的河，缓缓流进我的心窝！

我要唱那一首歌，唱一首天上的歌。

天上的乌云，心里的忧伤，全都洒落！

Praise the Lord for this hymn... although the tune is super 山歌 type, but I really enjoy it... Perhaps at that moment this hymn was a 灵歌 to me rather than a 山歌 ba... God was telling me to shake off and 'throw away' all the unhappiness that was in me while I was thinking about it earlier on and to really enjoy praising Him... Afterall, it was really the time to give Him praises...

Praise the Lord for such a wonderful experience that I had with Him that Saturday afternoon... Well, of course not to forget the wonderful sharing by the brothers and sisters from various groups on Zechariah 7-8. Well, actually I only brought home one point though... but a strong and meaning one :s

Well the point is: If the Israelities had listened to God and repented of their evil ways, they would not have gone into captivity and fasted while they were in captive in the hope that God would listen to them (which of course God did not listen to them because they did not listen to Him in the first place). 早知今日，何必当初！God prefers obedience over fasting (and they also fasted for the wrong reasons... so yar...)!! So people (and myself)..

OBEY GOD.. FOR THIS IS MEN'S ALL!

Praise the Lord for His speaking! Amen!

Verse(s) of the Day

2008-10-22T14:48:00.003+08:00

John 7: 37-38

On the last day, that great day of the feast, Jesus stood and cried out saying, "If anyone thirsts, let him come to Me and drink. He who believes in Me, as the Scripture has said, out of his heart will flow rivers of living water."

Anyway, this morning during the morning watch at NTU, I asked the brothers and sisters where in the Scripture did it mention about the heart flowing rivers of living waters (because my bible did not have references for this verse). So in the end, these are the verses that I can remember where this portion is mentioned:

Isaiah 58:11 - The LORD will guide you continually, and satisfy your soul in drought, and strengthen your bones; you shall be like a watered garden, and like a spring of water, whose waters do not fail.

Isaiah 43:20 - The beast of the field will honor Me, the jackals and the ostriches, because I give waters in the wilderness and rivers in the desert, to give drink to My people, My chosen.

Ezekiel 47:8-9 - Then he said to me, "This water flows toward the eastern region, goes down into the Valley, and enters the sea. When it reaches the sea, its waters are healed. And it shall be that every living thing that moves, wherever the rivers go, will live. There will be a great multitude of fish, because these waters go there; for they will be healed, and everything will live wherever the river goes."

Praise and Give thanks to our Lord and God!!

You are my hiding place

2008-10-20T16:36:00.002+08:00

You are my hiding place.
You always fill my heart with songs of deliverance.
Whenever I am afraid,
I will turst in You.
I will trust in You,
Let the weak say, "I am strong in the strength of the Lord!"

You are my hiding place.
You always fill my heart with songs of deliverance.
Whenever I am afraid,
I will turst in You.
I will trust in You,
Let the weak say, "I am strong in the strength of the Lord!"

I WILL TRUST IN YOU!!

我在南洋理工大学宿舍里第一顿亲自下厨的晚餐

2008-10-16T20:08:00.014+08:00

哈哈，今晚心血来潮想借用瑞敏的煮食器来煮我在南洋理

工大学宿舍里的第一顿晚餐。虽然我所煮的东西看起来没

有什么大不了的，但是对我而言这是我第一次在自己的房

间里煮着那么一顿晚餐；所以我个人觉得这是一件大事

ok!! 哈哈，话不多说大家来瞧瞧我的精心杰作！

哈哈，卖相看起来不错吧！虽然只是快熟面加一点鸡蛋和

蔬菜而已，这却是一顿简单又甜在心里的两道佳肴。我以

这两道菜为骄傲！在此，我想在这里感谢这以下的人；因

为是他们让这顿餐能在今天‘诞生’。

谢谢瑞敏的煮食机。

谢谢Jenny的鸡蛋和让我能用她的电冰箱来储藏我的香菜。

谢谢妈妈帮我卖我爱吃的香菜，和快熟面。

谢谢爸爸从家里带来的快熟面。

噢！最后要感谢神能让我能有这么一到好吃的晚餐。

哈哈。

Ok fine. I shall stop typing in Chinese le... I think the post sounds very corny... but anyway, I am proud of myself that I finally bother to cook my very first meal in my hostel... haha. Anyway, the food looks nice right? What's more... it taste nice too :) So it's a good starting for me... can start making bigger plans in the future liao... lol!

By the way, 香菜=Coriander -> one of my favourites ;)

Youth Hymnal 163

2008-10-07T22:31:00.002+08:00

There's a new world somewhere
We call the Promise Land
And I'll be there someday,
Since Jesus holds my hand.
He is always there beside me,
In all things that I do,
For I know I'll never find a friend so true.

It's a long, long journey so stay by my side.
When I walk through the storm,
Lord, be my Guide, be my Guide.
If they gave me a fortune, my pleasure would be small.
I could lose it all tomorrow,
And never mind at all,
But if I should lose my way Lord,
You'll show me what to do,
For I know I'll never find a Friend so true.

There is always Jesus
To guide us on the way,
And He'll lead us someday,
Where angels sing they say.
If I should search the whole world over,
Until life is through,
I do know I'll never find a Friend so true.

It's a long, long journey so stay by my side.
When I walk through the storm,
Lord, be my Guide, be my Guide.
If they gave me a fortune, my pleasure would be small.
I could lose it all tomorrow,
And never mind at all,
But if I should lose my way Lord,
You'll show me what to do,
For I know I'll never find a Friend so true.

Zechariah 4:6 + Some sharing

2008-09-28T00:21:00.004+08:00

Zechariah 4:6 -

So he answered and said to me, "This is the word of the LORD to Zerubbabel: 'Not by might nor by power, but by My Spirit,' says the LORD of hosts."

Hmm... Memory verse for today's young people meeting... A great encouragement indeed.. not only to Zerubbabel, the governor of Judah then, but also to me :) This verse was spoken in the context when Zerubbabel had led a group of Israelites back from exile to build the temple of God. Well, after they had laid the foundations for the temple, they faced a lot of adversities and opposition from the neighbouring countries and some 小人 to build the temple of God. So over the time, they gave up building the temple and one would also expect Zerubbabel to be very discouraged about the situation then.

It is then that Zechariah came in and spoke this word of encouragement to Zerubbabel to tell him to be strong and continue on the building of the temple because the LORD will be the one that is building the temple, as clearly stated in Zech 4:6. His Spirit will be there leading, guiding and completing the whole building of the temple.

Hallelujah for such a word! Recently, i had faced a situation similar to Zerubbabel in that i'm feeling quite discouraged about my living in hostel and how the gospel work in NTU is so not prospering and also the fact that I had become slackened in the giving out of gospel tracks and blah blah blah... all these things seemed to be discouraging me and i'm feeling so depressed all of a sudden... :(

But then during the meeting, the Lord miraculously spoke to me through this verse that actually I don't have to feel sad/discouraged/depressed when things don't really go the way I wanted, especially in the doing of His work; because it is He who will be doing ALL the work and all I have to do is to trust in Him, faithfully carry out all that He has said and let Him do the rest. Since it was He who put me inside of NTU to do His will, He will definitely do it all the way and makes sure that He does it through His supervision.

So what else can I say? But to give thanks to Him!!! Thank You Lord Jesus! Thank You Heavenly Father for such an assurance! Blessing and honor and glory be Thine forever! Amen!

Morning Watch with the saints @ NTU

2008-09-10T09:37:00.002+08:00

Yipee... Today's the second meeting early in the morning with the saints at NTU. It's quite nice actually to pursue the Lord early in the morning coporately, although it may be tiring for most of us. But I thank God that He cause me not to be tired during the meeting because I slept real real late last night after watching some idol drama :s

ANYWAYS! Today, we pursue and pray-read John 3 for our campus pursue/morning watch. Then the take "home" verse for me was John 3:30.

"He must increase, but I must decrease."

Ok, the verse is quite short, but the impact is there ok!! Basically, this is the attitude that we need as Christians in order to follow the Lord closely and also to live out the fact that we are truly Christians.

AND also to my friends out there who have not believe in the Lord, the Lord has given us a warning with regards to that... may the Lord continue to speak to you all and soften each one of your hearts.

John 3:36
"He who believes in the Son has everlasting life, and he who does not believe the Son shall not see life, but the wrath of God abides on him."

Gesundheit!

John 2:16-17

2008-09-04T00:50:00.002+08:00

John 2:16-17

And He said to those who sold doves, "Take these things away! Do not make My Father's house a house of merchandise!" Then His disciples remembered that it was written, "Zeal for Your house has eaten Me up!"

These are the verses that I enjoyed the most when the NTU saints (Rei min, Sze lang, Sis Shufang, Bro Bok woon, Bro Joachim, and myself) came together this morning to have our weekly pursue on John chapter 2.

Hopefully the pursue timing is finally fixed... :P
And we are all waiting for you all yvonne and jingfang... :pp

Tschüs!

PLEASE READ!

2008-08-27T21:03:00.004+08:00

Haha... I've got lots of stuff on my hands to do right now... BUT i am here blogging... Well, I'll just post something to liven up my blog then.

Actually for the past week and this week too, I've realised something about myself. I am a selfish girl... Why do I say that? Well, as I recollect the things that I have been praying before the Lord, it seems to me that I've been praying for things that's revolving around me to be to my advantage and also to get me out of sticky situations when it was me who first plunged into it. For example, to clear things a little, praying that there is fine weather when I am swimming, praying that I will not get chosen for some job application that I impulsively signed up for, praying that God will help me to decide which subjects to drop etc. My point here is that we should not at all pray to God when we want bad things to pass by not so badly or don't bother God about such minor things, BUT that throughout all the things that I prayed for, I did not pray for God's Will to be done on Earth as it is in Heaven and about things which God pleases, like the building up of His house (i.e. the Church) through gospel preaching and remembering the lost ones through prayers.

Sigh... how dominant is the flesh that's in me...

Lord, I really feel that I lack the love to love you more each day... Please Lord Jesus, grant me more of Your love to me each day so that I can learn to love you and the people around me... Amen.

When you love someone, you just want to go all out to do the things that makes your loved ones happy... And I know that my God is happy when I do His will and cause more people to know Him for the building up of the Church. So Lord, teach me to be a pleasing servant in Your sight. Amen.

And I shall do something here now which hopefully the Lord will be pleased. Well, I shall type in here the gist of the gospel that millions of Christians have preached throughout all ages; and also for non-believers to take a look and understand the basis of what we Christians believed in.

In Summary:

1. All human have sinned and have fall short of the glory of God. Sin here does not refer to the bad things that people do, but rather the inherent Sin that all of us have once we were born, no matter how good you are throughout your walk on Earth.

2. The consequence of having the Sin in us: DEATH. Some may ask: Who says I've got sin? I've never ever done a single bad in my life! But sorry my friend, as I've said earlier, Sin is not determined by the number of good or bad things that one have done. And the evidence of the presence of Sin is very clear; because we have Sin, we have to die. Furthermore, such death will not stop when we pass on, but rather it is ETERNAL. If there's nothing to save us from Sin, our fate will definitely be ETERNAL PERDITION!

3. The SOLUTION: Jesus Christ came down to this Earth as a human to be our Lamb of sacrifice. He came down to die for us, shed His blood and on the 3rd day after His death, He resurrected and later (and finally) went up to Heaven to sit at the Right hand of the Father. Why Jesus Christ? You may ask. That's because our Father God wants us to return back to Him because He loved us SO SO much. But Sin is hindering us from reaching out to God. Then God decided to sent His only begotten Son, Jesus Christ, who is the only one who is sinless and pure and right before God, to die for us. Only through the death of a sinless person can his blood be used to cleanse everyone else of their Sin, causing us to be able to be near to God once again and also to escape eternal perdition. What's more, He arose from the grave on the 3rd day and then raised up to the Heaven - Such is an act to tell us that this God whom we preached is real and living and that we can be assured of the things He says and does, unlike all the great and mighty people of the past who died and never ever came to life again.

4. What now? Now, Jesus Christ wants you to let Him enter into your heart to be your personal Saviour. Only by accepting Him can we be sure that we will have eternal life. He has now given us a new way for us to choose and to walk on. Now in front of us we have 2 paths- eternal life (new way) and eternal death (old and destined way). Which one will you choose?? Praise the Lord, if you choose the new and living way, accept Jesus into your heart right now (call/tag me if you want to accept Him!) and don't harden your heart to His calling. He's waiting for all mankind to receive His salvation for free! It's that simple - Accept Him and you'll have eternal life!!! It is THAT simple.

Ok. Actually this summary is not short at all. But should be short enough to help everyone understand the whole picture and also to clear some doubts. Well, if there are any questions please ask me and I'll be glad to answer them to the best of my abilities.

Well, I got to go right now... clothes to wash up next on my list :s

Auf Wiedersehen!

Finally...

2008-08-14T18:57:00.004+08:00

Well I think that this post comes a little late... but anyway, I've finally done something to my modules... And the final verdict is: I've dropped CBC811, i.e. forensic science, and to stick on with my German language module instead :) So now I'm happy with my 6 modules, 20 AUs status :D

Well, I think it was really the Lord's will for me to take up German instead of holding onto forensic science... HE sort of spoke to me when after Reimin was telling me to give up forensic science instead (since I was so stressed between choosing forensic over German) because the subject will be quite tough (which I now think back, difficulty should be about the same). But anyway, after Reimin told me so, I went to my bed and prayed before the Lord, feeling super super vexed over it, asking Him to tell me if I really should give up forensic science for German language module. And then very amazingly, He told me that I should give up forensic and take up German instead and afterwards, He gave me peace in my heart and all of a sudden, all my anxieties have disappeared at that instant. Therefore, I knew immediately that this answer IS from the Lord and I really thank Him for helping me to decide which course I should drop (since I kind of did not wait for Him to answer me if I should take up the German module or not in the first place). So it's another realisation to me that how impatient I am before the Lord. But I still thank God that I still have time to continue to learn how to be patient before Him. And now my love for learning German seems to be increasing, seeing that how my interest for this language grows and I kind of just feel excited about learning this language more. Hopefully the Lord will continue to sustain this interest of mine and I know that He will tide me through the whole course even if it gets dry becuase He allows me to take up this module and to give up the highly popular forensic science module.

On another note, recently I have been reading through the book of both Jeremiah and Ezekiel... and through these 2 books, the Lord really tells me to just go and preach the gospel boldly to the people in NTU, whether or not these people listen or accept the things that I say... And especially in the first chapter of Jeremiah, when the LORD told Jeremiah that he should not be afraid to speak for HIM just because he was a youth back then. And also in Ezekiel, the LORD told him to speak for HIM to the children of Israel in Babylon although HE knows that they are a rebellious group of people... well because HE will hold Ezekiel accountable if he didn't, since the LORD's hand was upon him. Well, these things really speak right to me because I'm kind of afraid to preach the gospel to others, fearing that I will be rejected by them (although I know HE will be with me) and maybe I think that I am too young to do so... (actually more of being encouraged by Jeremiah's experience that even a young lad can speak for God... so that means I can do it too ;P)

Ha, so hopefully the Lord will raise opportunities up for me to preach this Good News to whom He wants me to and I better not chicken out... which I am so afraid that I would, because I most likely would! (And then afterwards feeling so sad that I've failed Him yet again... But Praise the Lord that He never give up on me and HE still gives me chance to try :D)

Hmm. I would like to end this post with a hymn... a hymn which will always pop out in my brain whenever I told myself to sing some Christian songs while walking.

You are my strength when I am weak,
You are the treasure that I seek.
You are my All in All.
Seeking You as a precious jewel,
Lord, to give up I'd be a fool.
You are my All in All.

Jesus, Lamb of God. Worthy is Your name. (x2)

Taking my sin, my cross, my shame,
Rising again I bless Your name.
You are my All in All.
When I fall down, You'll pick me up.
When I dry, You'll fill my cup.
You are my All in All.

Jesus, Lamb of God. Worthy is Your name. (x2)

Auf Wiedersehen!

Some random ramblings and stuff...

2008-08-05T21:54:00.003+08:00

To be honest with you, I'm kind of bored right now... Being alone in my hostel without television programme and I can only bother to sit in front of my laptop typing stuff to pass time... lol! Reimin, I can now understand how you felt yesterday when I wasn't around to keep you company... So sorry and all the best for your driving test tomorrow!!

Hmm. Day 1 (or night) in my hostel alone... I'm kind of lonely right now... I wanna talk to somebody... Or maybe it's just me that I miss my family, which I think it's rather weird for me because it'll be another 4 more days before I see them again and I've been away from home before for up till half a month in Germany! Perhaps my parents' "missing Esther" thoughts have travelled all the way to Boon Lay and I felt it... Or maybe it's just I'm lonely la... Lol!

And guess what, I added courses for my Sem 1 this morning! But anyway the main point is I added so much that I had a total of 7 modules amounting to 23au (academic units)!! That's like overloading myself la!! I don't know why I'm taking so much subject when I just step into NTU knowing nothing. Anyway, I could have just not take up the German module so that I'll have 20au such that I slightly overload myself. I don't know if I should take up the German language module... Cos I was just thinking of trying it out for a week to see if I can cope with the schedule and then later drop it if I cannot manage it. But now, I'm still torn into two and I can't decide if I should just drop it like now or give myself a chance to try out...

Oh Lord Jesus... Tell me what to do. Forgive me if I always take things into my own hands and not seeking for your advice first before deciding on anything... Save me from this dilemma and show me the way that I should take with regards to the number of modules that I should take up... Oh Lord Jesus... Teach me to be patient in hearing an answer from You... For yours is the kingdom and the power and the dominion forever and ever. Amen!

Oh oh... and while I was having my math lecture a few hours ago... I was kind of struggling in using my pencil because I had not bought an eraser yet! In cases where I need to erase my things, I had to use that little little bit of eraser that was found at the tip of my pencil to erase. There was also once when I was using the eraser, it fell off all the way to the fellow female student in front of me and I had to spend about a minute to explain to her about my eraser before she found it (cos it's too small you see...) But anyway, after the lecture, I went to the Nanyang Supermarket to finally buy an eraser and a Nanyang lecture pad... and I felt so happy that I finally bought them... Yay!!... (sigh, this sounds SO childish...)

And speaking about Nanyang Supermarket, I was quite amazed that their range of goods was like rather big... From toiletries to tools to stationery to food... Can be quite comparable to those bigger NTUC outlets. [Aiya, of course what since it's the only supermarket in NTU!] As for the prices, didn't really get to check it out thoroughly but I suppose it's rather economical ba... I'll explore again and make a more definite conclusion about the prices in my stay here to accurately determine the prices of things there!

Haha... I'll stop here for now... Feeling kind of sleepy now! Hopefully I'll get to sleep soon and not stay up like 12-1am before I finally sleep... like back in those days before school commences :S Anyway, I'll end off with these verses that Sis shufang had sent me this morning...

But the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear Him, on those whose hope is in His unfailing love.
-Psalm 33:18

The lion may grow weak and hungry, but those who seek the Lord lack no good thing.
-Psalm 34:10

Though

2008-07-22T12:38:00.002+08:00

Haha! I'm back again once more... Lol!

Anyway, I'm here to share a song that the tertiary group sisters from my church have composed when we were pursuing on the book of Habakkuk. The lyrics written were inspired from Habakkuk 3:17-19.

"Though the fig tree may not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines; though the labour of the olive may fail, and the fields yield no food; though the flock may be cut off from the fold, and there be no herd in the stalls- Yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will joy in the God of my salvation. The LORD God is my strength; He will make my feet like deer's feet, and He will make me walk on my high hills. To the Chief Musician. With my stringed instruments."

From this portion, I am really touched by the optimism of Habakkuk and how he embraced our dear LORD; although he knew that Judah will one day be invaded and be destroyed by the Babylonians. Even though the near future for Habakkuk looks real bleak, he still fully trusted in our LORD and rejoiced in Him because he really understands that his (and mine too!) LORD is his salvation and strength. On top of that, Habakkuk also understood that God is still in control and whatever He does, He does in His own timing according to His big plan which we as humans do not fully comprehend it because we are constrained by space and time.

Ok. Enough said. Here's the lyrics to the song:

Though many things, I may not understand.
What'er befall, I may not comprehend.
I may be weak, cannot reach my peak,
But I'll still rejoice in the Lord!

I will find joy in Him - LORD God of my salvation;
For the Lord, He is my strength.
I'll turn my heart back to Him and say,
I will still be hopeful in the LORD!

Though I am small on this terrestrial ball,
Sin and guilt have many souls made frail;
Trials, temptations caused many hearts to fail,
But I'll still return to the LORD!

I will find joy in Him - LORD God of my salvation;
For the Lord, He is my strength.
I'll turn my heart back to Him and say,
I will still be hopeful in the LORD!

Praise the Lord for such a nice song :P The tune to the song is in my playlist. Feel free to listen it more often. Also many thanks to brother bok woon who had helped to record this song :)

My 'first' post

2008-07-17T16:36:00.003+08:00

Hey people, it's me again :)

Well, the title of this post is may sound rather weird to you all since this is definitely not my first post.. But anyway, it's the first post that I have written using my brand new laptop :D

Hmm. This laptop came at a time that I didn't really expect it to come. It just so happen that I told my parents that I may need a laptop for my university studies like just a week ago and then about 2 to 3 days later, Harvey Norman had a student promotion (which didn't turn out to be a student promotion in the end) on this laptop that I am using and since I found the specs to be rather good so my parents decided to go down to Harvey Norman and take a look. Well, it turns out that this taking a look became a buying session so tada.. Here I am finally with my own laptop :)

Anyway, had some problems with the Internet connection for the past few days (because I tried to plug my desktop's modem into this laptop but it just couldn't connect me to the Internet). Turned out that there was some problem with the IP address and the Ethernet network adapter was somehow inactivated. But anyway, all is currently well now so I'm quite satisfied with this notebook PC :D

[And a note to shiyun, if you happen to see this post: It's a HP laptop (hee hee... compaq actually but who cares it's the same. The specs for this laptop is rather good but may not be too good for your birthday present so... some other time?? (and this model is very common now so not unique) Aiya, get your US laptop first then decide whether you want a upgrade or whatsoever :P]

Oh, and I tried playing with this program on my laptop called "Youcam (webcam)" that uses my webcam to take photos or videos and it has some nice and cool effects which i think it is nice. Here are some photos that I have taken to show you some nice effects :)

Here is me and my 'twin' (mirror image effect)

My grandmother and herself

Watch me eat the light!! Munch munch...

Okie. I will stop as of now. Be back with hopefully more interesting stuffs :D

Praise the Lord! For He is worthy to be praised!!

A Trip to Singapore Flyer

2008-07-14T16:07:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, my family of 4 went to the Singapore Flyer located somewhere around Marina Bay (is it??). The whole circle of ride takes about 30 mins and honestly speaking, I don't really find the view that nice. But as what mummy says - It's the experience that counts. So yeh.. But then again, it's a nice time for me to take pictures with my daddy and mummy separately. Yesterday was also a record breaking day - our whole family had finally taken a family photo! But we don't have the photo because it was requested by the Singapore Flyer personnel (my brother gerald was kind of forced to take the photo with us) and we have to pay $15(!!) to buy the photo. So the photo taken was equivalent to none. But again as what mummy says - It's the experience that counts. LOL!!

Hmm.. I don't really like describing my experience in words so I will get my pictures to do the job :))

Mummy and I

Daddy and I

Gerald smsing in the Flyer cabin

NDP venue and the Esplanade

A failed attempt by my camera to snap my parents and Gerald

The F1 Formula Pit stop!

(Click here to view more photos taken on the trip!)

Well, shall stop here as of now... Haha. Hope everyone will enjoy the photos and I hope I have more things to blog about in the future :D

A nice hymn...

2008-07-08T23:10:00.002+08:00

你们要先求他的国和他的义，
这些东西都要交给你们。
Allelu, alleluja
(okie, so sorry i forgot the chinese version of alleluja :S)

Ok, now the english version....

Seek ye first the kingdom of God,
And His righteousness,
And all these things will be given unto you,
Allelu, alleluja

Man shall not live by bread alone,
But by every word,
That proceeds from the mouth of God,
Allelu, alleluja

Ask and it shall be given unto you,
Seek and you will find,
Knock and the door will be opened unto you,
Allelu, alleluja.

Haha. Praise the Lord for such a nice and wonderful hymn. Really reminds me once again that we need to seek the Lord first in whatever things that we do - doing His will on Earth and everything that pleases Him. And the reason we live is for our God and our Lord Jesus Chirst.

Hallelujah! Amen!

We are Children of Light

2008-06-24T12:37:00.006+08:00

hello people... I'm back again with some more things to blog. HAHA.

Anyway, this time around, I will blog about the recent children's camp. Theme of this camp is "We are Children of Light", as mentioned in the title :)

These are the pictures/wordings found on the camp T-shirt.
Well, a brief outlook at things... This year with have about 100 children attending the camp (btw, the camp is from 11-13 June 2008), out of which about 40 plus children are gospel friends... and there were about 78 serving ones that include youth leaders and shepherds :)

This time around, we used the portion from Ephesians 5:8-13, 15-25 to tell the children about our status now as children of light, and how should conduct ourselves that is befitting to our status. The primary 3-6 children also underwent a series of activities known as "Mission of the Message Keepers" to understand the above portion better. And there was also craft time where the children made their very own book chain with the verse Ephesians 5:8 inside it.

Okie. It's photos galore time! I'll use the photos to describe more about the camp itself.

Well, the above 2 pictures were those that I took while I was watching the P6s rehearsing their skit for the concert night (i.e. on 13th June night). It's a collaboration between the P5s and the P6s. For now, they were practising separately because both levels take charge of different parts of the skit. Anyway, the skit was about how the story of John Newton touched the heart of a P6 kid, Toby, to not discriminate his new thai classmate (played by Dawn). Well, Toby is the boy wearing brown and white striped collar shirt whereas Dawn is not seen in the pictures. Lol.

Later on, I went over to look at how the P5s are rehearsing for their part of the skit. In my opinion la, I think their role was more interesting because they were doing the shadow play while the narrator and voice overs (by the P6s) 'act out' the story of John Newton. This picture was taken 'behind the scenes' but unfortunately, it was a little blur :(. At that moment, they were doing the scene when John Newton was out at the sea when storms happened.

Haha. Day 2. After the tea gathering, some of the youth leaders gathered together to have their share of food. Some had fried rice that were leftovers of lunch (We had our lunch at West Coast Park where we also had our outdoor games there), while others had kueh batik (is that how you spell??) that were left after the tea gathering. Speaking of tea gathering, it's kind of a new thing that was introduced to gather the children by their levels and to interact with one another. More importantly, it was a time for the serving ones to have some time to talk to their buddies and get to understand more of them. For my case, I didn't had much time spending with my buddies because I was busy shuffling around admin, audio and helping out for tea gathering. Well, thank God that at least I still had time to talk to them and know them a little bit.

Haha. That's Selina with Natasha, the youngest of the 4 Toh Siblings. Apparently Selina didn't want to have this photo because Natasha didn't smile. But the picture looks ok what... So it's posted up here as well :)

Well, these are the photos for the last day Praise and worship session. The picture at the top was taken earlier when most parents had not arrived to watch the concert put up for them and the gospel friends. They were singing the song "For such a time as this". The picture at the bottom was taken when they were singing "光明之子". Below is a short snippet of the children singing and doing the actions for "光明之子":

Haha. And I love the part when the whole concert had ended off with the kids holding onto their light sticks singing the song "Here I am to worship". Only photos and no video as my phone memory wasn't sufficient to do one.

Well, that's all from me :) I better get going soon... for my lunch... haha. Hope to blog soon again :D

Saved 2 Serve

2008-06-19T00:08:00.003+08:00

Woohoo... finally, I have the time and mood to blog about the Youth and Young People's (YYP) Conference, held in Hall 1 from 1-4 June 2008. Well, because right after the YYP Conference, I had to get busy with children's camp administrative matters and right after the camp I've got to do audio editing for the YYP conference. Busy schedule eh?

Haha. Anyway, down to the point about the YYP Conference. The theme for this year's camp is "Saved to Serve" and the main verse used in this camp is from Hebrews 9:14.

"How much more shall the blood of Christ, who through the eternal Spirit offered Himself without spot to God, cleanse your conscience from dead works to serve the living God?"

Ok. A brief summary. In this camp, it starts off by telling us of our position before God - before we are saved, we were slaves to sin and the Devil. We were once darkness. But after we saved, we are sons of God, priests to God, God's own special people, servants of God. Then we moved on to discuss the reasons for serving God:-

1. We belong to Him; therefore it is only right to serve Him.
2. Our God wants to gain His Kingdom on earth today.
3. We are to work in His vineyard, His kingdom, His church.
4. He first loved us so we love Him and what more better to show our love to Him than through serving Him!

Next, we went on to talk about how serving the Lord requires a new Goal, Attitude and Living. Service is R.E.A.L - Redeemed, Eternal, Attitude, Lifestyle.

When serving the Lord, we need to set our goal on eternity because the reward for serving Him cannot be seen in this lifetime, but only when He returns the second time to judge and reward us. Also, we need to see that serving God is our eternal job.

After seeing this goal/vision, we need to have a change in attitude when serving the Lord. When we serve Him, we need to humble ourselves before Him, having a poor and contrite spirit before Him. On top of that, we need to have a good and noble heart to hear God's Word, understand our need to serve God alone, be in the world but not of the world, and a sacrificial living before Him. Having the right attitude is important in order for God to use us for His service.

Lastly, our living before Him must change too. We must come to realise that LOVE is the abiding principle that we must have in our living before God. When we serve, we need to know that we are serving not only for God but also for the brothers and sisters around us. That's because in Matthew 22:37-39 (and this portion can be found in the rest of the four gospels), it tells us clearly that the first and great commandment is that we should love our God with all our heart, with all our soul, with all our mind; and the second is to love our neighbour as ourselves. Therefore in our service, we should show and live it such that whatever we do, we do it all for God and for our fellow brothers and sisters. Besides serving in terms of meeting the saints' needs, we can also serve God in our living through consecrating our lives to Him each day; and also to read His Word and pray to Him. In both cases, an altar living is being lived out because in such a living, we need to set up our altar before Him to bring to Him sacrifices - both our lives and our daily reading and praying are the 'sacrifices' we present to God that are pleasing in His sight. Also, we need to obey His word and His will, for in the Word it is mentioned that "Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things (things that we may need) will be added to you". Lastly, we need to serve the Lord Christ in all situations - whether we are husband/wife/children/masters/bondservants. We need to see that by serving each other in our different roles, we are actually serving God and hence we must serve heartily to God and not as men-pleasers only. Remember, we are servants of the Lord who happens to be a student/person at work/housewife etc.

Ok. Guess I type too long for a summary. But bascially, one of the points which I enjoyed in this conference was that our service in the church is not only restricted to because we love God, but that I saw a new dimension that our service is actually also for the brothers and sisters around us. Now that when I think back on why I went into service for audio/ushering/children's camp, I realise that my motive was more so for personal interests rather than for the sake of the brethren. However, as time passes by, thank the Lord that He cause me to see the real reasons that I should serve in all the services that I am involved in. And even up till now, I am still slowly discovering and changing my attitude towards my service for God. All thanks to His grace and mercy that He showed me all my weaknesses and how I should change for the better to serve and take care of His body. And through our service before Him, God's love should also be pouring forth to more people through us - just like the analogy that brother say kin showed us during one of the meetings, where he poured water (representing God's love) into one cup (representing us) and the water which overflowed that one cup continue to fill up the other cups (representing people around us) surrounding that particular cup. Amen!

Well, it's very very late now... Mum's nagging at me now. Got to go now... :) May God continue to bless each and everyone of us :))

Shout to the Lord

2008-05-22T12:49:00.002+08:00

Well, here's a video that I've found in YouTube for "Shout to the Lord" since I can't get imeem to play the full song due to some copyright thing.

I still prefer the one that I have uploaded... but who cares :p
And amazingly, the American Idol finalists also sang this song during the show... But the My Jesus My Saviour line/verse is not sung out... which is quite sad... Anyway, Enjoy :)

Back from Bahau

2008-05-21T13:55:00.003+08:00

Whee... Hello people :) I'm back from Bahau but down with flu/sore throat/ lots of phlegm.

Anyway, during these 3 days in Bahau, got to know more of the saints better, especially the Long family. Also, Hannah and I got to play with Joel and Zion a lot too :P On top of that, I am glad that I was there to go visit the Church there and to take a look at how's their condition.

Well, although they weren't as strong as those in Stuttgart and maybe in Singapore, at least there were a few faithful ones who were still there attending the meetings. So dear saints who are reading this post, please Please PLEASE pray more for them and cause the Church in Bahau to continue to grow and prosper and love God more and to be grounded in the truth. Just like what Psalm 122 mentions: Pray for the peace in Jerusalem... Peace within your walls and Prosperity within your gates. Let us love one another for the sake of our Lord ya?

In addition, the Church in Bahau is now pursuing on the Book of Exodus and when we were there, we read chapters 23-25. One point which the Lord revealed to me through these chapters was that our God is a precise God. In chapter 25, we can see that the LORD gave specific measurements and the design of the ark, the table and the lampstand. This once again reminded me that our God is very particular when it comes to things for His temple. Even more so now, when we come before Him to serve His Body, the Church, we also need the LORD to show us the precise way to serve and do it according to His way and not our own way. On top of that, I was also reminded of the fact that the LORD is very faithful with His promise, He will do what He had said and swore to Israel: being precise and specific with what He says and what He does. This can be clearly seen everywhere in the bible, from the blessings that Israel received when they obey His commandments to the prophecies that our Lord Jesus Chirst has fulfilled. Praise the LORD for His precision and His faithfulness towards us!

In my opinion, I feel that Church visiting is really a very wonderful thing to do as we can go around showing care and concern to our dear brothers and sisters, and also to strengthen each other when we are weak. Hopefully in the future when I have time, I can go and visit more churches and experience the 'universal' church life.

I did not bring a camera for this time's round trip so when Hannah has sent me the photos and uploaded it, I will put up the link on my blog for all to see :)

Lastly, I shall end this with a verse- Exodus 25:8

"And let them make Me a sanctuary, that I may dwell among them"

Heehee... Some Inspiration :p

2008-05-15T00:22:00.002+08:00

Haha... 性情大发，so i've decided to type out the lyrics of my first song that was inspired from the verse in the bible -> Psalm 17:8.

"Keep me as the apple of Your eye; Hide me under the shadow of Your wings"

I was so attracted and it struck me much when I saw the verse's first line: Keep me as the apple of Your eye. Haha... maybe cos I was reminded of yong'en (because she likes to call herself as apple in the past... is it now as such??) and also that it's also the only verse that the word "apple" is mentioned? LOL! But more importantly, this verse shows forth the desire of the psalmist to remain favourable before God... Just like how you and I would like to be before God eh? So here goes nothing ;)

Keep me as the apple of Your eye
Hide me in the shadow of Your wings
Because in You I put my trust
For You the Light of my life

Make my path right before Your sight
Let my heart be pure towards my God
Because in You I've placed my trust
For You are the Rock
My Horn of Salvation

Heehee... 小女献丑了！Well, as i'm not too good with my english/grammer/verb, the song's a short, sweet and is sung in a quite a cheerful tune. Hope you guys out there will enjoy this little creation of mine :)

All glory and praise be to GOD!!!!

I'm Back once again

2008-05-13T10:37:00.002+08:00

hey you people out there... I'm finally back here blogging once again ;) Well, I'm so sorry for taking such a long break from blogging... I've been kind of busy for the past few weeks...

Well, in summary, this has what's been happening in my life.. after I'm back from Stuttgart.

For the past 3 weeks, I've been on a part-time job as an admin assistant once again in CapitaLand... under the Marcom department (ok, so my unemployed status on my profile was not updated back then but since I'm off now... heehee, saves me the hassle to change it back :P). My working experience there has been pretty pleasant, not as demanding as my previous part-time job :) But for some reason, I realise that the people there do not like eating meals with part-time staff... although among themselves, they are rather close. Something which i cant figure out... but never mind. Nevertheless, I learnt more stuff throughout my 2.5 weeks there... Got to know MS excel better, using an automated binding machine, and once again dealing with customers regarding privileged parking. lol...

Also during this period, I am quite glad and thankful that I am able and have the time to attend prayer meetings, home meetings and even truth edification meetings. These are the meetings that I've hardly, almost not at all, attend. But I thank God that after the Stuttgart trip, it really inspired me to attend these meetings because I realised that for my Chirstian walk to be more solid, I need to interact and meet more with the saints. Anyway, when we enter into the millennium kingdom or new heaven and new earth, all of us have to live together in oneness... so I said to myself, why not start learning now?? On top of that, if you look at the Song of Ascents from Psalm 120-134, most of the psalms were directed more for Israel as a whole, rather than for an individual. Therefore, we can see that in order to move upwards with God, we as an individual cannot do so by our own self. Rather we need to move upwards as an entire entity together and in oneness and through attending more meetings, each of the meetings will help all of us to get use to the corporate life that we will be living in, in future. I really thank God that while I am still having and in my nice honeymoon holiday, I can draw closer with Him through meetings with the saints. Hopefully, when school starts for me, I will still be able to continue attending meetings like now that I do.

Speaking about school, I am still undecided as to which uni course I should accept... NUS Science or NTU Chemistry and Biological Chemistry. Although I am more or less decided which course I want to accept, there's still this undecisiveness in me... Don't know why?? But anyway, after looking through the modules that both unis offer me (btw, I should be going also for chemistry in NUS if nothing goes wrong), I kind of liked NTU's course better because it's slightly more towards biology, whereas NUS science is really the chemistry type of chemistry, which I realise is not the type of course that I will be interested in. Haha, guess I'm still quite passionate about biology but yet not so passionate about it. LOL! Oh, and if I do get into NTU, will anyone be interested to bunk in with me? Pls contact me if you would like to. Restricted to females only (like duh right :P).

Haha, last but not the least, my near to future plans for the coming 2 months at least. I'll be away to Bahau from 17-19 May... Yay, church visiting! My first time... wonder how it would be....hmmm...

Afterwards (and actually now), I will be busy with YYP conference, doing preparations and also serving audio, but will also enjoy the whole conference from 1-4 June. Haha on top of that I will be serving and in charge of the admin stuff for the Children's camp from 11-13 June.. "We are Children of Light", that's the theme of this year's camp. This is the time of the year that I really enjoy myself... in addition to the greater responsibility for this particular year.

Haha, and to end off my post, let me share something from the Word of God in Psalm 120:3-4...

"What shall be given to you, Or what shall be done to you, You false tongue? Sharp arrows of the warrior With coals of the broom tree!"

In order to deal with our tongue so as not to speak things which does not edify the Church and our non believing friends around us, we need sharp arrows of the warrior (i.e. the Word of God) and coals of the broom tree (i.e. judgment from the LORD to purify our tongue). May this be an encouragement for all to come before the Lord for He is the Solution to keep our tongues a fountain of blessing! Amen.

Sharings from the Conference in Stuttgart

2008-04-10T00:24:00.003+08:00

Hello everybody... I'm back from Germany and Switzerland already :))
(Actually it has been 6 days since i'm back :s)

Anyway, I had a lot of fun throughout the 18 days... Been to Germany's Tübingen, Reutlingen and ülm. Also in Switzerland, I got to walk around Zürich and Apenzeller.

But most importantly during this trip, I have gain much revelation from God through the going through of Psalms 120-134. These 15 psalms are grouped together, which are known as "Songs of Ascents", and they were being sung in the Old Testament when the Jews went up to Jerusalem 3 times each year to the temple of God. Every step that they moved upward to the temple, they would sing a psalm, starting from Psalm 120. So as you can see, in today's context, all these 15 psalms are meant to bring us higher and higher up to the throne of God, just as how it brought the Jews higher and higher up the temple of God in the past. Therefore, in our daily Christian living, not only must we go forward to preach the gospel and the Word of God to the world, we must also move upwards together as the Church to bring us closer and closer to God.

When Bro. John So was going through these 15 psalms, I sort of had some new light for these psalms (perhaps it's because i didn't paid much attention in the past to these psalms). In any case, I enjoyed the conference so much that I didn't fell asleep during all the meetings, which is a wow to me because I had a hard time keeping myself awake for Singapore's church conferences in the recent years :s

Ok so in summary, let me summarise and at the same time recap how to reach to the throne of God in 15 "steps".

Step 1 (Psalm 120): Calling out to the LORD in our distress and to deliver our souls from lying lips and deceitful tongue.
Step 2 (Psalm 121): Knowing that our help come from the LORD who made heaven and earth when we lift our eyes to the hills.
Step 3 (Psalm 122): Desiring for the Church and caring for one another.
Step 4 (Psalm 123): Looking and waiting unto God until He has mercy on us.
Step 5 (Psalm 124): Knowing that our help comes from the LORD through the many experiences with Him.
Step 6 (Psalm 125): Having our trust in the LORD to be like Mount Zion, which cannot be moved but abides forever.
Step 7 (Psalm 126): Rejoice when the captivity from Babylon (the world) returns to Zion (the Church), but at the same time we need to continue to pray with tears and sow seeds to those who remain in captivity and lost in Babylon.
Step 8 (Psalm 127): Knowing that the LORD is the one building His house and the Church will be blessed with lots of children/young people when HE builds the house.
Step 9 (Psalm 128): Fear the LORD and blessings will abound for us to enjoyBeing .
Step 10 (Psalm 129): Knowing that the LORD is the one who triumphed over our enemies and knows our affliction.
Step 11 (Psalm 130): Being perfected through sufferings.
Step 12 (Psalm 131): Being Meek and Lowly in heart.
Step 13 (Psalm 132): Absolute consecration to God for Zion.
Step 14 (Psalm 133): Arriving at the Perfect Oneness.
Step 15 (Psalm 134): Blessings in Zion.

yupp.. that's all for now... I will continue sharing once i'm free :)

In the meantime... my photo album is finally uploaded! Praise the Lord that Photobucket's bulk upload finally worked :D.

Click Here to view photos from my trip to Europe :)

Enjoy :))

Prelude to the Stuttgart Conference

2008-03-17T11:19:00.004+08:00

In about 10 hours' time, I will be on my way to Changi airport terminal 3 to board the plane to Zurich. Haha... the thought of it excites me :) Finally, a super rare opportunity for me to go to a Europe country and the chance to go to Stuttgart to experience the church's conference... Cool :)

And as a prelude to the conference, let's take a look at what is inside this 29" luggage that I'll be bringing...

Muahaha... it looks as if I am going on a food tour rather than for a church conference... with so many packets and cups of instant noodles inside my luggage :P

Okay... The cup noodles are for my consumption but the rest of the packets of instant noodles are for Linda :) So Linda, if you are looking at this post, it's a preview of what I'm going to give you when I see you. But I pity my clothes though... they are squashed on the left half of the luggage whereas the noodles and food are loosely packed on the other side of the luggage... Haha :D

Hmm... I shall stop here for now. I will post as and when I have the time to and hopefully to be able to upload all the photos that I have took as soon as I can. Till then....

My All-time Favourite Song

2008-03-14T13:28:00.004+08:00

Shout to the Lord
the lyrics

My Jesus, My Saviour
Lord there is none like you
All of my days, I want to praise
The wonders of Your mighty love.

My Comfort, My Shelter
Tower of refuge and strength
Let every breath, all that I am
Never cease to worship You!

Shout to the Lord
All the Earth
Let us Sing
Power and majesty
Praise to the King
Mountains bow down and the seas will roar
At the sound of Your Name.

I sing for joy at the work of Your hands
Forever I'll love You
Forever I'll stand
Nothing compares to the Promise I have in You.
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Argh, i tried to upload the song to imeem but i had been unsuccessful... I'll put it up on my blog once I can upload it :)

A simply majestic and beautiful song...

the day...

2008-03-07T09:07:00.002+08:00

well, i am now using a computer from v26 to blog this entry... wearing my uniform and the thought that i need to hide in this room for another hour before bio lecture starts at 1025 AND without anything to do just feels sick.... Nobody to accompany me to at least talk with me... this feeling is so not great... And hence, the mood for blogging... Lala...

Another 5 hours and 20 mins, i will be receiving my A level results... As of now, I am not feeling exactly very anxious or nervous... But I didn't have a very good rest last night though... not because i am worried about my results... But the thought that i could come back to VJ wearing my school uniform to crash lectures just makes me so excited :D The thought of going for assembly and lectures for the one last time in VJ just makes me get so high...

Well, maybe to most people, I would be labelled as a crazy person... why would anyone wants to go back for lessons again?? Haha... perhaps my love for VJ is so "deep" until I wouldn't mind doing crazy stuff for it? But then again, looking back at the days in VJ, I did a lot of crazy things that I kind of enjoyed it and did things that I always wanted to do which couldn't be done in the past...

For example, joining the roving dv competition. Ever since the first season of competition has started, I have always wanted to join... but with the intention of pwning the other schools because i thought i could have done a better job than them... Well, i did get to the top 5 but i did not win the competition... because of the few sms votes that were given to my work... guess my news report is not appealing to the audiences :s But i still thank God that I get to take part in this competition, and has so blessed me with the fact that my work can be showcased on national TV :)

Crazy things... Let's see... Staying back in school to chiong SVA video... Staying back late in school to study for my A levels... Climbing gates when i am stuck in the second level and late for school (oops, the not so glamorous part... don't learn that from me ok!)... Pranking teachers for teachers' day video... Getting 'E's and 'S's for all major exams in VJ (but thank God not for my PW :D). Haha, come to think of it, that's what i never got to do when i was in damai or anglican high... i suppose the good girl has gone mad.... and is still mad...

Hahaha... I shall not think of my results now... i really have no idea what kind of grades i will be getting when i have been a border-line passer throughout my stay in VJ. But somehow or rather, I have this assurance in me that God will give me a set of grades for me to be able to get into a course that he desires for me... So i shall wait for time to reveal the grades to me then... But strangely, i have this thought in me that I would have 3 'A's, which is highly unlikely cos i don't think i study as much as the others do and kind of undeserving for me to have it... So even if i don't see 3 'A's, i wouldn't be too sad or surprised... Ok wait, didn't i say i will not think about my results??!! ok... it shall stop here.

Argh... i must be getting bored to write all these crap now!! Well, shall go have my bread that I packed from home and patiently wait for bio lectures to come... (suddenly this phrase "Patience heals any scars" came to my mind... LOL!) Till then, see you ppl and i hope you will be seeing me more often on my blog now :)

Precious Post

2008-02-26T23:47:00.002+08:00

well, I am finally blogging again :)

hmm... nothing very much happened to me for the past few days, and as usual my 9-5 work (being almost late for work everyday and always volunteering to stay back in office for 1 hour without OT) in Tokio. But, something out of the blue did happen to me.

There was this period of time when I was helping Mdm Teo with her stuff at Beacon Primary. Then a letter came from Seacare manpower (the"agency" which was involved in giving out our salary in government schools... in this context, it would refer to Beacon Primary), saying that my salary would come in on the 7th February. But as I checked my bank account plus minus one week 7 Feb, I realised that the money did not bank into my account. It was only recently that I found out that there was some screwup between the school and Seacare and that was why they had not processed my pay. Hopefully the money would be banked in by the end of this month, as promised by the person in charge of Beacon Primary. Throughout the whole event, I was feeling very exasperated and worried because of the fact that my pay had not been in and that why is it me that is experiencing such problems when all my other friends have gotten their pay on time?? I don't like the feeling of being worried for things, and especially in this matter, where I should have trusted God in ensuring everything would be fine.

Perhaps, this feeling was coupled together with my anxiousness regarding the release of my A level results. I did not feel so worried for my results when I was receiving my PSLE and O level results... but for the very first time, I was afraid I would score badly, even in my dreams.... ARGH!!! I don't want to feel this way. It made me feel as if I was not trusting in God's Sovernity and power to pull me through... I don't want to feel this way :(

Haha... I guess all these things happen to me so that I would be "forced" to turn back to God once again. As I was pondering about why my mum is so kan cheong about my trip to stuttgart when God would make everything smooth, this verse from Philppians came into my mind (sorry can't think of the exact location off my head now): "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplications, let your request be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." Amen :)

Well, it's back to basics for me again... as I once again ponder about this verse and to live out the true meaning of this verse. To end off, I would like to quote another verse from the bible, from Psalm 48:14 (oh, I am currently pursuing the book of psalms for my daily bible reading, although I only spend time reading when I am on my way home on the bus :S), the very last verse which says:

"For this is God,
Our God forever and ever.
He will be our guide
Even to death."

My memory verse of the day. I was especially touched by the last part... because He loved us so much even when we die, He will still be our guide. Amen.

My first post in 2008!

2008-02-10T22:56:00.000+08:00

First and foremost... Happy 2008 to all who reads my blog and this post and a happy chinese new year :))

I AM SO SO SORRY!!! So sorry for not posting anything for a long long long.... long time. Was rather busy with work plus the fact that my computer had no access to the Internet for close to a month... So as a result, I can only do my first blogging in 2008 now.... 8-|

Hmmm... for me, life's has been... ok lor... Haha... quite a typical answer eh? Working as an admin assistant in Tokio Property Service P/L has been quite an eye-opener... Introduced me to the reality of life, office politics, franking of letters, data entry.... BUT BUT, I don't like it when things in the office gets busy.... Everybody just want to finish their work asap... so will push more jobs to people like me... Admin is really one big saikang job sia... I am not going to be an admin person in the future manz... Unless if that's the only job left for me to take lor...

Oh oh... and I would like to share something that was mentioned in meeting today :) Kind of a revelation to me...

In Numbers 12:3, as bro daniel was sharing today, the verse goes like this: "(Now the man Moses was very humble, more than all men who were on the face of the earth.)" Well, at first when I read this verse, I was treating it plainly as it is. But when bro daniel asked this question "Who was the person that wrote this book of Numbers?" All of a sudden, it wow-ed me... because Moses was the one who wrote this book, by the inspiration of God that is :)

Then you might ask, why Moses is so thick-skinned to have wrote this verse down the book, and to even claim that he was very humble more than all men on the face of the earth? Well, because God wanted him to write that down and he just obeyed the calling and wrote it down... Although he could have resisted it if he thinks it is very paiseh for him. Or else he could have continued on bragging about himself throughout the entire book, and without the putting on of the brackets. From here, it showed me that true humility is not when someone praise you, you kind of reject the person's praise for you... that's only an outward appearance before men. But if in your heart, you become paiseh because you wanted people to leave a good impression about you so that more praises will come your way, that is not humility already... True humility is one where you don't purposely seek after praises or drawing others' attention towards you, but one that just do what is required of you and do not allow the praises of men to sink deep in your heart... or else pride will creep in and cause you to be full of yourself...

Well, i have also come to learn that being timid/shy is actually an act of pride. According to dictionaries' definition, pride is a feeling of self-respect and personal worth. Hence, by being timid/shy you are actually having a feeling of self-respect and personal worth... because you will think that you are not up to the standard to do this thing/job/work, which is a form of measuring your personal worth (and maybe respecting yourself for not being able to do it??). Haha... so from now on, I will try not to resist God's calling (as far as possible :|) when he ask me to do something that makes me timid/shy. just dowhat you are suppose to do and whatever people might say, let them say it... as long as we are accountable before God, which is by far the most important thing :)

Haha... hope you people are not bored by my sharing above... Hope to blog more often in the future and hopefully share more stuff with all of you regarding God and His desires... Ok, now is kind of late already... So goodbye to you as of now :))

Quick update

2007-12-29T15:15:00.001+08:00

Heehee... sorry ppl for not posting for a long time... although i have finished my 'A' levels already, I am still not as free as to blog too often (ok... maybe the most important factor was because my brother was hogging on the computer all the time).

BUT but... I was still busy with stuff at the same time too ok! Anyway, shall update ppl out there what I have been doing... After chiong-ing for camps from 2nd to 20th december, I have finally found a job!! I am now working as a temp admin assistant in a real estate company (Tokio Property Services Pte Ltd). Well, my job scope involves going to the post office to mail letters, DBS bank to post cheques, filing, photocopying cheques, sending out receipts, franking letters, etc... Well, sounds quite saikang right? Haha... but I think I am still ok with it la i guess.... Anyway, this job is only for 3 months so not too bad lor.

Hmm... also my relief teaching application got approved :) Went to schools to apply for relief teaching... but I got the admin job already before any school could call and book me. In fact, i got my admin job on the day I went for interview, which was on the same day I went to schools applying for relief teaching (was also the day that I churn out my CV). Then i was so sad la... cos yesterday, Damai Sec called and ask if i want to relief teach but i reject them cos I had the admin job alr... :( Mummy said that I could have hear what the school has to offer before deciding, but since I am temporarily taking over the job of one of their staff cos she's going to give birth (that's why they employ me!), I think it's quite irresponsible of me to quit all of a sudden... Ah well, hope that there'll be schools who will want to employ me from April onwards ba :)

...and yay! I have finally changed my blogskin alr... looks quite pleasing to the eyes, I thought it was not too bad a skin to change to ;)

Well, got to go now... need to go for youth meeting now... I don't want to be late for it though... So bye for now... Oh, and an early happy new year to everybody....

Cool Site!

2007-12-09T23:20:00.001+08:00

Was scouting for music for Mdm Teo School's archive video (it's Beacon Primary School by the way... the FutureSchool... ). Then I came across a very good site with quite a time of sounds and music to choose from. Take your time and look through it :)

Click Here to view it :)

And as for the songs that I will be using for her video tomorrow... it would be from here.

It's the 2nd last song called winter (to be typed down in case I forget the title).

Haha... I will be away for YES (year end student's) camp from the 13th to the 15th of Dec to serve the youths (primarily from P6 to Sec4). Hope I will enjoy the camp though, may the Lord bless this camp, with good weathers and good ground of hearts of both the believers and the non-believers. May He be the true Head of the camp!

After which, I will be going for a short shepherd's conference on the 19th to 20th Dec, where the serving ones will touch on 1 (&2?) Thessalonians.

Whee... it's one conference after another... I liked the times now where I can truly enjoy going for camps and once again draw near to God. Hmm... no time now to share my enjoyment from the recently over year end conference held from the 2nd to 5th Dec. Shall share my enjoyment some other day.

But one point that I would like to briefly touch on is that I really enjoy the part that His Word can cleanse us of all of our spots and blemishes, which includes our old old and old bad habits. This made me want to read His Word more often, now that I know that His Word not only fills our spiritual hunger, but also the One that I have been looking for to end all my bad habits and things that my Old Man likes to do. May the Lord continue to grant me more grace and strength and mercy to make me read His Word daily. Amen.

"When the going gets tough, the tough gets going"-- may my relationship with God be like that that was described :)

Yay... it's finally over...

2007-11-23T14:18:00.000+08:00

Wow... time really flies like God-like speed manz... 12 years of formal education is finally OVER!!!! Oh my gosh... I can't believe it!! In a blink of an eye, A levels is finally over... Guess I am soooo glad that it ends :)

Finally, it's a goodbye to tys-es, uniforms, and being late for assemblies :X

But I think I will miss the days where I chiong very hard for videos, miss doing last minute editings, miss putting my whole hard into Infocomm Club stuffs and not bothering about my studies :P, miss chionging and practising maths during the A-levels period..... haha, guess i would miss my time in VJC :)

Come to think of it, i wonder what I would be if i am not in VJC and in some other JCs... I guess i would not have such a nice platform for me to do the things that I had wanted to do since primary school days... Cos since then I had wanted to join my primary school's IT club but i gave that up for choir... and now that the Lord has closed its doors for choir on me, I can finally realise my 'dream' :D

Haha... come to think of it, I really thank God for leading 18 years of my life till now... He is really indeed by my side and helps me out in every single disaster that i landed myself into... From my scoliosis operations and saving me from the hands of death, leading me to choose the 'correct CCA' in my secondary and junior college days and many many more in the past and to come... All praise be to God :)

Hmm... now that i am having at least 7 months of holidays, guess i will land myself into a job for the year to come and see how the Lord will lead and guide the rest of my days ba... But during this period, i will try my best to update this blog as often as possible and maybe, change my skin soon... hehehe....

Till then... byez :)

God's revelation?

2007-11-02T23:18:00.000+08:00

Haha... it was after Maths paper 1 and I was in the library studying for chem paper 3... then i got a bit tired and rest... and praying to God at the same time....

then it came to a point where I was praying for God to remember everyone, be it believer or non-believer, who is taking their A-levels and be their strength. Then from nowhere, a random thought from my economics syllabus-- market failure, came into my mind. All of a sudden, this thought came into my mind: God's love is a public good but His gift (i.e. His salvation plan) for us is a merit good.

God's love is a public good
For God so love the world that He gave His only begotten Son [for us] (John 3:16a).
Yes, indeed God's love is like a public good because it is both non-rival and non-excludable.

Non-rival: because you do not need to be any privilege member of some high-class country club to enjoy His love for you. He even loves the worst sinners, be it hardcore criminals or homosexuals etc.

Non-excludable: because God's love will be the same for all. Even if there is an increase in the number of people in the world, His love will still be the same for you and I (The reason why you might not feel it because you have not come to know it or you are close with God.. but this is true.)

However....

God's gift is a merit good
That is, God's gift in this case is excludable (but nevertheless, non-rival). This is because you need to believe in Him and accept Him as your personal saviour before you can receive this free gift, given to God by His grace and mercy. On top of that, God's gift is like a merit good in that it is always under consumed because people are ignorant about the external benefits that it brings to the society and/or they are irrational (although this is an assumption in econs, it is a fact in this case!!).

Ignorant: because not everybody in this world has heard or has come to know about this gracious and merciful God, and the benefits that it brings to them when we believe in Jesus and accept Him: Eternal life, free from all the chains of sin and guilt, escape from the lake of fire and eternal perdition...

Irrational: because for some reason, due to mindsets that cannot be changed, the refusal of people to believe that there is a God or the refusal to believe that Jehovah is the only true and living God. Whatever the reason may be, the bottom line why this is so is because of the harden hearts that all of us have (except maybe theirs more harden than ours??). These people have heard about God and the great things that He can bestow upon us, but for some reason, choose not to accept it... Sigh...

" Oh God, I pray that you may open the eyes and soften the hearts of the 'irrational' people mentioned here so that they may come to know the truth and accept your son as their personal saviour and you as the almighty one. I also pray for the ignorant people that one day they may come to know you and the good that you can bring to them to fill up the empty hole that the things of this world can never do so. Nevertheless God, continue to remember them... because they are still your beloved ones. I pray all these in Jesus' name. Amen."

Haha, so you see, how wonderful my/our God (and hopefully yours if any non-believer is reading this!) is! He works in ways we cannot see and he will reveal something to you at unexpected time and situation, that we can never comprehend, like then when I was having my break from chemistry when suddenly I thought of econs... What a nice way to see God's revelation... haha... Thank you God for the sweet time together :)

Oh and that reminds me, I haven't been touching econs for 2 weeks already... better start soon in case i forget my concepts...

20 more days to the end... till then, bye :)

(Oh and I was thinking, what happens to my GC once I graduate and stop using it in about 4 days' time? Anybody wants it? My brother has no use of it since he intends to go poly...)

So malu...

2007-10-31T23:58:00.000+08:00

haha.... something malu happened to me today... It was quite embarrassing though.

I was on my way home from school after the horrigable GP paper (err not immediately la... I stayed back and studied)... and anyway it was about 8.35pm. I was listening to my mp3 and just so happen, when i was walking pass the void deck, i was listening to maroon 5 "Sunday Morning". Then came a high pitched portion featuring a solo part of the saxophone (i think) and I just 'sang' along with it. To my horror, right after i hit those notes, 3 cats suddenly sprang out from nowhere and ran towards my direction!! What's more, after they saw me, they know how to stop and run off.

It was after all those while that I have finally realised that my voice at that moment sounded like a cat's scream or call such that they were alarmed or something, and started running out towards me. LOL!!!

That's not all. The worst is that there was an uncle right behind me, who most likely witnessed what had happened just now... So MALU la I tell you... Then he said something about to be wary of the cats lest they follow me up to my house... didn't really catch that because I was still listening to my mp3, which was rather loud then...

So embarrassing manz... but with a little element of shock... because I really didn't expect the cats to respond... so to me is like wow!... Perhaps, I can consider a job that requires me to communicate with cats in the future ba! lol.... what an unforgetable malu experience... haha, don't know how many years once ok...

well, got to go now... maths paper 1 next... 22 more days to the end...

My monthly post :)

2007-10-18T12:57:00.000+08:00

Haha... am back from dormancy... Well, it has been a month or so since my last post... so sorry la... been busy with studying...

actually it has only been so only for the past 1 week...

Had been staying back in school for the past 3 days till late in the night... which i am thankful for... at least i have done some hard work 2 weeks before my A levels... 应该不会对不起我的良心吧... And more importantly, i thank God for the school building.... I seriously CAN'T study at home... Last monday, I was at home the whole day and guess what... I spent 7 hours watching television programs... I feel so sinful la.... close to exam already still watch so much... =X

Anyway, I have recently changed my spectacles :) quite nice la i think... my friends said that it was TOO pink... the front frame was dark red but the sides were totally pink... heehee... Shall you a photo of my new specs and let you decide whether it is very pink a not ba =)

Hmm... guess i shall stop now ba... cos i lost my train of thought alr... but in the meantime you wouldn't be seeing much of me for 2 reasons:
1) I will be mugging hard for A-levels
2) My brother will be using the computer intensely so i will be nice and not interrupt him.

Oh and lastly, when i was listening to "Be Still My Soul", these 2 lines had an impact on me and I really enjoyed it a lot... once again reminding me that there is this God who is always there for me...

"Be Still and know that I am God...
I am the God healeth you"

Hope this wouldn't bore my fellow readers.... till then see you :)

halfway mark before the end of prelims

2007-09-14T14:42:00.000+08:00

phew... the week's finally over... prelims is half way done... Thank God for His guidance through this week...

Haha, in summary of the papers...

Maths: I tell you paper 1 was like.... tough can!! Thank goodness paper 2 was slightly managable, with me being able to do most of the stats questions but not the pure part... I was totally stone-ing for the at least first 10mins of the paper... also dunno why... hopefully I can get a D for the paper.... No 'E's please....

Chem Paper 3: Hmm... I manage to do 3 questions when i am suppose to do 4 out of 5.... Spent too much time on question 1 alr.... in fact, 1 hour on it :x (the paper's quite ok though... that means.... NOOOOO........). Well, the only saving grace would be papers 1 and 2 then.... though i heard it would be tough too :(

Bio Paper 2: haha... although the paper's duration is 2 hours, it has around 3 hours worth of questions involved... super no time la.... the questions set were still ok in my opinion... but still, it's tough in the time managment part... I wonder if the rest of the papers i would be able to do well to not get an E and below.......

Economics: the paper was.... ok la... the 2nd case study was rather puke blood though... i dun even really know how to answer some of the questions... dunno if I can get a D a not... the 8 marks questions i did not fare too well though... sigh....

Well, that's about it... left with pieces of chem and bio for the next week.... woah i tell you ar, time really really pass by very very fast can... in close to a month's time i will be taking my A levels alr... and before i know it, finished and uni and work... Why can't time take its time??

COUNTDOWN TO A LEVELS: 47 DAYS
END OF A LEVELS: 69 DAYS

Ok, enough said... got to go now.... hope to blog again soon ;)

monthly post.... lol

2007-09-05T11:48:00.000+08:00

hmm... it's the september holidays now... but i am not in the best mood to enjoy it now... argh...

COUNTDOWN TO PRELIMS: 6 DAYS

argh.... so near alr... haven't been revising much though.... except that i have been going through maths for the past 1.5 weeks... but then... got to revise trigo and curve sketching only... :( [out of which i had a lot and a lot of problems with it... sigh.....] I bet for the rest of my subjects, I will encounter such problems.... so most likely i will get Es for the time being for my prelims....
Although the target is : DBBBB (D for GP... B for BCME)

Lord, I pray that I will not fail any of my subjects this time round...

@#$%^&*()_)(*&^%$# i hate prelims la..... hate the fact that need to study and mug and study and mug and.... ya, I think you get it la....

Sigh... I guess this info below can be my only comfort for the time being then....

COUNTDOWN TO A-LEVELS: 56 days

Jiayou la esther.... all the best for prelims.... :X

One super long post...

2007-08-05T14:58:00.000+08:00

hey guys... sorry for not blogging for a long time... Been busy with my studies and also i am too lazy to blog... so here's a treat to all my 'fans' out there... I am going to blog a suuupppeerr long post today... starting from the most recent event to the oldest event, according to the photos that I have as a recap...
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First up, 2nd August... It's shiyun's birthday!! yay! well, here's a picture of the present that we (i.e. me, yong wen, timothy, and zhang ren) bought for her as a whole... suppose to be an exco present... but never mind... here goes nothing :)

yup, it's a cute little scented tortoise :) too bad it's not the type she liked... but anyway, hope you appreciate it!

Anyway people, if no one has any idea who is this shiyun i am talking about... I shall tell you now!

haha... actually my purpose is to show this picture of shiyun hugging pooh.. her features not very clear though.... shall get a clearer one next time... :P
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Next older event, Infocomm farewell party! yay, another time to have fun and slack :x

Well, shall not elaborate too much... since a picture tells a thousand words... i guess this one below tells four thousand words??!!

(top-left) Kenny and Xiaowen holding on to the photo frames of the new exco done by the old exco. (top-right) Kenny, Han Teng and Koganti posing together with our new mascot, Winnie the Pooh [hey timt, why are you not in the picture??!!]. (bottom-left) food galore... jiahao, are you watching this?? (bottom-right) Koganti, the new pres, is being 'covered' with the floor mat that came as a free gift when we bought presents for the new exco.

Well, after the party, Infocomm's current mascot, Spiderman, now has a new partner and friend... no longer a lonely toy... :)

See what I mean now.... haha :P
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Up coming oldie... Outing with jingfang....

Well, before I went to meet her, I decided to do an experiment about myself... I did a hypothesis testing about myself...

Ho: Esther's eyes will shrink over the day when she wear contact lens
H1: Esther's eyes will not shrink over the day when she wear contact lens
Level of significance: 5%
Test Statistics: T=(mean-Ho)/(s/n^0.5)

Using t-test with v=n-1= 1 (see the photos below), p-value is less than 0.5. Therefore Ho is rejected and there is insufficient evidence to show that Esther's eyes will shrink over the day when she wearing her contact lens.

Me in the morning...

The same person at night... (and no, i did not cut my hair...)

haha... hypothesis testing in action... lol... anyway, went to tampines mall and century square with her to do some shopping before eating in the century square's food court... cos I have the discount card :P here's what I ate that day...

Salmon Teriyaki Set Meal :))

Afterwards, we went to church for youth meeting before going to her house to eat dinner and play monopoly with yong'en...
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Rewinding the track back... I officially became an aunt on the 26th of June 2007!

Well, my beloved cousin, Joyce jie jie, has given birth to a healthy and adorable baby boy... Well, my nephew is called Rico... which means strong ruler.... Hope he is a strong ruler of his own life and a good leader in the future :D In the meantime, let's enjoy his 'moment' of rest:

Looks quite like both my cousin and her husband... so cute right he??
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Ok, lastly, some random photos to wrap up the super long post.... (I guess this is the longest so far...)

haha... these 2 girls and 2 boys are currently being taken care of by my aunt... so cute right the 2 boys :) The first 2 photos showed jiarong and the other bottom 2 showed jiacheng... :P

This was a photo taken from IRAS... I thought this picture looked very nice so I took a shot of it... but alas, after I took it, I was chased out by the security guard.... sigh.

Well, lastly, this is a super random shot taken when my brother was playing the computer.... haha... he doesn't know about it :)
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haha... guess that's all I have for all of you folks.... I shouldn't be back blogging for sometime... cos I better trigger my mugging mode soon.... if not, NOW!!!

"Stop slacking, start mugging"-- Zhiwei

Esther... don't slack alr... MUST start revising ok??

5 languages of Love?

2007-07-07T15:54:00.000+08:00

haha... long time never blog alr... hope that my previous post did not bore you too much :)

anyway, it's getting quite late and i've got nothing much to post (even if i had i had forgotten about it alr :x)

So.... i shall share with you all this interesting post that I saw in Brother Daniel Chow's blog which i thought was quite meaningful and nice. Enjoy...

There are 5 basic needs that men or women desire in order to fill up their love tanks and remain emotionally healthy:

1. Gifts - some people need to be given many gifts or a valuable gift to be loved.

2. Act of Service - some people require others to do them favours like chores or errands to be loved.

3. Quiet Time - some people need one to one communication with their loved ones or spouse to be loved.

4. Affirmation - some people need encouragements and praises from their loved ones in order to be loved.

5. Touch - some people need physical hugs and kisses from their loved ones in order to be loved.

These are the 5 languages of love that everyone need. Everyone has different preferences among the 5. If you know what your loved one or spouse need today and you take the initiative to meet their needs in the order of preferences (and your spouse fulfilling them mutually as well), you will be falling in love everyday, won't you? :D

Sharings from youth conference

2007-06-18T07:05:00.000+08:00

ok, be prepared... cos this entry will be a super long one... cos the riches that i have gained during the youth camp was super HUGE...

TO begin with... this year's youth conference/camp theme: BUILDING A LOVING RELATIONSHIP WITH THE FATHER THROUGH JESUS CHRIST

We read through a portion of the bible from Luke 15:11-32, which talks about the parable of the prodigal son... well, to help those who are non-Christians, i will type out the verses :)

11 Then He said: "A certain man had two sons.
12 "And the younger of them said to his father, 'Father, give me the portion of goods that falls to me'. So he divided to them his livelihood.
13 "And not many days after, the younger son gathered all together, journeyed to a far country, and there wasted his possessions with prodigal living.
14 "But when he had spent all, there arose a severe famine in that land, and he began to be in want.
15 "Then he went and joined himself to a citizen of that country, and he sent him into his fields to feed swine.
16 "And he would gladly have filled his stomach with the pods that the swine ate, and no one gave him anything.
17 "But when he came to himself, he said, 'How many of my father's hired servants have bread enough and to spare, and I perish with hunger!
18 'I will arise and go to my father, and will say to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you,
19 "and I am no longer worthy to be called your son. Make me like one of your hired servants"'
20 "And he arose and came to his father. But when he was still a great way off, his father saw him and had compassion, and ran and fell on his neck and kissed him.
21 "And the son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and in your sight, and am no longer worthy to be called your son.'
22 "But the father said to his servants, 'Bring out the best robe and put it on him, and put a ring on his hand and sandals on his feet.
23 'And bring the fatted calf here and kill it, and let us eat and be merry;
24 'for this my son was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' And they began to be merry.
25 "Now his older son was in the field. And as he came and drew near to the house, he heard music and dancing.
26 "So he called one of the servants and asked what these things meant.
27 "And he said to him, 'Your brother has come, and because he has received him safe and sound, your father has killed the fatted calf.'
28 "But he was angry and would not go in. Therefore his father came out and pleaded with him.
29 "So he answered and said to his father, 'Lo, these many years I have been serving you; I never transgressed your commandment at any time; and yet you never gave me a young goat, that I might make merry with my friends.
30 'But as soon as this son of yours came, who has devoured your livelihood with harlots, you killed the fatted calf for him.'
31 "And he said to him, 'Son, you are always with me, and all that I have is yours.
32 'It was right that we should be make merry and be glad, for your brother was dead and is alive again, and was lost and is found.'"

Thank God that throughout the whole of the youth camp, we have been greatly filled by the Holy Spirit and He really let me see a number of things in a new light.

Firstly, the point about the younger brother needing to reconcile back to the older brother when the younger brother had returned to his father (I actually wanted to share this point during the meeting just now but no courage la... Forgive me Lord!). During the last day of the camp, we were suppose to answer this question for our corporate morning watch: "Now that the younger son is back to the father's house, then how will he continue to live his life?" Then brother Say Kin showed us an answer from another angle... that is the younger son need to make peace with his older brother. This is because his older brother is still angry with his brother for being so wilful and irresponsible (as seen in verse 30 when the older brother said 'this son of yours' to refer to his younger brother), and also the Lord has told us that the 2 greatest commandments is to love Him with all our hearts, with all our souls, and with all our minds and to love our neighbours as ourselves. Therefore, it is also important that we love one another and bear no grudges with each other, as what our Father in Heaven desires. It is also one of the ways whereby we can build a loving relationship with Him-- to do His will! Hence, if we have offended anybody or vice versa, let us learn to reconcile back to each other and encourage each other to pursue the Lord :)

Secondly, I am very touched by the father's love in the parable. Despite knowing that the reason why the younger son returned to him is due to selfish gains (verses 17-19), the father still showered him with his love and restore the younger son's status (asking the servants to put a robe, wear a ring and put on sandals on him + killed the fatted calf for the son)... although the younger son wanted to become his father's servant for him to be fed. How much more would our Heavenly Father do so for us, as long as we arise, go back to Him, and repent. His love is so marvelous, so wonderful that He will rejoice if we come back to him... Like the prodigal son. All He wants from us is to do His will and one of it is to come before Him to enjoy ourselves in His presence and all that He has forever.

Lastly, I also enjoy the fact that our God is INFINITE. Be it in love, strength or wisdom, we can never comprehend the things that He do and the way that He does them. he is so rich and full that words can never be able to express His works. Who can explain the rationale of why the father in the parable can love his sons so much that he is able to beg his older son to join in the party and ran towards his younger son to recover him? This is even more so of our Father, that He sent His only son Jesus Christ to die for us and to be tortured by His creation. What is man that you are mindful of him?
Unlike the loves of this world, which is temporary, our God's love is eternal, infinite, and everlasting. One day, when the present heaven and earth passed away, what's there will be the new heaven and new earth and till then only God's love can be sustained... So my dear readers, let us start to invest in God's love and not love the world... for it is more worthwhile and more meaningful if we love our Father... A kingdom that is eternal is waiting for us....

Well, i shall stop sharing now... since it's getting a bit too long.... but i hope that the Lord will be able to open your eyes and show you that He is the one that you should love and build a relationship with :) Amen.

Happy Birthday to me :)

2007-06-18T06:05:00.000+08:00

well, today's my birthday... (woah...) haha. lol... anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ESTHER!! you're 18 this year...

well, i am not exactly very excited about being 18... cannot be childish le... need to act more adult liao... dun really like the fact but what to do... we all need to grow up... so i hope i can face the fact asap :)

May the Lord continue to lead and guide me more each day :))

Nice song....

2007-06-15T10:52:00.000+08:00

Well, i'm back from a series of children's camp (serving) and youth conference orgainised by my church... haha, i shall update and share my experience another time... since not really very free now... but prior to that, let me share this hymn that i enjoyed much while i was in the youth camp... not in the youth hymnal though... haha.

祷告

祷告，因为我渺小
祷告，因为我知道我需要
明了，你心意对我重要

祷告，已假装不了
祷告，因为你的爱我需要
你关怀，我走过的你都明白

有些事我只想对你说
因你比任何人都爱我
痛苦从眼中流下
我知道你为我擦

在早晨我也要来对你说
主耶稣今天我为你活
所需要的力量你天天赐给我
你恩典够我用

Amen! Hallelujah :)

Build 4 Hope

2007-06-02T08:09:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a hard core 10-hour straight CIP fundraising for "Build 4 Hope" Project for Habitat for Humanity @ Bedok Interchange...

ok... not exactly 10 hours... 7 hours were used for asking of donations, 3 hours were spent eating, traveling by bus, and slacking... The whole time standing there asking for donations was tiring and repetitive (cos have to keep on asking: "would you like to donate" and "Thank you" in English and Mandarin...). Nevertheless, it was quite an enriching experience as people come forward to donate money... knowing that your hard work indeed has paid off...

haha, and guess what, I also had the chance to make new friends... with the Uncle and Auntie selling snacks and drinks along the pathway where the buses stop for the passengers to alight at the bus terminal... they even gave me ate some snacks and had almost offered me a chair to sit down... lol... I really appreciate their kindness and hospitality...

Also, in that day itself, I met old primary school classmates, secondary school classmates and even icomp seniors... so cool sia... most of them donated quite generously... although some didn't have enough small change to help me out... well, i still wanna thank you for the thought :))

Hmm, but something not so pleasant happened too. Around 6 plus, there was this person who looked female to me went and took a look at my pledge card (to tell ppl what the donation's for and to write their names...). She then smiled at me cheekily, turned away and a while later turned back to look at me again.. this time round she approached me even closer... then later for some reason, she turned away and went off... At first i was quite puzzled why she had done that... But then, the snack stall Uncle explained to me that the person had mental problems and that she's actually a he... (cos the person looked quite like a she to me). He also added that he fell out of love(?) or sth then always looked at 'kind' girls cheekily... if not for the Uncle's shout at him (which i didn't heard it for some reason), i dunno what might happened to me... So thank i God for the Uncle there...

Haha... all in all, I wanna thank God for yesterday's wonderful experience that He had given me... so glad to have went for the event...

Oh last but not the least, the Uncle wished that i would advertise his stall to my friends and teachers so here it goes:

If anyone passes by Bedok Interchange and feels thirsty of hungry, pls remember to visit the snack stall next to the Interchange, at the junction where passengers would alight... Oh and he's also having some offer for his snacks too... so do come and support the Uncle...

haha... I guess that's all from me now... see you.

30th post!

2007-05-26T14:23:00.000+08:00

Yay! this is my 30th post for my blog alr... haha, dunno if it's good or bad...? but then again, i suppose it's something worth celebrating?

Today, as excepted... a full day... My whole class went to watch POTC3 but i didn't go... cos i couldn't find them and was slacking in school too long alr... so in the end when i called seela to ask where they were, they said they were on their way to vivo to watch POTC at 0930. Then i looked at my watch: 0910... sianz...

But i guess it's a blessing in disguise?? Cos I manage to go down to Toa Payoh Stadium to watch the basketball girls finals with rjc. I almost missed the bus down the stadium... guess i was pretty fortunate :)

To victorians who weren't there just now: you should have been there to feel the atmosphere sia... I mean it's cool! Everyone was so crazy and high la... At first i thought i would not have the stamina to cheer on for VJC for 1 hour plus... but but but... i did it... now that i think back, it's really quite impossible how i did it... perhaps it's really the Victorian Spirit that stirred me up :) [But then again, i think God played a more impt role :P]

anyway, when i first went in the court, i was like... my gosh! cos the no. of rj ppl supporting is like so so many as compared to vj ppl... i was like telling maziah that it is the result for having a full day off... sigh. However, that did not kept us down!! we started off with a super loud cheer (cant rmb alr, cos shouted too many of the cheers). Then to us, it seemed like we are cheering more loudly than rj's because we cant here them when we cheer... dunno if it's true... During the match, at every regular intervals, esp when rj is attacking, you will hear vj ppl screaming and cheering and shouting things like "Defend/Defence". Was super mad la... we even screamed to a point that my eardrums was momentarily destroyed by all the high decibels screams (part of it was contributed by me :x). It was so powerful and intensifying to a point when we were on a winning streak, at every 5 seconds' interval, a vj cheer will be shouted across the court. Oh and during after time, cos rj was leading vj by 8 points, i had decided to eat up all my green and other colours of M&Ms, leaving only the yellows, reds and orange ones. And i guess that worked?? lol... guess i m too superstitious...

The results: WE WON!!! 53-50. An exciting and tough and close match. One of the best games i had ever been to :D

With our morale boosted to the max, we took the charted bus and went to Jalan Besar 2 hours earlier to support the soccer girls in their finals against sajc. So early right?? Well i spent the 2 hours accompanying dish and wash to hawker centre to eat their LUNCH and watched the last part of the 3rd/4th placing match between tj and rj... rj won 1-0.

Then the game started.. not too long later, caron shidah nasrul zamir siswand taufiq (together with elliot but he went to sit with the sailors) came for match support... haha, finally my friends are here :) and according to nasrul, after watching POTC, the guys went to bookstores and walked around vivo while the girls went SHOPPING!! ok ok... enough of digressing. as i was saying, they came and sat with them as a class to cheer on the girls. but the atmosphere was rather different from the one for bball.. less enthu... then i cant scream for them cos they were no where near the area behind the white line and the net. And during half time, sajc scored a goal because vj's defender fell down while catching the ball that she missed, that's why the sa ppl get to score a goal into an empty net... somethign like vj's 4th goal in soccer boys finals last year...

And as concluded: we lost to sajc by the score of 1-0. Clinched a 2nd position.

Sigh... although this year's sports were not very good, still we will continue to love and respect them for all their efforts... Fight on vj fight on!!

ah, guess i m resting now... need to rest my throat after screaming and shouting for 1 whole day... till then... byeeeeeeeeeeee :D

happy birthday mummy!

2007-05-25T13:46:00.000+08:00

well... yesterday was my mum's birthday :) I was almost unable to celebrate her birthday with her because when i had reached home, it was almost 730pm. On top of that, i need to rush to complete my group GP essay before 8... imagine that ppl! What a tight schedule right? lol... anyway, i had actually finished my part at about 11pm... which i think is so unproductive la... sianz...

But just before i finished writing my essay, i managed to give my mummy a pleasant surprise for her day...

After i came out from my bath (bathed at about 10... when i finally allowed myself for 15 mins break... prior to that, mummy was very angry with me about doing the essay so long and not eating and bathing), i have decided to celebrate her birthday before continuing my work... so while my mum was in the dinning room eating vegetables, i quickly went into the kitchen, took out the cake and on the stove to light up the candle (via the stove). But alas! my mum was 'alerted' and went in to see what had happened... then she saw the cake and was quite surprised to see it there. I was kind of taken aback when she came in cos i couldn't hide the cake in time but well... never mind. I then lit up the candle, brought the cake to the dinning table, sang her a birthday song and the procedure goes on until she blows the candle and cuts the cake.

I am quite glad that my mother likes the cake and the thoughts that i had put in... although i bought the cake hastily, it was definitely not a wasted effort. I could see that it really brighten her day... Thank God :)

Anyway, i shall let the pictures do the talking now... :D

The birthday cake that i had gotten for my mummy... Nice right?

Well... i hope that my mummy will not have so many troubling her and that she can be happy and healthy always :)

Oh... speaking about my mother, remember that i had promised you guys that i would show you the bouquet that i had made for my mum on mother's day?? I shall reveal the pictures now...

The bouquet :D

A closer look at the bouquet...

So i guess that the colours aren't very bad right? Still not too bad a combination ba... anyway, pls comment on the colours that i had used (esp. shyn if u appear to read this blog...)
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Today, my class, s36 and s61 went on an excursion trip to the Asian Civilisation Museum... Yay... slack day :P
But honestly, i think that it's quite cool for Mr Young's class to have such an activity going on... finally learning things beyond classrooms... haha... But i don't really know how to appreciate the art pieces shown there... i guess that art is really in the eye of the beholder sia...

Later the day, we went to delta to support the hockey girls in their finals against sajc... the score was 1-0 and vjc won :)) But the sad thing is while me and my classmates were out there buying some snacks and drinks, the girls scored the one and only goal...

ahh... too bad for me... but seriously, vj hockey girls are imba sia... they looked really very pro with all the swivering attacks and cool 'fake moves'. Overall, a nice game :)

well, gtg now... tmr my brother will be back from his camp in pahang. malaysia. guess my entries from now on will be quite little alr... sigh... enjoy my posts while they are coming...

till then...

overwhemled...

2007-05-20T15:00:00.000+08:00

just went blog surfing... then i happen to go to some fellow's blog whom I haven't visited for a long time...

apparently, the person's recently attached and when i read this person's posts... I was so shocked la... super emo sia... I'm overwhelmed i tell u... Cos the person looks like a joker or is full of crap when out in a group in the past... but now seems so sad sad and emo... (feels like the person's having problem with the relationship).

then it suddenly dawn on me: will i be as emo as this person when i am in a relationship? it feels super awful feeling the way that fellow felt... i mean it's so horrible... it scares me to think that i will be that in the future...

BUT then again... i know that i may not be that emo after all :) haha... surrending my relationships (ie bgr matters) to the Lord will definately not make me feel that emo? cos i know that when the time is ripe, THE ONE will appear before me and will be the one that the Lord has given me... just like how Adam met Eve and how Issac met Rebekah... in a way it is very romantic =) for those who dunno what i am talking about, read the book of Genesis!
[this reminds me of one song from the youth hymnal: the Bible is a romance, in the most holy sense... so true =)]

in conclusion: PRAY AND WAIT...

then there's another problem: it seems like i cant wait for the Lord to show me the right one... i feel so despo :( dunno if it's normal to feel that a not... maybe someone can tell me?? a lot of time i told myself to wait upon the Lord but the despo feeling will just keep coming up from time to time... sianz... why are temptations so hard to resist... sob sob...

then again, it seems to me that all the more i should trust in Him... In Him i can find strength and the will to go on living in this world which i dun feel like to... cos of the stressed and busy lifestyle i am having now... Although i tell ppl i am fine with my life, actual fact it's not... but then again how to tell ppl when u are not when things are rather complicated, with lousy grades, improper time management and troubling family matters to factor in? haha...

Conclusion #2: Trust in the Lord always :)

I just realised some thing just now during my group discussion for YYP... i had completely forgotten to pray for my studies... it came as a bolt when out group was praying... probably that explains why i didn't do well for CTs and class tests... LOL!
Sorry Lord for not surrending my studies to You... I will do so from now on....

ok, gotta go now... byezzz....

P.S. this is not an emo post... the fellow mentioned above had posts worst than mine :P

美中不足

2007-05-19T13:33:00.000+08:00

It was almost a nice, thrilling and exciting soccer semi-finals at the CCAB from 3-530pm...

Alas! In the VJ camp while VJ is against RJ (to gain a footstool to the finals held at National Stadium this coming thursday), a group of MI guys were spoiling the mood by disrupting the spirit and the atmosphere of the whole match...

Dunno where they came from and why they want to do this to us... Siao one...

Anyway, some background info: VJ and RJ were having penalties to decide the winner. While VJ is trying hard to focus and shoot the ball in the net, this group of MI boys, about 7-8 of them, were making a lot of noise (although they did shout for VJ... they did it when our players were about to strike)when they were surrounded by Victorians. And when it was RJ's turn, they were shouting things like "Go RJ...", irritating us you know...

Then in the end: VJ lost to RJ (we tied at 1-1)in penalties--> 6-7

I mean as in i dun care if RJ win or VJ lose in the end... but what makes me enraged is that this group of troublemakers are just there to spoil the whole thing... by being so extra... It could have ended off in a very sad but proud-of-them feeling but they just had to make me very shocked and angry when i leave the place. What's more, they were so diruptive to the point that Mr Seet had to stand before them... which didn't work; and in the end, he had to confront them and eventually this group of guys were being asked to leave by some admin guy...

This is seriously so maddening... and sad.. and shocked... and angry... and... arrgh, and all other emotions to describe the 'injustice' that had happened...

But then again, what can i do now? RJ won and they will be fighting against MJ in the finals at National Stadium... I do hope MJ will win... Cos i think they are the team which are of VJ's standard and they have what it takes? Anyway, GO VJ GO VJ GO!!! lol...

(Oh Mr Tan, get well soon from food poisoning..)

Nvm, we still have basketball girls finals to win RJ... Mr Chan had better give us at least a half-day on thursday and full day on friday so that we all can go down and support hockey girls and bball girls in their finals... I WANT MY DAY OFF :(
(your classical example of a slacker :P)

hmph... anyway, it was kind of a good game, seeing so many nice moves and cool actions by the boys... Guess the soccer boys will still be loved by the school yea?

well, got to go now... it's getting late alr... I can wake up late in the morning again :)) [= enough sleep/rest]

yay! byeee.... :D

A quick one i promise...

2007-05-15T13:43:00.000+08:00

Esther knows that she is not suppose to be here right now but she just has the urge to post a blog to attempt to bring some life to her blog... lol...

haha...

anywayz, enough of my crap. Yesterday was Mother's Day. Glad that I had managed to make something for my mother on the day itself :x. I made her a bouquet of flowers, consisting of 18 lilies of the colours yellow, orange, pink and white. Ok, i know that shyn is most likely gonna say that i have a bad sense of colour but i thought the whole thing came out quite nice... so yar... (but i know my mum likes it so that's enough for me i suppose :D) I hope i can get the picture uploaded to my blog asap for all to criticise...

Well, i am gonna die for chem test tmr...

haven't study + tough paper= 100% fail...

BUT before i leave, i would like to end of with a hymn which i enjoyed a lot while i was on my way home, listening to my mp3... Enjoy :))

Who shall not fear your name, Oh King,
Oh Lord of all the Earth,
For this is your rightful due...
In all the kingdoms of the world,
The name of Jesus stands alone,
For there is none like you...

Who shall not honour your name, Oh King,
Oh Lord of all the Earth,
For this is your rightful due...
In all the kingdoms of the world,
The name of Jesus stands alone,
For there is none like you...

Who shall not worship your name, Oh King,
Oh Lord of all the Earth,
For this is your rightful due...
In all the kingdoms of the world,
The name of Jesus stands alone,
For there is none like you...

Who shall not fear your name,
Who shall not honour you,
Who shall not worship Christ the King of Glory...
Who shall not fear your name,
Who shall not honour you,
Who shall not worship Christ the Lord of All!

Who shall not fear your name, Oh King,
Oh Lord of all the Earth,
For this is your rightful due...
In all the kingdoms of the world,
The name of Jesus stands alone,
For there is none like you...
The name of Jesus stands alone,
For there is none like you...

AMEN :))

Enjoyment on Sat YYP meeting- 5/5

2007-05-07T15:18:00.000+08:00

haha... back again... shall try to be more active.. (w/o compromising my studies that is :D)

Shall share about what was being gone through for the last Saturday's Youth and Young People's Meeting. We kind of went on to a new topic... after 2 week, i think, of conducting ourselves as Singles...

We talked about how do we know we are ready to enter into a relationship/marriage and when can we go into one (if applicable).

Firstly, bro. Wicky started his sharing by showing photos of him and sis Helen (awww...lol.), and then a diagram of him classifying people into 6 broad categories on our readiness to enter into a relationship/marriage. In short, people who are ...

-Ready and are sure= Mature
-Ready and are not sure= Happy-go-lucky
-Not ready and are sure= Focus/Playboy(girl)
-Not ready and are not sure= Innocent/Honey bees (hb being the most pitiful because they go into a relationship just because others are in one...)

woah... i tell u... when i look at the diagram, i was like super confused... cos i dun even know which category i am in... i know for sure that i am not in the first... it feels as if i am jumping around between the other 3 categories... but with much further thinking, i think i am either innocent or a honey bee... (innocent would be better of course)
what do u all think?? haha.

Then later... many brothers went up to share about being mature in relationship... ie in order to get into one, we all must be mature in handling this relationship and bear responsibility for it...

But what touched me the most is the sharing by sis shufang... when she shared that everything is all planned by God alr... even when we are suppose to be in a relationship and get married. She then brought up verses from Ecclesiastes 3:1 and 11, which says that:

"To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven... He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end."

So... we should not worry and start thinking that when we should get into relationship or if we are able to find one... because God has alr planned out ALL for us... and will reveal to us when the time is ripe... So in the meantime, we should consecrate ourselves to the Lord, and not rush into relationships... because if suppose we are in a relationship at 18 and live till say 80 years old... we will be trapping ourselves in this 'whirlpool' of relationship for 62 yrs...

wow...

so while we are still young and single, we should focus our time into serving the Lord and pay close attention to our walk with Him... because it is the best time now to pursue Him and serve Him. Hallelujah!

Yeah Man... I Amen to whatever that was shared that day... was really a meaningful meeting... cos God had also speak to me during the meeting too :) hope that this pace could be kept up and my relation with God would improve :D

Ok... got to sleep now... see you ppl soon again :))

Hibernate Mode: Off

2007-05-05T08:38:00.000+08:00

Yar... what can i say but... I AM BACK BLOGGING AGAIN!! haha.

Actually, I had wanted to blog for so so so many times blog about the major events of my life... but then I had either no time or just too lazy to do so... looking back, I had actually not blogged for 1 month plus alr... wow... i guess a blog isn't the right place for me to express myself well and maybe to let my emotions run..?

Haha. seriously, i thank God that VICOMP 07 is finally over :) But 美中不足的是：on the day itself, we totally like screw up the whole event la...
Primary school: all is well except for the fact that the whole thing ended too fast??
Secondary school: Programming section was suppose to be 1 hour but it became 2 in the end... and worse still, during the final round, there were problems with the scoring system and that the answers displayed and the options were hay-wired... so much so that han teng had to void some of the questions...

sigh...

but well, at least it's over now and with so many errors to be corrected, I believe that VICOMP 08 would be a roaring success... at least I HOPE... haha. well, in all things, give thanks :)

FOTY!! haha... the nightmare's finally over... was chionging the last video like siao... my freaking lagging and error-filled computer... gave me so many errors when I needed to rush out the faces video by yesterday morning!! (i was told to do the video like the day before...) In the end, because of that, I can only finish it at 2am when it can be done by say.. 12am?? (and without my mum's nagging... lol.) When... at least the effect did came up well... ppl kind of like it so... ok lor... haha.

I realise sth: how come all my enteries seem to have ah Q's spirit. So that would make me less sad?? hmm....

Well shan't talk too much here alr... need to go off soon le... anyway, just a reminder to myself and for folks who would like to know, this was what major event had taken place over the last month:

- VICOMP 2007
- the Amazing Grace
- Musicfest 2007
- Drama Nite 2007

i think that's about it?? (but i thought there was somemore... sigh... getting old alr...) and the worst of all: heaps and heaps of unfinished tutorials and videos to be done (cheerleading, musicfest 06, etc...)

haha. got to go now... see you all next time... byeee... :))

wee...

2007-03-27T09:25:00.000+08:00

yay!! Chem SPA is officially over for me... gone were the days of practical exams... hope i do fairly well for each of the different skills...
I was kind of happy with my performance today... cos i manage to finish SPA skill CD at least 20mins before the end of the paper... i was like 'wow!'... because never in my life did i complete a paper in such a short time... and still have so so so much time to spare... but then again, i guess i didn't make use of the time well... realise that i wrote something wrote for my skill D... let's hope for a 6/7 then... argh...

lol... and tmr's SPA Skill A for Bio... one of the worst SPA papers that i have ever sat for... need to write at least 7 pages of stuff within 1 hour... i wonder if my right arm can take it though... cos during mock SPA Skill A, i didn't manage to finish everything and so in the end, i scored a 4 for overall... it was like
7 7 7 2 4-- then in the end an overall of 4... lol... well, better start memorising soon once i finished this post...

anyway, after chem SPA, my class went to the class bench and celebrated bird's birthday... (heard that it was yesterday). Caron made her a butter cheesecake for the birthday cake and Shidah made her oatmeal and raisin cookies without using any flour... wow... haha... and both things tasted delicious... promising confectionery chefs of the future... lol.
I got the photo for the cake but i couldn't upload now cos it's still in my handphone... need to wait till daddy's home... will post it once i get to :)

Then off i went to IMCB to return my temp pass... i am officially out of IMCB alr... well, kind of sad to not being able to work with my nice lab mates... CXM lab rocks man... but maybe maybe i might not go into the field of research... cos i think i dun have a flair for research... but then again what am i good at...?

*pondering*

well, guess today's an eventful day... and tmr after bio SPA, i am most likely down to doing musicfest video for the whole of tmr till 6? sian... well, hope i can get it over and done with ;)

last but not the least... let me show you some photos that i have wanted to show but no chance due to the fact that i hadn't have time to upload the photos till now...

haha... SVA people, do you still remember this photo... the toy age is so 'advanced' in technology la... 5.5 terapixel camera... hahahahahahaa....

oh... this was taken rather recent... stella (aka vincent) was lying down on alvin's, nasrul's and prakash's legs when i took the photo... well apparently they weren't aware that i took the photo... cos they presume that the girls won't take such photos? But nonetheless it looks rather entertaining and funny... so i posted it up and let everyone have a look at it then... heehee...

well, guess i typed too much le... shall stop here now and get back into business ie studying for Bio SPA Skill A... All the best to those who are taking the same paper as me tmr... Jiayou wor!!

random post once again.

2007-03-25T02:21:00.000+08:00

Well, nothing much to blog about today... maybe let's talk about my common test result! lol...

Ahem... apparently i did very very very badly for my common...
current standing: S S E E E
(I realise that SSEF is no excuse to explain my lousy results... with randall, liting, and mark scoring better than a few of my classmates who took the test earlier...)
That's for my maths, bio and chem respectively... GP and Econs not yet known... so sian... that's very far from my 5Cs... sob sob... :'( Lets' hope i can pass my GP and Econs... though the probability seems very small... :(

Anyway, nothing much le... cos during this week i am busy with doing faces of the year video and helping others to do their own videos... and i still have last year's musicfest video to settle!! So no life sia.... sigh wish some1 would help me settle the musicfest one so that i can really start concentrating on my studies... lala...

Ok, now time for some random events... first up... the team photo that my SVA team took on prize presentation day... i think timt and han teng looked the most 'noraml' to me la... it's like the rest of us looked rather weird to me on the photo... dun why... haha... maybe if shiyun attempts to smile, alex looking at the correct camera and me looking more natural... i guess the picture would be a perfect one? haha... well enough said, you guys judge it for yourselves...

(starting from the left: Han Teng, Timothy, Alex, me, Shiyun)

Haha... now to the hilight of my post... If any of the 06S32 people who is reading this post now, do you remember the days when jolie was screaming if anyone attempts to post my PW video onto YouTube sometime last year... Well, the nightmare is here to stay... cos i have uploaded the video to YouTube... Muahahaha...
(But now not much fun alr... cos jolie doesn't mind it... instead, she told me that zamir would be the one who will be embarrassed in this video...)
Well... here's a recap of the what's in the video... enjoy!

ok, my monthly post

2007-03-19T13:41:00.000+08:00

ok... i am back blogging again...

well, better start blogging again or else it will seriously become a monthly event to blog! lol!!
(urgh... i was on the brink of finishing my post when my computer closed the window all of a sudden!! argh.... no mood to retype already... so i shall summarise for the benefit of those who want to read my blog...)

hmm... the past month has been a busy BUSY one... firstly, the fellow who messed up my life... SELLING OF O1 DVDS: It's hell man! It's like about 85% of the project is done alone by me la... not that i dun wanna to 'outsource' to more ppl... but it's just that i dun really trust most of the Infocomm people in helping to do last min work (especially since i need to work against all odds to persuade people buying the footages...). so what do? sigh... But anyway, I wanna thank all Infocomm members for faithfully manning the Infocomm booth for a total period of 1 week...

Next up... SSEF (Singapore Science and Engineering Fair...) came into action right after o1 stuff is officially over. Didn't really prepare much because of doing the Orientation 1 DVDs stuffs... So the end result: didn't win anything... as much as i expected... u reap what u sow what.... Although, i feel really REALLY bad for not winning anything to make my mentor, Dr. Lim, to make her happy and be proud of me... Still, it was a rather 'happy' thing for me? Cos, it's now finally the time to say bye to research for now and be nicer to my studies...
Well, i enjoyed myself during the 3 days worth of Fair... Not only do i get to have a mini AHS gathering with all my ex-classmates (like jian zhi, gu tou, jia hui-- MUST remember to look for me go your house play majong!, susanna) for some 叙旧, I also got to know 3 more other friends... who are obviously my neighbouring booth mates: Audrey from NJ, Ivan from Hwa Chong, and Jayanthi from RJ. Oh, and i also got to interact with more VJC people... what a nice fair i must say... though judging was... *cough cough*

Following CLOSELY behind, common tests...
urgh... like have to take it during march holidays...
My target: CCCCCC
What I will expect for my performance: scraping an E for all my subjects except for Bio, which I am most likely going to fail for the paper. sob sob... :'(
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Enough of the sad stories in my life... during the past month something nice happened too... The video that i had sent in for SVA (Schools' Video Award) got a GOLD award... waaaaahaaaaaa.... Not bad ar... cos 1 month worth of last min chionging and the effort put in to find actors n solving all the tacky problems has finally paid off... whee...

ok... presenting to you the trophy... so cool sia... =)

and not forgetting... the video itself... HAHA!

haha... well that's enough for today... anyway, it's getting quite late already... well i hope to post sth up real soon... see you :)

2007-03-11T18:01:00.000+08:00

嗨，我真不知道对你那么的残忍是否是件好事？我也不想这样的，可是如果不这样做的话，对你会是件更残忍的事。我真不知道自己能对你残忍到什么时候，因为自己心里一点都不好受。我很害怕自己会有一天突然间对你心软，然后让不该发生的事继续发生。我的内心里真的很希望你别在对我那么好了，因为你越是对我好，我所对你造成的伤害会更大。请让我们继续成为好的朋友，不要再让我觉得你想越过友谊之间的那条线吧。

woah, i actually wrote such an emo stuff using chinese... must have been influenced by the posts that I've read recently?? But anyway long time never write such stuff already... shall 破例type such kind of stuff once :P But anyway if the intended person happens to read it... then so be it... although I do want such stuff to be kept private but I also realise that it's hard to keep it private once it's posted on blog... aiya, never mind la... LOL....

Lord, really help me and teach me what I ought to do... How I can walk pleasing in Your sight to be a good testimony and to always show my true side to everyone around me although I may end up getting hurt... but for Your Will and Your sake, I'm willing...

elfdreizweinullnullneun

I'm blogging... lol

2007-02-27T15:30:00.000+08:00

haha... after about at least 3 weeks later, i am back blogging again... yay... but then, shall do a brief one cos late le and very very tired.

Quote of the week: woman= wife of man
haha... this phrase is so cool man... bro kian heng never fails to surprise me each week during youth meetings... lol... but the quote is quite meaningful in a way... haha... so yup... shall aim to be a woman!!

Interesting fact: what's the meaning of 步步高升 in english??
Answer: ( kindly answered by maplestory) Level up.
woah... damn funny man when i saw this quote on the angbao given out by 7-eleven with maplestory theme... level up... Imagine telling your elders: hope that your career will level up each year... well, sounds plain wierd to me... lol.

Oh oh... and yesterday, i came across this very cool website...
http://www.digitalfaq.com/media/dvdmedia.htm
It's a very comprehensive site i must say... made me learn a lot of things... like the quality of dvds is not affected by the CD brands... but by it's media ID code... so actually discs that are of Imation may not be 100% good if they are manufactured by CMC... which apparently produces lousy CDs from what i hear from a lot of forums... also tell u how to check and see if you are using a good quality disc or not...

well... guess that's about all the interesting stuff that i have encountered so far... shall blog it if i can remember them...

sigh... SPA, SSEF, CT... never-ending workload....

jiayou esther!! =))

Pre-Vday syndrome...

2007-02-14T12:20:00.000+08:00

sigh... i am suffering from another bolt of unlucky 'strikes' again... just when i thought things are turning for the better...

Let's list the unfortunate things that has happened to me so far...

- irritatingly, after losing my GC and currently using another unknown GC, I continue to keep losing stuff... correction pen, adhesive tape, and now... my rulers!! (got write name somemore sia...) sigh...

- Selling of O1 footages... so sad la... today only 8 people come to our booth to buy our dvd... cost $3.50 only... and then got ppl complain expensive somemore... sian... also, i was told that today's announcement did not go well smoothly... so nobody kind of paid attention to the SC's announcement... what the... argh...
and just when we thought live ads will solve the problem... mr seet dun allow us to show during assembly and then tomorrow and thursday is CT walkabout... so=no live ads!! shoot... what a wrong timing to launch the selling of footages... really regret to have started selling the footages... should have realised that time is not on our side :( Lord Jesus... help me Lord!!

- No time to do tutorials, study for common test... because of the above two incidents, it kind of dampen my mood to study... I know I shouldn't let these thigns to affect me... but... but... it's just so tough to control your emotions!!! Why is time seriously against me!!!!????!!! lol. I am seriously going to DIE for common test... my worst nightmare: "SSSSS".... NOOOO.....

- Haven't settle last year's musicfest video... better do so asap... but i am tied down by the o1 project, ssef (research), studies.... argh... sian sian sian sian SIAN~ when can I ever get out of this depression state... boohoo...

was that very emo just now?? well... my mood is still not in a very good state though... cos i am troubled by tmr... it's Valentine's Day... supposed day to 'love' each other... but yet i am here frustrating over what to buy for my angel, mortal and my class (and maybe infocomm exco...) darn...

no money+ no idea= frustrated esther... damn.

nevermind, shall think of something now... but forgive me if my present is so haphazard.... tried my best to give the best of all presents alr... sorry...

well... after a series of traumatising events... shall count the good thigns that had happen and will happen... :)

- My SVA entry had won a prize! yay! hope that our work will not dissapoint all teachers and everyone of our hard work.... will platinum be ours? let's 拭目以待 ba.... but i guess it's by the grace of the Lord that our work had won something out of the 270 enteries... which i suppose is a loT? ok....

- Musicfest audition today.... glad that i had chosen a song which is within my range... though i suppose i will not get in... but at least i feel that i had given my best effort. Job well done man Esther! I guess i am happy cos i am not feeling very worried if i will get in a not... I had my Lord's peace with me.. heehee....

- Speaking of which... still have the Musicfest MTV to do... dunno to feel happy or sad... though i categorise it under the 'happy' section... Pray that we have a very good idea which we can work with and find myself a chance to sing again... HAHA.

- Chinese New year is coming!!! Not that i want to celebrate it... but the fact that monday and tuesday are public holidays makes me feel so high.... finally can get some rest and slack for a while... on top of my saturday.... whcih is now officially known as the 'sleep-all-i-want' day... yay... dun really look forward to the collecting of angbaos though... cos it means that mummy have to spend more money on others... lol. nevermind about me... haha

- I thank God that I have wonderful friends around me... haha... even though i have requested from them very unreasonable demands.. but well at least they sort of fulfilled my wants/needs. Thank you so so much... :D

-last but not the least... it's Vday tmr.... means getting pressssssssssents.... yay... yipee... though the days before that are not good because i have to worry about what to give... but then... it's a nice feeling to get presents... when u know that you are definately going to get sth... lol.

well, it seems that life is not too bad afterall... got good and bad side... hope that i will continue to look on the bright side of life.... hmm... haha... better start cracking on my mortal's present alr... till then... catch you guys in my next post :)

p.s. is this post long enough to satisfy the 2 weeks worth of stagnant blogging? hee hee...

I'm back!

2007-02-06T12:52:00.000+08:00

hello all my fans out there... i am back to blog again! yay!!

The past few weeks have been a busy one for me manz... so no time to come and blog... hmmm... shall blog about today then...

nothing much happened today, with pe lesson playing basketball, which turned out to be basketball lectures and ~10mins of playing on half a basketball court that became a shoot the ball into the net session. lol. anyway, i was quite happy that i can finally run 4 rounds continuously with bigger steps!! what a great achievement for me :)

then as usual, after school, i went in into v26 to start doing o1 videos to sell to the juniors and victorians... dunno whether will have any response a not... but in any case, just try and shall treat it as an experience ba! however, i seriously hope that i will be able to chiong everything out by this friday... sounds a little impossible to me cos i still have faces of the year and some chingay video to worry about... but maybe maybe it might just work out... shall pray about it and take a step at a time ba! Hope maziah, rathi and keng hua can really lighten my burden asap...

in whatever case... i am very very very very excited about tomorrow! Feeling fab and JTS are on... haha... can finally save some money on dinner and get together with my lovely and wonderful juniors and friends from ajisen ^^ yay!

well... guess i gtg now... need to write letters to both my angel and mortal... then all the tutorials that come tumbling down on me... byee...

A hymn to share...

2007-01-25T14:59:00.000+08:00

haha... i'm back again... lol. but this will be a short one... because i will only be here to share a hymn i have enjoyed last saturday but unfortunately i couldn't call out the hymn on time so... here's it:

Big Hymnal 456

Nothing's quite so precious
As Jesus in my spirit.
He takes away the care
And fills me with His peace.
He never leaves me,
Even as the days grow weary.
His presence goes with me.
My soul delights to hide in His arms.

I call His name, "Lord Jesus,
Help me in my weakness."
So faithfully each day in me
He proves His life is so sufficient.

Nothing's quite so precious
As Jesus in my spirit.
He turns my heart to Him,
To feast upon His life.
It's nothing I do-
His mercy's just upon me.
And God's free gift of grace
Becomes an endless joy to me.

Hallelujah! Praise the Lord for such a wonderful song!
May I continue to lean upon Him to seek comfort and refuge and strength to go on with life :)

Anyway, hope that Infocomm meetings will not be as boring as today's and we seriously need more PEOPLE!! Or maybe God will decide on the best number of newcomers for the club? Let's wait and see... hahahaha....

What had happened at Sarah's house??!!

2007-01-23T14:33:00.000+08:00

haha... as i have mentioned yesterday... i will blog a little on the trip to Sarah's house for her farewell dinner... hmm... actually i will not type too much on the event itself... let the pictures (courtesy of siswand) do their job... haha...

Background info: Prakash and I came to Sarah's house at around 8pm... soon later we started to eat and chit chat with Sarah while watching the rest playing the star game... also talked and kachiau A LOT on *cough* and *cough*... lol.

what are we all SOOOO engrossed about....

... lol, it's the 6-player star game (btw, it took pea, jolie, seela, jacklyn, zamir and nasrul 1 whole hour to finish the game)

Sarah's expression after she received the calendar sketch book from us... i think she was so touched that she almost cried??

group photo at Sarah's house part 1...

group photo part 2... with INDIAN pokers... haha.

Anyway, that's the main gist about it.... after that, some went home while most of us stayed back to play either the star game or bridge or majong. Later, one whole bunch of us left for home while mark, jean, jolie, daphne and randall stayed behind till dunno what time before they left for home...

Well, guess i had much fun at her place... but so sad that Sarah's gonna leave us... TMR!!! her flight's around 8 i think... but we going to reach T2 at 6 to talk to her and send her off... hmm... although never talk to her, still she's part of 06S32.. sigh, another classmate gone... will remember you one Sarah...

anyway, hope that everything will be fine in Australia and that you have a safe journey there and a wonderful time studying there too.... see at the airport tmr....

What an eventful Saturday...

2007-01-22T13:25:00.000+08:00

yay... i am back blogging again :)

friday: OG BBQ. Busy preparing(buying+marinating) food and BBQing stuff. Thank God I still had some time to interact with my OG group. overall the whole thing was ok lor.

Saturday: hmm... at 5.30am, my parents and i saw my brother Gerald off to USA at the Changi airport T2... for some robotics exchange and competition. for 10 days. then he never wave to us goodbye when he went into the area for passengers (forgot the name of the place) one... lol. Guess i will miss him? lol.

later on... youth meeting... still on the topic of temptation...

well, we discussed on the 'assignment' that bro kian heng gave us last week (which i had totally forgotten although i blogged about it! lol.) well, if any of u audiences had forgotten about it, we were told to find out why David fell into the 'women' temptation but not Joseph. hmm... well, i 2nd Samuel 12:1, it sort of say that it happened at a time when kings were supposed to go out to battle but King David remained in Jerusalem. That's one reason why. cos if he had went out for battle, then the tempter (aka Satan) will not have the opportunity to use Bathsheba to make David sin. Also, as seen through the previous 3 chapters of 2nd Samuel, King David had killed thousands of people in the battlefield, making a name for himself. Perhaps, it was because of this and the fact that he was at the peak of his success, he kind of weaken his defense against Satan and allowed him to tempt David to sin... while on the other hand, Joseph was not in a very good condition (under the 'control' of portiphar) as compared to David, and that Joseph did not have 'everything' under his control like David, that's why Satan's women tactics did not work well on Joseph (we must also not forget that Joseph was very focused on God and that God was with him wherever he was, hence when he faced portiphar's wife and her temptations daily, he did not give in and fled when the temptation grew stronger).

therefore the moral of the story is: We must guard against Satan all the time... especially when we are at the peak of our success.

anyway, after that, we continued on the main topic and discussed the motive and purpose of Satan tempting our Lord Jesus.... and also in what situations and circumstances men are more easily tempted. well, after another round of 30-min long discussion, we came out with these few points:

*motive and purpose of Satan tempting our Lord Jesus...
-Challenging God's Word and wanted Jesus to prove it (which btw should not be tested, but to accept... i know it sounds kind of barbaric, but His word is the truth! so accept the truth people...)
-To confuse Jesus through the using of God's word, which is wrongly quoted by Satan, in the 2nd temptation.
-Intended to use the riches of the world to make Him fall since Jesus is now in the form of flesh... so He is subjected to all the weakness of the flesh.
-Wanted Jesus to forget that He is the Son of God.

*situations/circumstances where people are more easily tempted...
-more involved about the things of the world
-women and money (for brothers)
-television programmes, computer games
-Friends & classmates
-Bad mood
-Busy... which lead to tiredness
-the Internet

haha... guess i shall stop here now... need to go do my tutorials liao... shall blog about the interesting things that happened in Sarah's house (which happened after youth meeting) some other time... at least after Siswand send me the photos...

random post

2007-01-18T11:53:00.000+08:00

hmm... just checked through my history of entries...
ok... maybe not the shortest post... but it is one for the year 2007 :) haha...
anyway, just a lame post here... haha...
till i am free... see you guys.... i am starting to feel happy that i didnt take H3 NAV seeing how busy han teng is... :P

a plain day?

2007-01-18T11:40:00.000+08:00

haha... guess have nothing to blog about... so should be by far the shortest post ever. Anyway, finally gave both my mortal and angel their letters and presents. But i think i sounded too despo for presents alr... actually, as long as they write letters to me and let me know more about them, I will not mind about the presents de...
oh and i just found out from xiaowen that my angel is a guy... haha... what a insensitive guy :( don't you know that your lovely seniors want to write letters to know you more... but maybe you have your reasons la... see what u have during your next letter then... ;)

oh speaking about despo... ppl complain that i too despo liaoz... sigh... not that i want to make my cca or myself despo one... but there is seriously too little people joining Infocomm le... I rather have more guys than lesser people in the club la... and then with lesser chance of doing live ads, how to let our juniors know more about the club la... so forgive me for being so despo cos i am seriously worried for the club... hope that the 2nd intake got more ppl joining ba.

hmm... shall stop here... i want this to be the shortest! haha... till then bye bye :))

Sharings on Sat's YYP meeting

2007-01-14T14:50:00.000+08:00

ha, today's YYP meeting is on temptation... 2nd week into it...
and sadly, today my group was back to the sheer number of people again... with an attendance of around 10 people :(
nevertheless, i had one of my most enjoyable meetings so far...

anyway, the meeting started off with bro. wicky introducing about what temptation is... in the old testament, 'tempt' meant 'test'. But in the new testament, 'tempt' means to entice and to try to make you do things that will result in sin.

Later that, he told us how temptation works, namely, the setup to start tempting you, the trigger which will cause you to be in the dilemma, our response to the situation, and lastly the outcome of our acts. At times, the setup may not be there to try to tempt you but the devil and our desires will make use of such situation to make you fall into temptation and causes you to sin!! Thus, we need to overcome temptation by His Grace and mercy. Only through then, can we know what is right and wrong so that we will not be easily given to temptation, but to be an overcomer :)

Afterwards, he sort of ended off by showing us a list that shows what are the top 11 temptations that we all face... with $$ being the no. 1... and surprisingly, woman dressing scantily was ranked 3rd... WOW!

After all the introduction stuff to the topic, we then break into groups to discuss the temptations that we face in our daily living, and to clear any doubts we have with regards to the topic. haha... and oh, while we were halfway through talking about the temptations faced by bible characters, all of a sudden, bro. peh khian cracked a seemingly funny joke about portifar's (or sth like that) wife without any 'warning'... " Does portifar's wife looks like a pot?" LOL. it took us a while before we realise it la... so ????? haha... but it was damn funny after that... so lol lar... haha....

anyway, back to the main theme... well, through this 1 hour plus of sharings, I have enjoyed the fact that we and Eve are easily ensnared by temptation is because of the lust of the eyes, lust of the flesh and the pride of life... never kinda knew that it was catergorised into these 3 sections. Also, I have enjoyed the part that although we may be tempted by our closest kin and at times disobeying them to do the right things, which made us 'sin' against our parents, as long as we know that we should do things that pleases God, it is ok if we disobeying them... providing that we are doing things for the sake of God.

oops... time's rather late... gtg now... and that reminds me that i have an assignment from bro. peh khian to answer why Joseph can overcome the temptation of woman but David cannot? till then... see you soon again :)

a disastrous week

2007-01-13T14:36:00.000+08:00

yay... i have finally finished writing my report today!! phew... you know for the past week, i have been slogging for all of my days of the week to get the report done. well, although i have 2 weeks to complete the report, the first week was being burned out by orientation, which practically leaves me only one week to do! Not only that, there was sea regatta and suntec mass dance on monday... which kind of KOed me... leaving me to stay up as late as 3am to rush for the report for the next few nights. Then in the end, i was so tried until i ponned morning lessons and came to school so freaking late la... so ashamed of myself sia....

To make things worse, I had accidently forgotten to go for 3rd period PE to rush out the report on thursday; and this morning, i was suppose to screen the video for the roving dv to garner the support of my fellow victorians to vote for my piece as it had went into top 5 :) [i guess this is the only positive thing that had happened in the week] but but but... when we were setting up terrence's laptop to screen the thing, his laptop suddenly went haywire and no sound could be produced... amidst all the confusion and stuff, we have decided to call it off and have it played on another day... sigh...

i feel so lousy about myself la... this week just doesn't seem to go right for me... why? why?... sigh.... guess i have been too exhausted from all of my work until i wanna go crazy alr...
well, what to do? guess i just have to hope that the week to come will be a better one for me... God, please make me feel better.... both physically, mentally and spiritually... Amen.

Orientation 1

2007-01-07T16:06:00.000+08:00

haha... yoz ppl, it's me blogging again... muahahaha....

for the past one week, it has been a fun and eventful week... with O1 going on successfully... and we the ogls having lots of fun with the juniors :) really glad that i have became an ogl :DD

well to summarise what had happened for the past one week (i try to be as brief as possible... :P)

WEDNESDAY: first day of orientation... the only time when i went for ogl briefing... got to know how my freshmen looked like. Although the going was rather tough the first day because the juniors were not very open to the vj culture, nevertheless they were still rather sporting in playing the games and doing the cheers. Presenting Ayden Ajisen: Jui May, Fiona, Mae Chyi, Jaslyn, Yuanyuan, Kai Li, Xiaoxian, Tina, Wee Ho, Warran, Christoper, Linsen, and Jun Jin (a.k.a JJ)

THURSDAY: day 2 of orientation. Chemistry R-paper. felt that the paper was ok for me, should do fine though i doubt it will be any very good grades. The juniors became more active as they got to know each other better. Had our og dinner at parkway yoshinoya... actually almost the whole of Ayden went there to eat except for bird's group. We then went up to the enterance of the parkway parade office 'tower' to do our cheers and mass dance silently until the security guard came to chase us away. We did the 'wa' cheer in front of another OG group and subsequently went to buy bubble tea before a group of us went to the playground while others, including me, went home to rest (we wanted to eat ice-cream one... then later shu xie wanted to drink bubble tea so every1 went drinking bubble tea instead).

FRIDAY: 3rd and last day of orientation... time flies so fast sia... :( anyway, got to finally meet 07s32 alr... yay. but quite sad sia, our junior class got less people then us. haha... i got to impose as a freshmen, called mavis cos she wasnt present the other day, with my very very long ahs skirt... how i miss my sec school uniform. (though i felt that i could do better for my acting cos i think it wasn't very convincing... almost said the wrong thing to jolie cos for a while i forgot that i was mavis) haha... also got the juniors to do the 'tradition' (a.k.a making them jump pass the whole of level 4 facing the classrooms' windows, doing the crab walk action...) i had to play along with them though... nevertheless, they were rather sporting... so good job to u all 07S32 :) Had also caron (as princess diana), vincent (as justin) and siswand (as the mugger xinmin boy) to impose as freshmen to scare our juniors... lollollollol.

anyway, after this was back to orientation with non-stop games and mass dances.

I loved the ending of Orientation 1... got to finally see the 'fruits of our labour'. seeing the juniors leading others in doing vj/crew cheers was really a heart-warming picture.... Though the circle game thingy made them looked super wierd though.. some of my friends had even commented that they looked scary. o_O

boy oh boy.... it was then that we the patriots ogls had came to know the super cool and funny cheer... the yup cheer... with hand signals of our handing mimicking the biting action... saying yup at the same time.

Patriots how are you feeling today??
We're feeling good YUP
We're feeling good YUP
We're feeling very very very very good YUP YUP YUP
Who's the best in VJ?
Wo-ahahah(x3)
PATRIOTS YUP
Wo-ahahah(x3)
PATRIOTS YUP

Then after the whole orientation had ended with a series of mass dances, thankyous, videos and sea regatta briefing, it's on to OG dinner again :) Had our dinner and my 1st visit at Thai Pan... really loved the butter squids... rocks my socks manz... although we/they pangseh the other Ayden OGs/us for Marina Square. Finally went to secret receipe for cheese cake while we did a Yo VJC cheer with another unknown OG group when we were at the opposite sides of the roads... cool manz... Finally i end off my day with taking a cab down to bedok interchange with wee ho and shu xie before taking a bus home to rest from the whole tiring 3 days of non-stop activities...

Haha... well i need to take my beauty sleep now bye for now :)

Weee....

2007-01-03T06:43:00.000+08:00

haha... so fast, 1 year had passed and we are on to 2007... weee..... well, i would like to wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

well... for the past few days of last year, i have been rather busy with my research report and redoing one of my experiments because i have left some of the data out... but Thank God i manage to finish my experiments before 2007 :)

hmm... out in front of me are wonderful and exciting events that is going to happen to me for 2007... here's a brief summary on the things happening... :)

1. ORIENTATION 1... yipee... my first (and last) time being an OGL... 3 days of fun-filled days together with all of my juniors... can't wait for tmr to experience all of these things... :D (though i need to wake up very very early for briefing... sigh....)

2. CHEMISTRY R-PAPER. lol. i cant imagine i would list it under here... but anyway, hope that this paper will be over soon :) well... hope that i wouldn't fail this paper and break through the 'E' barrier if u know what i mean... haha.

3. SENIOR MEET JUNIOR... hmm... quite looking forward to knowing who's in 07S32 and play the angel-mortal game with them... haha... wonder if it would be as fun as last year's a not?

4. SSEF 2007. I dunno if i can make it to have my project displayed at science centre a not... but i do hope i can go there... afterall i worked so hard for on-off 6 months hoping that i can at least display my puny little project up there to tell people about my project. heehee...

5. JTS... haha.... it's time for revenge!! Muahahaha... I am feeling damn evil manz... hmm... hope that they will treat us to fish&co.? err... subsidise a little bit can alr... i dun mind paying a little for my dish cos it will be my first time there if they are bringing us there. woot.

6. RESULTS FOR ROVING DV AND SVA.... arrgh... my precious video works that i have spent a lot of time and effort doing it, ignoring all my parents critics and nagging... it better be worth my effort sia... haha...

hah... well that's about it i guess... i shall come post again if i have time... till then bye :D

Happy holidays...

2006-12-26T14:33:00.000+08:00

for those who read my post....

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!

note that i didn't say merry christmas cos there's no such thing called christmas....

first things first... Jesus Christ was not born on the 25th December! apparently, it was some Greek god's birthday that day and people for some reason mixed this day together with the birth of Jesus Christ. And for your information, according to some bible scholars, Jesus was born somewhere around the month of September...

secondly, and more importantly, we should celebrate more on His death and the day that He resurrected cos those are the days that He set us free from our sins and gave a new life in us through the death of our old man and the 'awakening' of our spirit...

So it's important that we treat each Sunday meeting with respect cos it's that day where we remember His Death and our new lives...

well... sorry if i have offended anybody through my post.... cos i really feel we should not celebrate Christmas cos it's Man's tradition and that's not what God wants us to follow.... May God have mercy on His people and i pray that more people (and Christians) will see the light and stop celebrating Christmas....

anyway, people will take this chance to have a good rest then... haha....

Losing my things!

2006-12-25T14:33:00.000+08:00

argh... i lost my SD memory card that's supposed to be in my mp3... nooo.....
so sad la... if my memory did not fail me, i think i lost it in the MOE buliding outside the door towards the visitors' carpark file landing... sob sob.... :'(

AND i only found out that i lost it on SATURDAY because i wanted to listen to my mp3 on my way to youth meeting!! (i was at MOE buliding on thursday night because i was waiting for my dad to pick me up and i went strolling there to kill time.)

ALL MY PRECIOUS SONG FILES ARE IN THERE!!! (although i backed up my files in the computer alr la....) but still... i want my SD card back!! it's either i get my card back or someone just have to get a new one back... -winks at ppl looking at this post to buy me the perfect gift for... new year?- sigh... guess i just have to look out for a new one myself and starts drowning myself in the world of music :) lala....

speaking about losing things... i have realised i have lost quite a number of things for the past 2 months... shall do a list.... here goes nothing...

1. obviously... my SD memory card
2. my comb! for some reason, after a faithful night of combing my hair, i misplaced it somewhere in the house and i cant find it!!
3. my black uni 0.5 ink pen.... recently i just realised that i misplaced it (at home i think) because i want to use it to fill in the form for A*TS then i realised it's gone!!
4. my other half of my earrings... that one i dun have time to find but should be able to find cos i left it somewhere around the house.... and lastly....
5. time to study for my chem r paper and finish up my holiday homework.... wahh....

i guess i still have stuff that i have lost over that period of time which i cant think of it off-hand... I DON'T WANT TO LOSE MY STUFF!!!
but since they are lost, i guess i can only either go search for it now or use other means to compensate for the lost... :(
well... i guess i shall stop here now and look for my lost items... byee....

More sharings... :)

2006-12-24T16:50:00.000+08:00

hey ppl... it's time for me again to share about my gain in youth meetings :)

anyway, for today's youth meetings, we were split into the brothers' group and the sisters' group... to discuss some sensitive issues concerning either brothers or sisters... wonder what did the brothers shared... hmm...

oh well, shall share a little on what i touched the most during the discussion... what strikes me most is the verse which i raised questions about...

1 timothy 2:15 -> Nevertheless she will be saved in child bearing if they continue in faith, love, and holiness, with self-control.

well, sis shu fang shared with us that "child-bearing" has 2 different meanings: one is the process of giving birth to the baby and the other meaning refers to bringing up the child... which kinda means that child-bearing is a whole life process (wow!). then why does she (referring to woman as a whole) needs to be saved from child-bearing? Because in...

Genesis 2:16 -> To the woman He said: "I will greatly multiply your sorrow and your conception; in pain you shall bring forth children; your desire shall be for your husband, and he shall rule over you"

as a result of Eve deceiving Adam into eating the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, all women as a result will have to suffer the pain from labouring her children and have headache over the ruling of her children. Therefore, if both husband and wife exercises unto godliness with faith, love and holiness with self-control, then the woman will not have a hard time giving birth to her kids and raising them up... because God blesses the couple since they pursue him fervently... so cool right?? haha...
anyway, this portion once again serve me as a reminder that as long as we pursue the Lord fervently, he will not shortchange us but will instead bless us abundantly. Amen.

so ppl, if u want to have an 'easier' time with your kids, you know what to do... haha...

Oh, and one more point which mildly struck me... that in whatever we do, under normal conditions that your husband is not some great time villian, we must let the men to have authority over us and if we found anything wrong that the men did, we must tell him nicely in love (to kindly correct him and to edify one another la...), not to tell him in a command manner because Adam was first formed. I Amen to that too :))
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haha... now on to more funny stuff...

After meeting, me, jingfang, shina, lilian, faith and xinghui went to velocity @ novena square to go to haagen dias (is this how u spell?!) to eat ice-cream. Then halfway while we were eating, xinghui saw sis xinyun and starts to waves at her 'radiantly'. However, at the same time, there was this guy waiter who walked passed our table, and jingfang and faith thought that she was waving to the waiter and had a shock in their lives... haha... it was so funny can... everyone of us laughed like mad la... thinking that she was trying to catch the waiter's attention.... if i m not wrong, the waiter did waved back to her right? [too bad i didn't catch that though... so sad... :( ]
but anyway, after they got clear of the situation, they started laughing like crazy... like for so long can?? then ppl around us must have thought how come got this bunch of siao zha bos laughing madly... oh and then sis xinyun and sis serene also came to know about it and started giggling... haha... what a funny misunderstanding.... hahaahahahaa....

well... guess i shall stop here.... dun wanna bore you too much with my long entries... haha.... hope to blog soon :)
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P.S. pls pray for me cos i will be doing an audio list for saturday's youth meeting and i need to look for ppl... pray that i will get ppl who are responsible and are willing to serve... thanks :D

busy week...

2006-12-22T02:11:00.000+08:00

haha... wanted to post something for the past few days one... but then i am soooo busy till i have no time to blog about my life story. lol.

anyway, here's a recap of what happened for the past few days:

tuesday: More mass dancing and cheering... especially ogl cheers... we were like super hiong during games la... disrupting other people's games by doing the ogl cheer. lol. i had a great time laughing till my diaphragm hurts manz... haha....

wednesday: which was yesterday... spent my morning slacking and sleeping :) Later in the afternoon, went back to school to do video for house comm for the upcoming orientation. well, but in the end, timothy did all the filming and editing, leaving me to slack. hmph... anyway, the raw footages looked very funny and i thought that the house comm ppl did a very good job. Kudos to house comm... well, while timothy is helping them to edit the video, i was there helping pauline to record and burn the skit that they had done during farewell assembly and doing the co concert video and labelling+clearing up the old tapes that are lying around v26... argh... hard work manz i must say... haha.... well, luckily the house comm-ers were there to entertain us with their jokes and comments and blah blah... so i guess yesterday wasn't that bad after all... :)

today: was suppose to go to IMCB to clear up some final stuff before doing my report. perhaps can spend my time there finishing my report! ha. can finally finish some of my homework alr.

but oh well... the rest of my holiday schedule leaves me NO TIME to study for chem r paper, finish maths homework and econs holiday report... argh.... I HATE HOLIDAY HOMEWORK!!!! but then, as a jc student, guess i need to adapt to such an environment ba... Thank God jc life has got only 2 years... cant imagine how i would survive if it was 4 years!!

well, got to go now... need to get ready to go to IMCB! If there's time, I shall come back tonight and blog :) hope the freshmen list can come out as soon as possible so i can start calling... heex... :)

Orientation Training

2006-12-19T15:44:00.000+08:00

Did A LOT of mass dances today... haha... super tiring... but super fun too....
I can finally get to do my NEUTRON dance again :)
I need to go practice my running man though... :( tough luck!
But nvm, i guess today's mass dance and cheering session was fun... Good workout for me too... though i almost died after doing like close to 10 times of dances.

I received a sms from Dr. Lim: No need to redo experiment... result looks fine...
yay! finally dun need to redo the experiments again :) Thank God....

My sharings...

2006-12-17T14:23:00.000+08:00

ha... this is so cool... my second post of the day.... hmm... i wonder if i could do that everyday... woah... if like that i will sure spend lots of time blogging manz... but anyway, if it means that i could reflect on my actions at the end of the day, why not?

Well, this post will be dedicated to what i have gained from the youth meeting today... so here it goes...

Today's youth meeting is still on the saints' sharings on what they have gained during the conference held on 3-6 dec and 2 special nights' meetings on the 8th and 9th of dec. well... apparently, i did not have the courage to stand up and share cos i found my enjoyment a little personal... but then as ee shan said that if u stand up to speak, u will gain a lot... guess i have lost a lot by not sharing today :( soo... to make up for the loss i will be sharing my testimony later... but for now, let me recall what was being shared first :)

Bro. benard started the ball rolling by reading a lot of verses from 1 and 2 timothy, 1 corinthians and 2 peter (and some more others which i kinda forget). But, while reading through all those verses, his main point was that we need to run the heavenly race such that we can obtain the imperishable crown by running finish the race, we need to exercise unto godliness cos it's profitable for all things and on top of that, preach His word in season and out of season. Then after his sharing, sis hui nee stood up and continued to share on how we always self proclaim ourselves as kings in the house of the living God. Later that, many other saints stood up to share... was quite touched by their experiences with the Lord...

Well, throughout all the sharings, the one point that has the most impact on me is that we need to tame our mouths and not to gossip about others. Also, the point about prayers being very important also once again reminded me to turn back to the Lord again. I Amen to all the sharings and esp. the 2 above because i always fall short of His standards. Everytime when we talk to our friends, we will like to talk about other people's gossips that does not edify one another, but instead it may cause people to have misunderstandings with each other... Oh Lord, pls help me and others to tame our mouths so that we may not speak things out that are meant to be a secret. "If you have nothing good to say about this person, don't speak". Amen :)

haha... now my turn to share... well, there was this night meeting during the conference where our brother john so said that we should not sympathise with ourselves and that we should tell the Lord that "I am like that already, if u want take it, if not leave it" because He will sure leave it one... in order to become useful vessels for His house, we need to be able to submit to Him and let Him mould us. We also need to do things that pleases Him, even if it means doing things that we dislike, like always obey your parents. And well, that sort of reminded me of the time how i disobeyed my mum before the conference and how i would always go to my bed and cry to the Lord, telling Him how right i was and how wrong my mum was after we had arguements over things like the way i dress and my 'correct' behaviours. hmm... now come to think of it, i really need to exercise godliness by walking the way of the cross... that's why when you take a look at my conference booklet, you will see the sentence "I will not argue back with my mummy, daddy and ah mah-> 忍!!" haha... May the Lord grant me strength to really humble myself down before my elders and as far as possible, listen to their words of advice without doing the wrong things before the eyes of God. Oh Lord Jesus... mould me to be like u....

well, before i end off, i would like to share these verses to you all which i kind of pondered before the Lord and found it quite meaningful. Hope anyone who passes by my blog enjoys reading it...

2 Peter 1:5-10
"But also for this very reason, giving all diligence, add to your faith virtue, to virtue knowledge, to knowledge self-control, to self-control perseverance, to perseverance godliness, to godliness brotherly kindness, to brotherly kindess love. For if these things are yours and abound, you will be neither barren nor unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. For he who lacks these things is shortsighted, even to blindness, and has forgotten that he was cleansed from his old sins. Therefore, brethren, be even more diligent to make your call and election sure, for if you do these things you will never stumble."

Amen. I love youth meetings :)

paint the banner...

2006-12-17T02:15:00.000+08:00

ha... as you can see from the title, you will realise what I have been doing for most of the time yesterday... painting banner....
That's right, I was painting my OG banner yesterday from 9am all the way till 1pm... although we started only at about 10 because the rest of the OG had went to get paint for us to do the banner and also because me and lynn was late for the thing too... haha.... oh well whatever...

Hmm... the painting banner turned out to be quite fun :) haha... once again, it's a time to get to know my dear OG mates better... hmm... found out the cooperative side of our OG and how much we could biah within a day to finish the banner... But then, i didnt manage to get to go lunch with them cos i wanted to accompany lynn to wait for lingxie to her a pair of shorts (lynn had earlier on stained her black vj shorts with the yellow wet paint on the banner... sigh... lynn ar, hope your shorts is clean now... :P)
But nevertheless, i think my OG group is gonna rock manz... err... sorry lynn, but no offense ar, i think we should start to get to know more about our OG mates better and not stay in one corner to ourselves cos we are going to be stuck together for another month so till then... let's be enthu man!!! haha... (well, if u are angry about what i have said just now then i can only apologise for my words lor... maybe i treat you back with hei bai pei? Oh btw, thanks for the treat yesterday :D)

Oh, and during lunch, my OG mates came up with the names of the 8 sub-legues alr... but i dunno what are they yet so i think i will update it during my next post... and ha, guess what i did while they go for lunch??
haha... i went up to my old hangout... V26.... lol.... to help yong wen to get the equippments needed for last night's band concert... before i go off to CGH for doctor's appointment for my legs. Oh, speaking about my legs, the doctor said my old wounds are recovering well (yay!) and that all i need to do now is to continue moisturise my skin cos i have sensitive skin... hmm.... but the fact that he asked me to apply the cream twice a day and apply the moisturiser 3 time a day left me clueless as to how to apply all of them within... a day? hmm... so i have decided to apply the cream in the very early morning and late night, and then spam my moisturiser during the long period of time... lol....

I wanted to go for band's concert to support randall one.... but too bad my mum doesnt allow me to chiong back to school after that to go listen and film with the excos and support my classmate :( but actually i also dun feel like going to the concert at the same time cos i was feeling very very tired after one WHOLE week of going out to school and IMCB. well, i hope that randall had a nice time playing and that more than half of my classmates who went there enjoyed themselves too... :)

Sigh, i feel that i have been missing a lot of fun stuff yesterday... well, hope that during the rest of the days to come, i will be charged enough to enjoy the full amount of fun during the OGL meetings and day camps... and also at the same time, start to do finish my holiday homeworks (arrgh...)
haha... and i will get my tagboard up by today... i promise... well time for me to go off now... see ya.... weeeeee...... :P

My Very First Post :)

2006-12-15T12:25:00.000+08:00

haha... hello people, welcome to my very new blog... haha....

well, in case you havent know, i intend to keep my blog as a secret until someone whom i know personally happens to see my blog and make known to people. So in the meantime, my blog will be a little "secret haven". haha. but "will it be long??". haha... hope it will be as long as ever ba.

hmm... typing my first post in IMCB... haha.... what a nice way to start off...?

Currently, I am scanning my Western Blot result (in the form of an x-ray kind of film) into the computer for reference... haha... actually, throughout the 6 months of on-and-off attachment period, i quite like the whole process of doing experiments, having so many errors and accidents along the way, and having to finally mastered the skill to produce satisfactory results. haha. CXM rocks man... haha.... Now, I am hoping that my current set of Western Blot and Immunofluorescence experiments can be successful so that I can spend more time on my unfinished holiday homework (sian) and Orientation stuff (yipee!!) ...

Ha. Speaking of Orientation... I have finally known my OG group...
Ayden...
under the 'sub-category' of Patriots.
Hmm... my sub OG group got 3 ppl including me... the other 2 are guys (eugene and shu xie)... that makes me the only girl there :P
lol.
well, to tell u the truth, i was not quite comfortable with this grouping because amongst the whole OG, i only knew lynn (everytime in the same OG one..), keng hua, wu fan and dawn. The rest never see or hear their name before one. Not because they are not 'famous' in school, but that I am too into my world in VJ alr...
But thank God, during the first OG meeting last monday, I came to know them in person (not very close though) and I found them to be quite nice peeps... quite on ones... haha... hope that this good first impression will not be tarnished during the next few meetings... :)

Wow... that quite a long and wordy entry i suppose... but cant help it what, my first entry... haha... anyway, i better end off soon and head straight for home... if not later miss my favourite 10pm show on channel u.... heehee.... (but more importantly, go home and have dinner).

Well, if there are any viewers viewing my blog, pls bear with the current design now... I will try to get a tagboard in if i can... and quickly change the design of this blog... so not like a 'sceret haven' la... haha.... byee...