Anyway, the reason why i wanted to type this post here is because I am suppose to study for my papers starting next tues but... but... I've been on facebook and now blogger (i.e. slacking) for most of the time of the day :( Haven't really been doing much productive stuff :((

Argh... Lord Jesus save me from my laziness... :'(

And I have Christ... in Me! ~ 4:30:00 PM

Haha... as what the title say, the main purpose of this post is to revive my blog which has underwent a one plus month long hibernation.. LOL!

Well, as a whole life during this one month plus has been rather ok on the whole... although quite a number of things had happened, those events that are more major, in my opinion, I'm currently not going to blog about it for the time being due to some factors... Anyway, readers, i guess you'll surely know them pretty soon in the near future :) so please be patient :)

ANYWAY, I shall blog about school since i've not talked about it ever since AY09/10 Semester 1 has started (and now that i'm having my recess week in 2 days' time... LOL). School has been rather ok for me in general... But must really thank God for providing me with all the modules that I'm studying right now and giving me grace and understanding to learn more new and chim stuff...

First of all, I want to thank God for giving me the modules CBC811, AAI483, HMG2, CBC931, and of course my 3 core modules namely CBC212, CBC213, CBC215. But I'm really more thankful for the first 3 modules mentioned... Well, let's first talk about CBC811...

In NTU CBC811 is a super hot module that everyone is trying to take... By the way, that's the module code for forensic science... the supposed easy to score A module (or score well enough to pull up GPA in general) especially for people like me taking chemistry or the sciences... But well, I want to thank Him because it was really by His grace that I got allocated to this module... When I went to check the number of people on waitlist for this module, there were about 2700 people eyeing for about 1300 places by the end of the whole bidding process i think... that's like a 50:50 chance of getting the module... Then I was like quite worried because when I placed this module on waitlist as my first choice, there were still so to speak vacancies left... but at the end of it when I go check the final numbers, the number of people on waitlist just shoots up tremendously!! Then I also thought about how the school will usually allocate them to first the year 4s, then year 3s and then finally year 2s and 1s... So after some calculation using simple stats and probability, I realise that the chances of me getting this module is going to be very very slim... So i started to like feel very sad and a lil depress thinking that I'll most likely not get back the module for this semester cos I needed this module to slightly load this semester, to pull up my overall GPA and yet not become so heavily weighed down by schoolwork such that I can't go for prayer and home meetings. But in the end I just entrusted this matter to God and that if He is willing to give this module to me, so be it... If not then I'll just get another module lor... And Praise the Lord that He is faithful in all things and granted me this CBC811 module :) Hallelujah! I was like super happy when I received notification that I got this module *beams*

As for AAI483, that's the module code for Choir. And well not only must you place this module on waitlist, you must also pass through an audition to be able to be registered for this module. And well as most of you all should know, I was in choir from primary school till secondary school and was once a sectional leader for soprano in my secondary school, so the audition should be a piece of cake to me la hor.... :P Well anyway, at first I thought so too... but as the auditions went on (we were to be auditioned in front of all the girls present, who were also waiting for their turn for auditions), there were a number of people who had choir background failing the audition. Then I was thinking to myself that "Wa, surely I must not take this audition so lightly if i really want to get it... If i continue to be so proud thinking that I will surely pass the audition, who knows, God may not help me to get this module..." So in the end, I confessed before Him that I was proud and that I've placed my confidence on my ability instead of on Him. I then humbled myself and told God to help me pass the audition and get the Alto slot... And praise the Lord... not only did I pass the auditions, I also got to choose whether I wanted to be a soprano or an alto... and in the end I chose to be an alto because I never got to sing as an alto before and people around me were saying that my alto voice sounds very nice... so I decided to take up this challenge and experience singing as an alto :) and Praise the Lord, everytime when I go for practice, I enjoyed myself singing and singing as an alto... haha :P

And for HMG2: German language level 2... I had placed this module on waitlist as my second choice... but I got my 3rd choice instead... a module on energy management which I also wanted to take to attempt to do a minor in environmental management. However, these 2 modules had the same exam date during the same time period. So it's either this or HMG2... Actually I didn't really place this matter in prayer before the Lord but somehow I realise that the module that was allocated to me was a 3 hour lecture on friday from 430 to 730pm... which was rather rushing for me because I have home meeting at around 8pm in the east (or alternatively I can join the home meeting with sis shufang and saints living in the west at around 8pm too)... but in any case, both felt very rushed. So after much consideration and asking before the Lord (ok i guess that can be considered as praying for this matter??), I decided to drop the allocated module and took up HMG2 instead, since I'm still rather interested in learning somemore German and felt that it was better if I take up now so that it's easier for me to catch up... And thank you Lord Jesus for the decision made because I'm still enjoying my modules and it was not rushing for me to attend home meeting (ok except maybe for last week cos I was rushing my report so I was very late for meeting).

And well, in the end I took up another module CBC931: Industrial Chemistry instead of the energy management one and decided to do a concentration in Green Chemistry for now and plan and see if I should pursue a minor in environmental management...

But all in all, I love the timetable schedule for this semester with NO 3-5 hours of break in between lessons (it happened to me last semester but at least I was staying in hostel back then so not too bad..); it's both packed and interesting for me... makes me feel like going school each day... and also on days when I end late, I get to start lesson on the following day later in general so I can have time to do tutorial and to rest... And by God's grace, I manage to rent a room in Bro Chi's house, which is near NTU so I don't have to wake up early in the morning to travel to school, since there's still no news from the school regarding hostel accomodation as I'm placed on the waitlist due to insufficient points to get a room in any of the halls of residences. All along through these decision making moments, I've indeed experienced God's guidance and grace that just pours upon me each day... And it's only now that i've truly realised that God had been leading me in selecting my modules...

Praise the Lord! Thank you Lord Jesus... I love You for Yourself and how You appear to me each time :)

And I have Christ... in Me! ~ 11:12:00 PM

Hello blog readers...

I'm so sorry that I haven't been updating this blog of mine for one month plus... Been quite busy and lazy to blog (actually laziness is more of the mian reason than been busy...) :P

Anyway, here's a quick update from me of what has happened to me for the past one month plus... Ok, basically I was working part-time as a surveyor/interviewer with the Ministry of Manpower to help them do the June Labour Force Survey...

Well, I must say that the experience working as a surveyor was quite a pressurising and not so pleasant ba... Well, I guess that only applies to me ba... Cos it's my first time like helping others do surveys, as in I was given a list of households to call or visit to help them complete the surveys. Then when I first started out, I felt quite pressurised because I could not finish a given quota of surveys to be counted working for a day for each of the first few days... Haha I even cried because the households that I first encountered with were rather harsh to me, in my opinion, and not so cooperative... and even humiliating me at times... I had even wanted to quit the job after working for the first few days... But then, the Lord showed to me that since I had agreed to take on this responsibility to finish up the surveys, I need to persevere to the end to show forth the testimony as a Christian... Furthermore, my supervisor was facing a lack in people to complete her team's quota so if I just it there, I would feel super bad and super irresponsible...

Well, throughout the survey period, I must really thank God for granting me strength to pull through.. to try my best to complete as many surveys as possible despite facing more rejections, people who just want to give you trouble, and thoughts of giving up :) Praise the Lord for He is good :D His grace and mercy is just so sufficient for me each day...

And well, during this period, I was also learning driving... I'm so going to get my manual license man... Hmm, hopefully I would not screw up during my driving test in this coming October... But I do experience that whenever I pray before each driving lesson starts for my safety, weather and to overcome whatever fear that I may have, the Lord is also faithfully to keep me safe from crashing onto others and let me learn my skills without much to fear :) So dear future learning drivers, if you are afraid of screwing up your lessons and ultimately your test, cast all your cares upon our dear Lord Jesus, for He cares for us. Amen :)

Haha... guess I'll just stop here for now... I'll end off with this hymn that I enjoy very much during the youth and young people's conference just this last June... helped me a lot during this survey job of mine...

"In Thee, O Lord, do I put my trust,
Let me never be ashamed
Deliver me in Thy righteousness.
Bow down Thine ear to me.
Deliver me speedily;
Be Thou my strong rock,
For a house of defense to save me.

For Thou art my rock and my fortress.
For Thy name's sake lead me,
Pull me out of the net they've laid
Privily for me;
Into Thy hands I commit,
My spirit Thou hast redeemed,
O Lord, God of truth,
O Lord, God of truth."

Hope I can update soon then :P

And I have Christ... in Me! ~ 2:40:00 PM

Youth Hymnal 228

Open our eyes, Lord,
We want to see Jesus,
To reach out and touch Him,
and say that we love Him.
Open our ears, Lord,
And help us to listen,
Open our eyes, Lord,
We want to see Jesus.


Haha... Praise tha Lord for this hymn... This hymn just came to me after I came out of my bathroom from bathing a while ago... LOL... But anyway this is a beautiful hymn... Showing the hymn writer's desire to see our Lord Jesus and to be close to Him... Das ist schön...

Anyway speaking about seeing our Lord Jesus and being close to Him... One way to know our Lord better is to serve Him by faith... And thus the theme of the conference was "serve by Faith". Maybe let me start my sharing of what I've gained in the youth and young people's conference (3-6 June 2009) with a "flow chart".


Knowing the Will of God -> Serving God (through faith and obedience) -> God is Glorified


When we are first saved by the Lord from sin, we became His servant already... so as a servant, our obvious duty is to serve our master - our Lord Jesus Christ! And in order to serve Him well, we need to know His will, i.e. His likes and dislikes. It's after knowing His heart's desire can we serve Him well... through our faith in Him and being obedient to what He commands us to do... Ultimately, when the people around us see such rare fruit of the Spirit (love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, and self-control), God can be glorified... Amen... Praise the Lord!

Haha... so now, in order for God to be glorified among ALL men, we as His servants and spokesperson, must live out Christ in our daily living... How then do we do so?? I believe that one very important thing that we must do is to submit to all the authorities that we have... Be it our teachers, the government, our boss, our parents etc... And not only to submit to them when we think they are right (that's actually more of doing what we right rather than obeying in most situations...), we also need to submit to them even if we think they are in the wrong...

Well, you might think that such an idea is crazy... but well, that is when we as His servants can show forth the fact that we indeed have this Christ in us that can help us obey authorities even if they are super demanding and we feel wronged. The reason why we are able to obey them is because we are not obeying men, but rather in all things that we do, we are obeying God. In Colossians 3:23 it says that "And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men". This precisely is what God wants us to do... and God will not shortchange us even if we are wronged.. If we suffer for His name sake, He will reward us accordingly...

And that where faith in the Lord has to come in... When we serve Him by obeying the authorities, we must have the faith and confidence that He will not mistreat us if we are willing to, for His sake, to lose our face (i.e. to suffer loss in pride) or to humble ourselves down before unreasonable authorities. Of course when I say that, it doesn't means to say that if someone of a higher authority than us were to ask us to do wrong things in the sight of God, we should do it. That's where knowing the Will of God comes into play... We need to know what He demands from us and what should our behaviour before Him be in different circumstances... To do all things right in His sight...

And I was reminded of a portion from the bible of what is one aspect of the Will of God - 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 "Rejoice always, pray without ceasing. In everything give thanks, for this is the will of God in you"... Yeap, so I need to rejoice always, to pray unceasingly, and to give thanks and praises to our Lord in everything :) Amen!

Haha... I shall end here for now... this conference has definitely much more riches shared to all of us who had attended it... I shall share more if I have the time to...

To God be the Glory! Praise the Lord!

"Rejoice evermore, rejoice evermore! It is better to sing than be sighing. It is better to live than be dying. So now rejoice evermore!"

And I have Christ... in Me! ~ 11:34:00 PM

Hmm... I've realised that I haven't been blogging for a long long time already... Shall type something to liven my blog a little...

Life hasn't been much of ups and downs ever since holidays started... Don't know why but I seemed less motivated to do things then when I was having my exams... The sudden sense of 'don't know what to do' is coming upon me... NOOO..... even now I don't really feel like reading His Word, which I tell myself must be the first thing to do in the morning... Argh... Esther must 振作起来！I must not let my flesh overcome me...

Anyway, I'm currently having this part-time job at Sze Lang's company in Pivotal as a surveyor... Or known as Market Research Assistant... LOL... and everytime when I have to go around asking people to help fill in this survey form, I would always have to tell them that Pivotal is a subsidary company of OCBC... because people don't really know about Pivotal's existence... haha... Oh and something about my job: I'm suppose to ask local university undergraduates to fill in this employment survey form (which many thought that it didn't look like a survey at all..) and there are certain criterias to meet to hit the quota... And honestly speaking, it isn't quite good money although the payout was quite good... mainly because now most undergraduates are having their holidays and my main target audience will even be less likely to appear in school around this time... But thank God that i was still able to reach my minimum quota but not the 'perfect' quota yet.... (Err... if you all don't get it, it's ok because I don't think it's nice for me to reveal 'important' information to make you understand whatever that I was talking about just now).

ANYWAY, the main point was: Thank God for providing the surveyees for me to complete this job and to let me experience that He is indeed Jehovah Jireh and Jehovah Nissi :D

And well, I hope to maybe take this time to really let my body rest and recharge myself a little because 2 weeks from now I'm going to be super busy already... With things coming up like the YYP conference, Children's Camp, Driving lessons, and hopefully a part time job from MOM...
(speaking of which MOM hasn't replied be if I've gotten the job... wished that I would be able to get it though... But all in the hands of the Lord la... if He is willing He will give it to me... if not then I'll make further plans before Him ba :D)

Well, I had also better start editing Minor prophets messages since I'm rather free nowadays... I need to spend my time more wisely!! Lord help me to do it...! I can't do it by myself at all :( But You're able... So I'll praise You for that :DD

Haha anyway to end of this post, I'll like to present to you this song by the title of... He's Able :D

He's able, He's able
I know He's able
I know my God is able to carry me through...

He's able, He's able
I know He's able
I know my God is able to carry me through...

He healed the broken hearted,
and set the captives free.
He made the lame to walk again,
and caused the blind to see (Oh Yes!)

He's able, He's able
I know He's able
I know my God is able to carry me through...

He's able, He's able
I know He's able
I know my God is able to carry me through...


Haha... I loved this song... I first sung it when I was attending this Christian children's camp (Ching Hui's congregation). My very first christian children's camp... Hmm... brought back certain fond memories as I was singing it... especially the fact that after that camp I was able to shake off my bad habit of smelling my smelly pillow (because I forgot to bring it along with me for the camp) before going to sleep when I was younger... which I found it hard to... haha...

Amen! Praise the Lord :D

And I have Christ... in Me! ~ 3:18:00 PM

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