well, I am finally blogging again :)
hmm... nothing very much happened to me for the past few days, and as usual my 9-5 work (being almost late for work everyday and always volunteering to stay back in office for 1 hour without OT) in Tokio. But, something out of the blue did happen to me.
There was this period of time when I was helping Mdm Teo with her stuff at Beacon Primary. Then a letter came from Seacare manpower (the"agency" which was involved in giving out our salary in government schools... in this context, it would refer to Beacon Primary), saying that my salary would come in on the 7th February. But as I checked my bank account plus minus one week 7 Feb, I realised that the money did not bank into my account. It was only recently that I found out that there was some screwup between the school and Seacare and that was why they had not processed my pay. Hopefully the money would be banked in by the end of this month, as promised by the person in charge of Beacon Primary. Throughout the whole event, I was feeling very exasperated and worried because of the fact that my pay had not been in and that why is it me that is experiencing such problems when all my other friends have gotten their pay on time?? I don't like the feeling of being worried for things, and especially in this matter, where I should have trusted God in ensuring everything would be fine.
Perhaps, this feeling was coupled together with my anxiousness regarding the release of my A level results. I did not feel so worried for my results when I was receiving my PSLE and O level results... but for the very first time, I was afraid I would score badly, even in my dreams.... ARGH!!! I don't want to feel this way. It made me feel as if I was not trusting in God's Sovernity and power to pull me through... I don't want to feel this way :(
Haha... I guess all these things happen to me so that I would be "forced" to turn back to God once again. As I was pondering about why my mum is so kan cheong about my trip to stuttgart when God would make everything smooth, this verse from Philppians came into my mind (sorry can't think of the exact location off my head now): "
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplications, let your request be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." Amen :)
Well, it's back to basics for me again... as I once again ponder about this verse and to live out the true meaning of this verse. To end off, I would like to quote another verse from the bible, from Psalm 48:14 (oh, I am currently pursuing the book of psalms for my daily bible reading, although I only spend time reading when I am on my way home on the bus :S), the very last verse which says:
"For this is God,
Our God forever and ever.
He will be our guide
Even to death."My memory verse of the day. I was especially touched by the last part... because He loved us so much even when we die, He will still be our guide. Amen.
